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Wednesday, August 6, 2008, 3:49 AM
A very random post.Warning : Long post ahead** happy readingg ! I'm feeling guilty these days. somehow; I've let down her greatly. -you-know-who-i'm-referring-to; She has done so many things fr me. Yet, I still wish for this&that. I guess, I've take things for granted. But nw, I wouldn't wish for this&thats anymore. I shall be less greedy from now on. && My results has been going downhill. I admit okay, I'm very lazy. Last time, she used to nag at me for getting not-so-high results. but this time, she stopped. probably cus' I was so pffft at that time, &talked back rudely. I regretted, really. I shldn't have done all that. &now, she's doing nothing, I think she's hoping, hoping for me to change for the btr, in terms of results&attitude towards her. I'm trying now. It's not easy for me. I need to get rid of my slackiness& change my attitude. My attitude seriously sucks, I know. I've let down her badly. I think I'm getting used to life in st john. It's real tiring, really. But, I just need to get used to it. Sometimes, we just got scolded for the littlest mistake, but I think they did that so that we can change fr the btr. to tell the truth, I hate uniform grps in the past. or rather, before I joined stjohn. yup, I really hate it. why? Cus' firstly, I felt that the uniforms look so ..... &wear alr like feel so hot during footdrills under the sun. secondly, I find that doing footdrills is so ........., then like look so weird . thirdly, it's kind of funny march here&there, aimlessly. in any way, I find it weird. fourthly, there's camps. & I hate camps. that's why I don't really look forward to camps. there's still a lot if I were to list them out. that's my reasons for hating uni grps, last time. now, urm, frankly, I still don't like it. Probably havent really used to it. you know, joining sth that you hated much in the past, is not that easy. &you must be thinking, why I go join st john. since I said, I hate uni grps. That's cus' my parents' want me to. they want me to be more discipline. Moreover, they thought that it's only once a week. BUT, they are wrong ! so many days of extra trainings in fact. but, I'm trying to get used to it (: Well, I think now, I'm forgetting him already. And I shld anyway. So frnds, please stop the teasing. I don't like it. You are not helping me if you all continue. Life in school has been great w him around, making me smile, creating memories that i'll not forget. I seldom see him nowadays. & of course life has changed. It has become more dull&boring. but, it's good as well, this kind of life, is helping me to adapt, to adapt to life without him around. I am lying if I said I don't miss him. but, what's the point of missing him? I'm just a stranger to him now&forever maybe. It's gna be over, very soon. :/ you have created many unforgettable memories for me, I'm glad, that I've met you. but, I've met you too late. The best way to forget you now, is to let those days, to fade away by themselves. thanks for everything. now, It's time for me to smile. cus' I've succeeded, in letting you go:DD comfort me . I need your comfort )': did I make the right decision? I hope so. I call it forever love. |
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