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Sunday, August 31, 2008, 4:45 AM
Yesterday's 'big' event : AGIOkay, if you dont know what's AGI it's, Annual General Inspection, for st john's aye. So morning woke at 9plus. HAH. Finally a Saturday morning can wake up that late. (Usually woke up arnd 6plus) Eat, bath, do th morning stuff, &,packed stuff to bring out. Meet frnd at int arnd 12plus, was supposed to meet th rest in sch at 3, so we went hougang mall, ate, shopped, &etc etc. (: Then we proceeded to school arnd 2plus, meet Clara at canteen, & gosh, I almost cant recognise her. Thanks to her new specs. Anw, so we sat with her, chit-chatted &talktalktalk-ed. Okay, it's th same thing. -.- So soon after, th rest came. At 3, we boarded th bus to dunman high for th AGI. [: (but was raining catts & doggs) *sighs* In th bus I kept playing with my psp. HAH! It's my new loveeee <333! So played till almost low batt, then just nice we reached the destination. So coincidental, don't you think? Waited &waited. Then sat there for arnd 45mins or so, Finally it ended. We were so bored, till, we were practically looking out for ppl who fainted thru out, LOL. arnd 40 plus ppl fainted in total. How saddening, D: At around 7.30, In th bus back to school alrdy. Th whole bus was filled w our laughter, cheers, &singing. Was quite fun though. Shouted till, my throat became sore. ;D Ate dinner & mrt-ed back home. Tmr is th last swimming lesson alrdy. Not really looking forward to it though. Cus' it's gna be quite stressful, I predict? Anw, haven eat dinner yet, &I am going to eat soooon. Okay then, toodles. :DD I call it forever love. Friday, August 29, 2008, 3:55 AM
Had running &mini teachers' day concert.Running was alright, I run quite slow. But sometimes quite fast. So it's like, random running. exhausted, but thanks to the milo. Not feeling tired already. It was so nice kkay. (themilo) (: the concert was a bit messy. All thnks to the noise laaaa. I can't seem to hear what thy're talking. But I like the part the student leaders singing the Chinese song. I love that song lots. ;D Feeling pretty emotional nowadays. Especially these few days. I don't know why though. This isn't me. I don't knw how to describe it. :/ *sighs* Got back report bk back yesterday. Results was : 5As &2Bs. Not that good. Real disappointed with them. D: Having a very very bad moodswings. again. I kept thinking of the past. &almost broke down, when I thought of *that*. Anyway, don't wry for me alr. I'm the same everyday, Either emotional or happy. That's me. HAH! Chatted with 'fishy' bestfrnd just now. was feeling better after the 30mins talk. LOL. -.- <33333s> Cindy I call it forever love. Thursday, August 28, 2008, 3:59 AM
HELLOS.:D I'm okay already, thnks to those you-kno-whos who cared(: uh laogong, okay, I shall find you to have a serious chat one day, alrights. Look out for me! ILY ! <333s I gna share w you all my troubles okay, just you see. xDD school was pretty fun today. all thanks to her luhhs. making me laugh all day, HAHAHAHA. gne almost crazy , LOL-NESS. this girlfrnd of mine ((: Sorry uh for making you angry just now, 'that' was meant to be a joke larh. (: ohh my. I dont wanna run for the cross country thing. three kay ammm okay. It's like almost twice of the usual 1.6kaym, I gna die I think. heh. then if I passed out, I gna find my cutecute stjohn snrs. *laughs* ;D I think I'm not going back to primary school. Cus' it's like so farfar away from here. &by the time I reached thr, It has ended like, Lonnnnngtime ago. lalalalala * I'm not going, blehhhs. I'm quite a stubborn girl, so the 'some ppl', don't need to try to persuade me. Just won't work. Hahaha. (x Cindy's tired already, going to eat man. *hungryyyy-* yummmmy[[: so she shall stop right here:D &with loves, tooodles! <33333333s I call it forever love. Tuesday, August 26, 2008, 3:26 AM
'' again, we're given those idiot hopes -socalled- . this isn't the first time, you know?seniors uh, why always think the sec ones are useless?2nd time already, 1st was ndp, i take it cus' we dont hv our full Us yet, so I leave it aside. &now, even cross country duty also gne. alright, Gone larh . let it be . I thought I no need to run, was so happy. but im wrong , anw, it's okay . I don't think you're trust-able aye . I dont look forward to those chances. what for? save them for the sec 1 2009 lor. Happyyyyy??? yes, you all shld be. HEH. = = '' feelings mixed up, random, really I kinda having random feelings, or shld i say, mixed feelings? yeah, I guess so. I dont know what feelings are these, seriously. Life in school was okay, I love times when girlfrnds are arnd, cus' they're the reasons for my smiles. ILY girlfriends, always & forever. but, i really hope, you all gna be with me, whn I needed a listening ear. stjohn was okay. you know, being forced to join it. but I guess, I'm getting used to it, I think. but what I love most about it is that, the snrs are pretty fun to be with. esp, the-you-knw-whos. they're cute& frndly, most of the times. ILY stjohn seniors, outing anyone? loves(: I dont know why I got this kind of feelings, feelings that I can't express, though I very much wanted to. It's amazing how you make me smile. I don't smile easily you know. But you had made me smiled. you had. If only, you knew. But I mean nothing to you. If there's a day when I really matter to you, tell me. I'm dying to know. I know i'm gna be nothing to you, yet I still didn't stop. thinking about you. &carried on waiting &hoping that some day...... will come. It seems like, I've gone crazy over you, you &you. ''I love you'' , I really do. we're so near, yet, so f ar apart . our hearts are like heaven & earth , yeah ? And you gna graduates soon, very soon. It's very hurtful. If only, youcould feel it. If you could, you won't be doing what you're doing. I never regretted it. Never at all. though its like you're stabbing me in the heart. It's very painful. but I still managed to survive through, somehow. It's no doubt, I gna miss you badly. oh, is there anything I can do? I guess, we come from different worlds. things would change, once you leave. It would change, trust me. this is fate, I got to accept it. If only, youknew. I'll forget you, if this could make your life a happier one, I would . It's the least, last & only thing I could do for you. for the last time I gna mention your name in my post, ''wishing you all the best then , S.L. '' I'm speechless for a while. I dont know why. I'll never do it again. trust me. It hurts. Isn't this reality? Happy ending dont exist in me. this is reality, I've to face it. I call it forever love. Sunday, August 24, 2008, 3:37 AM
Hello. Yesterday had st john. The activity is seriously quite interesting actually, thought some ppl dont know how to be enthu , kind of? I was like 'oh please larh.. ' . had drills, doing the same repeated drills lor, so it's oh-so-boring. Heh. Then PeeTaye-d. oh my . they dont wana shout during the countings , so end up me&Dora no choice but to be louder. gahhhhh! can you all be more cooperative or not ????!!!!!!!!!! IF you all nvr shout, only some shouted, if punished, THOSE WHO SHOUTED ALSO GET PUNISHED YOU KNW ! ! !then got games. was quite funny the frog game. HAHAHAHA><> Teehee. but still, they dont wana shout louder, end up get scolded lor, I really really dont want to say anything about it already. so tired. *SIGHS* then go find mummy! yayness. then at orchard thr, I shopped like crazy girl(x inlovewith-shopping okay[: oh & cut hair, but dont see it. it's very stupid looook ; GAHHHH. then dinner-ed with mum&third aunt. at some dont knw restaurant, but was really damnnnn high class larh! really.really. very high class la , OMFG. lol, at Orchard what. lol & LOL . I ordered steakkk : &it's super niceeee! OMGGG . but super ex ; guess the price ? uh, nvrmind. . then home-d to aunt's house at orchard thr, so slackkkked in th rooom . YAYNESS;D I love to slackkk. &guess what I did afterthat? *winks** I AUDI-ED ! :DDD OMG, i miss audi-ing like , much. so lalalala, audi-ed from 8 to 10 lidat . after tht, want go out agn. cus' mum&aunt haven eat mah, only i eat. (I feel so pamperedddd[: ) so went out to pei thm eat lor, the place I decide leys! (: & so we went to................CLARKE QUAY ! [: oh mannn. so thy eat, & I stole some of their food at times , making thm uber irritated... *SMILES* I told them : haiya, I very good can? I help you all eat ley, so can lose some fats hahaha. so they sort of, looked at me. in idk what way. :D at clarke quay, i saw lots of pubbbbs, 0MGGGG. some ppl walked out like wana fall down lidat, lala, &damn la, one of the grps go attitude me?! so pfffft . so I attitude them back larh , D U H ?!! &ran away , (mum&aunt was so infront alr.) *SMILEEEE* lucky thy nvr come settle with me. HAHAHA ; oh am i that scaryy *coughs* && I saw some shuai & SUPER cute guys , arnd 15-19yrs old lidat. & I mean it, by SUPER alrights. is really super . cute& shuaiii:DD AWEEEEEEE MY TIANNN ! (I mean, OMG...=x ) thn taxied back home... &audi-ed till 2 am &slppppp. HAHA. alrights, im done crapping , &&& CRAPPING's THE <333 ! toodlessssss! (: cindy I call it forever love. Thursday, August 21, 2008, 3:24 AM
Hellos[:waanted to uploadddd piccys of someone. you-shld-knw-who-uhhhh** if you were thr that day ~ ~ HAHAHAHA. the piccies. lmao ~ but fortunately for that someone, I cant post th piccies today, cus' this com a bit siaosiao. )': wait till I get my lappy. (thenyouknw...) mum still using. zxzZz. but i swear i gnaaaaa post 'em, for entertainment purpose. okay luhhs, am I that bad? = = then i just post one of that person's piccy, that'll do. (even though i hv loads of 'em.) don't say i'm evil then. :D somehow, I cant wait for this coming Monday. swimming's the loveeeee ! actually idk how to swim one leys . I learnt it like thousands years ago . in my previous life(: but n-o-w. I knw how to s w i m ayes. claps* claps** [[: I knw whre's my talent already xDD I learnt things veryfastttttt ! [x Heh. (likereal) lalalalalas ~ ` ` ` I beginning to hate a lesson called PPhysicalllEddduuucaaati000n ; I think I just don't like recenttt lesson, v.e.r.y diao eh. youkno , it's l.a.m.e. got thhhh crossy dddonno whichh country thing. ZzZxzZ. yah, ZzZxzZ; then for 2lessonSSS, we have been running & r.u.n.n.i.n.g . omgz. i dont hate running but. it's like, pfffft . can't play badminton, captain's also like so boring .no new games. evrytime play is captains. & Captain's -ball. okay luhhs, most of the lessons . can the cross idk what country fasterrrrrr e.n.d.? thn no need run&RUN. D: no more stuff to talk about, so it's time tosay... GOODBYES. I hate saying 'goodbye' esp to y.o.u . I call it forever love. Wednesday, August 20, 2008, 4:14 AM
okay. HELLOS Earthlinqs[:P.E--ed in the morning. mr tooooong asked us to run around field fr 8rnds?! with rest after evry 2 rnds. &he said if the 1st 6rnds was well, evryone nvr go beyond 4mins fr 2rnds, he can let us stop thr. &YAYNESS. we did it though =x darnnnn t-i-r-e-d after the run. & I NEVER eat breakfast. GAH . so after the last rnd, I almost want to faint . struggling my way up to class . you knw what's the feeling like? it's exactly like, during stjohn training camp. okay luh, i think this one more worse . then my pooor heart in pain . heart / lungs luhhhhs . then hist I closed my eyes fr 15mins . i think. better already(: maths sth happn lahhh. not gna say it here.[x after school go out w mummy [[: then she say can pass me lappy already! HAHAHAHHA . & I got psp from my fatherrrrrr :) :D ohhhh. by the ways. last thursday (ithink.) 1humility painted the tables at the S P A C E[[: for CIP laaaaaarhs . go seeeeee ! ! ! okay? ((x niceeeeeeeeee ? I painted a part of the table with the LITTLEMISSblahblahhs. tht table with the LITTLEMISSSYY luhhs . with laogong celesteeeee, crystal, &some 'sissys' guys in my class[: okay, toooodles! :DD I call it forever love. Tuesday, August 19, 2008, 2:48 AM
random thoughts going thru my mind.but not gna post it all. missing my brother now; I guess I only cherish things/people when they're not arnd me. poor thing. :/ :/ regrettts :/ but what's the use? the fact tht he's not coming back so soon, remains as a fact. oh yes, I got 4A1s, 2A2s & 1B3. improved(: Lol.[: I really miss him luhhs. gosh ~ ~ miss his funny jokes w me&his advices... I call it forever love. Sunday, August 17, 2008, 11:20 AM
Update here.as celeste said. (: yesterday's my brother went to NY already. think will only see him about 4 yrs ltr, after he completed his unayye. :/ anws, I never cried yesterday. had st john bfa-basic first aid- test. it's alrights. a bit confused at first though. yesterday night, at th airport. I realised that it has changed a lot. from the last time i saw it, awww. the change is uberr biggg. many thoughts ran thru mind; 'd e p a r t u r e' this word.... it hurts. I almost cried, but didn't. anyway, I gna be right here waiting fr your arrival. [: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO ~ 170808 ; it's TODAYYYYYYY ! okay tooooodles ~ ~ I call it forever love. Wednesday, August 13, 2008, 3:27 AM
Hellos:DJust read classmate's blog. I read her 2nd latest post about ndp, she said she wished that she had joined UG or band. I wish she had join stjohn w me. Cus' now, im like all alone by myself thr. lonely ~ ~ she said the parade was darn coool. but I think agn, even if she joined stjohn, I think she gna quittt? :/ nvrmindddd. take a step at a time. I dont like my life in any way. yeah, dont like it. frnds uh, are they frnds. everytime treat you so nice like you're what lidat, then after they 'used' you , they left you thr alone by urself. perhaps I dont even have true frnds. those fake concerns, what for? Now, almost evryone treat me like dont know wat. I dont really make much a difference to anyone . but, I wont let that be an obstacle to me . I just broke down, again . cus' my mum luh , treat me like some 5yearold kid. scold &scold. In school, I cant escape scolding at least a day in a wk. At home, I always get to be scolded for idk wat. whr ??? can i ever find peace. I think I got to be strong nows. I shld treasure all the happy moments I've had (: &don't complain when thinqs went totally not riqqht. yes, I think I shld be more optimistic. Yeah, I shld. I call it forever love. Tuesday, August 12, 2008, 3:44 AM
Received tests results back.mainly fr maths&science(biology) (: results were quite okay. not my personal best marks, but was quite not bad. For maths, surprisingly I got an A2 (: I aim-edddd a B3/4 but, got A instead. but the common test was rathr easy, so can't say anything luh. &why I kept making those careless-called mistakes? Is not the 1st, 2nd/ 3rd time already luh. I gna check the whole paper thoroughly nxt time. ha, now someone owes me a BIGGG meal, huh. :D as fr bio, I achieved an A1. but was uber sad. hell lots of mistakes due to careless-ness! seriously , perhaps cus' I was sleeping luh. can't help, dead tired at that time. :/ but won't sleep again nxt time, I swear. sometimes, I got to aim higggh. but you know, when you aimed high &you didn't achieve it, you gna be uber sad :/ but if you aimed so-so, &you achieved muchmuch higher, the feeling is real indescribable. (: Cindy's having moodswings again :/ I call it forever love. Monday, August 11, 2008, 3:28 AM
Hellos [:having moodswings these days. kept thinking of this &thats. what's the matter with me? Sometimes, I thought that I'm strong, So strong that I can let go of evrything meant to be let go, &move on with my happy life. But, Yes, but, I've come to realise that I'm totally wrong. I'm not, i'm not strong, at all. I can't seem to move on. you know, letting go of someone, that you've hold on so tightly to, was never an easy task to manage. Perhaps, that's called, life. It's rather unpredictable, don't you think? You'll never know when it gna rain. &when you realised that It's gna rain, It's too late already. I'm confused. totally confused. Everything just doesn't go the way I want it t0 be. I think I cry easily. As in, whenever I think of some things, I just can't hold back my tears. it's quite hurtful. I'm thinking of a hell lots of things recently. think think think, I think I shldn't think too much. Thinking too much hurts. anw, Im trying to reduce the number of emo posts. haha. &today I audi-ed with Claire&Ciyue. FUN leys. ciyue so cute. while playing, me&claire were chatting, then ciyue just keep playing thr by herself. haha. is cute okay. I want audi w you all again. ;D thnks fr making my days brighter(: loves&tc, cinnndy. I call it forever love. Friday, August 8, 2008, 8:22 PM
deleted that previous post.it's not neccessary to post about it, I think. I dreamt this yesterday : I was sitting w frnds at the canteen table. then suddenly he&his frnds sat on the table nxt to us. then I think I kept looking at him at times, then he felt weird , so walked over to see my nametag. Then I was trying to cover up, think he saw in the end. then he smiled at my frnd, who told him i like him. then he asked me if I really like him, sth lidat. I forgot what I replied . then asked me this and talked other stuff. in the end, he said : " high chance(smiles**) " I was like huh? highchance. omg, I was OMG. then I went back to interchange then he was behind me or sth. walked walked &walked. in the end, he was walking nxt to me. alright, chat this&that. then I woke up alr. dreamt. a dream. I realised, that I was just dreaming. but, it was really cool to dream of that. anyway. why I kept dreaming of all those things. make me remember of times that I want to forget. why????!! I call it forever love. Wednesday, August 6, 2008, 3:49 AM
A very random post.Warning : Long post ahead** happy readingg ! I'm feeling guilty these days. somehow; I've let down her greatly. -you-know-who-i'm-referring-to; She has done so many things fr me. Yet, I still wish for this&that. I guess, I've take things for granted. But nw, I wouldn't wish for this&thats anymore. I shall be less greedy from now on. && My results has been going downhill. I admit okay, I'm very lazy. Last time, she used to nag at me for getting not-so-high results. but this time, she stopped. probably cus' I was so pffft at that time, &talked back rudely. I regretted, really. I shldn't have done all that. &now, she's doing nothing, I think she's hoping, hoping for me to change for the btr, in terms of results&attitude towards her. I'm trying now. It's not easy for me. I need to get rid of my slackiness& change my attitude. My attitude seriously sucks, I know. I've let down her badly. I think I'm getting used to life in st john. It's real tiring, really. But, I just need to get used to it. Sometimes, we just got scolded for the littlest mistake, but I think they did that so that we can change fr the btr. to tell the truth, I hate uniform grps in the past. or rather, before I joined stjohn. yup, I really hate it. why? Cus' firstly, I felt that the uniforms look so ..... &wear alr like feel so hot during footdrills under the sun. secondly, I find that doing footdrills is so ........., then like look so weird . thirdly, it's kind of funny march here&there, aimlessly. in any way, I find it weird. fourthly, there's camps. & I hate camps. that's why I don't really look forward to camps. there's still a lot if I were to list them out. that's my reasons for hating uni grps, last time. now, urm, frankly, I still don't like it. Probably havent really used to it. you know, joining sth that you hated much in the past, is not that easy. &you must be thinking, why I go join st john. since I said, I hate uni grps. That's cus' my parents' want me to. they want me to be more discipline. Moreover, they thought that it's only once a week. BUT, they are wrong ! so many days of extra trainings in fact. but, I'm trying to get used to it (: Well, I think now, I'm forgetting him already. And I shld anyway. So frnds, please stop the teasing. I don't like it. You are not helping me if you all continue. Life in school has been great w him around, making me smile, creating memories that i'll not forget. I seldom see him nowadays. & of course life has changed. It has become more dull&boring. but, it's good as well, this kind of life, is helping me to adapt, to adapt to life without him around. I am lying if I said I don't miss him. but, what's the point of missing him? I'm just a stranger to him now&forever maybe. It's gna be over, very soon. :/ you have created many unforgettable memories for me, I'm glad, that I've met you. but, I've met you too late. The best way to forget you now, is to let those days, to fade away by themselves. thanks for everything. now, It's time for me to smile. cus' I've succeeded, in letting you go:DD comfort me . I need your comfort )': did I make the right decision? I hope so. I call it forever love. Tuesday, August 5, 2008, 6:47 AM
had swimming yesterday.was very tiring. I think, it's the most tiring ever so far. I was very tired, during tuition at night yesterday, my eyes kept closing alrights. :/ until teacher angry. ): I don't think I can have tuition during swimming days. gah. but now, felt btr already:DD whee. (: cus' I slept early yesterday niqht. haha. [: today lessons were alright. supposed to have hist test. but, teacher nvr come at all. phew. was so lucky. cus' I never study until details. kkay, that's that. ;D &toodles people! -cindy:DDD I call it forever love. Sunday, August 3, 2008, 4:34 AM
changed blogskin.alrights, actually didn't really like this skin. but rushing so just anyhow choose:D will change again nxt time, when i'm more free luh. tmr got swimming again. I dont really like swimming days now. Cus' so troublesome, go here&there. but anyway, gna end quite soon. so yup, looking forward to that day:DD haha(: cant wait fr ndp. I really look forward to the concert. I want see the HI dance grp dancing. must be superrrr cool larh. gosh ~ okay, got to go eat, complete homework, & prepare swimming stuffs. toodles! with lots of loveeeee, Cindy[: I call it forever love. Saturday, August 2, 2008, 4:15 AM
today is real unlucky fr me.woke up at 7.10 like tat. end up almost late fr st john. taxi-ed there . just in time fr parade. :/ then after that, went to aunt's house. studied history. there gna be hist test this tues. memorised till siao alr. I crazy sia. it's only test yet studied till like tat. :/ then buse-d back home. received calls from some number. first, the conversation i think went like this : that person : hi. me : hello. may i know who are you? that person : hi, I'm from 'dont-know-what" Harbourfront Company. me : can repeat? So noisy there. dang~ that person hung up. & I heard someone said 'parkway parade' in the background. then after few mins, he called AGAIN. it went this way : me : who are you larh ? that person : ............. hung up again. i was so pffft. I msg him, said who are you. no reply. then he called AGAIN ! it went this way : me : Hello. who are you? that person : hey I'm Sebastian. me : huh? did I hear wrongly? you just said, you were Sebastian? that person : ya. I am. me : oh please. you don't sound like him. that person : yes really I am. me : not funny. dont fake larh. that person : ya larh, I broke up with my girlfrnd already. ( I almost wanted to ask him to say out her name. ) me : am I supposed to believe you? lol . that person : you have time tonight? me : I dont want talk to you already. you are not even him. I'm not entertaining you, bye. what duh. I wondered who was that. anyway, he stopped calling me already. which is good. yup, that's today(: it's tiring. really. why shld I lie? it's the truth. I hang on there fr so long, yet this is what I get now. I regretted. shld I quit? I kept asking myself, everyday. I call it forever love. Friday, August 1, 2008, 3:55 AM
Nowadays, i've been updating on a daily basis . I think I fell in love with blogging already. It seems like huh. Morning don't have any talks; hall taken up fr prelims. Sec Fours' : Jiayous fr Prelims! must kkay. It's gna be over soon. I know it's not easy at all. Nothing is easy in this world; but once you got it thru, the feeling of satisfaction is indescribable . JUST PERSEVERE ! I dont know why I said all these for xP Today is Ms Michelle Lim's last day. I wish her all the best fr everything in future. I believe, 1 humility has created wonderful memories fr her. :D Though she didn't teach us fr long, It's no doubt that we gna miss her a lot. (: She's the best art teacher I've ever had I tell you. Had maths common test. was quite alright, I had 3hrs of tuition yesterday; just fr this test. which gna be 25percent of the CA. then ate lunch. StJohn-ed , At first I thought we gna be in the parade, but in the end , we are just doing the ndp duty you see. I admit, we aren't that 'good'. our marchings or whatever , still falls under the category of : 'very bad'. ...... I am speechless. around 5.30pm, bus-ed home. I've been trying, trying so hard. but now, I'm tired, really tired . shld I quit? &everything gna be sunshine after rain. don't you think? withlots of <333s, Cindy. I call it forever love. |
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