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Monday, September 29, 2008, 5:00 PM
[Random] I don't know why I've been feeling so random all along.Perhaps, he's leaving? Perhaps, I'm thinking too much? Oh well. Who knows. Whatever that can be done, I did. To stop all these so-called 'painful feelings'. I failed, again & again. I know, nothing lasts forever. But this is life, something you've got to enjoy. Though my love for you won't last forever, one thing's for sure is, I'll never regret it cause... {of the simple 3 words} I call it forever love. Friday, September 26, 2008, 4:01 AM
Alright, in a sudden mood to post. Oh well, I'm feeling slightly better already, & thanks for those msgs luh. Today's th 1st paper, English. The paper 1 was a lil hard for me. I'm not too sure about how I did for both sections. I think I not gnna do well, I was really really distracted. (Sighs.) Paper 2 was quite alright. A bit of confusion here & there. But overall was like, not bad luhhhh ;D Okay, sth happened ; It went this wayyy, when I was trying to do passage B compre, I found it so irritating that I decided to skip it first. & move on to th Vocab & summary. So after I did my summary, I had totally forgotten all about th compre. So yeah, I moved on to Editing as well as Cloze Passage. Then, I stared at th clock. It's 11am. & th paper supposed to end at 11.46. I was like, ' Huh. OMG I did so fastttt luh. ' So I slacked, I mean did rubbish, & things like tht. Then at 11.20, I flipflipflip my paper, yeah, & finally saw those blanks. I was superrrr shocked. So luckily still have arnd 25mins, so did it lols. Hah, I'm so blur, & it's during EOY. Tsktsk. But anyway, still manage to complete th paper. :D I guess, I'm just lucky. { Random -} I've been feeling like as if I've been trapped in a maze. & can't seem to know th way out. I call it forever love. Thursday, September 25, 2008, 3:55 AM
Kay, tmr's the first day of my long-waited End-Of-Year Exams. I'm like, happy+ worried. I think happy 'cause it's English paper tmr. & yeah, I gnna be superrr happy. Ohwell. 'Cause I ♥ English a lot. ;D Worried, 'cause I'm still not too sure about th situational writing. So worried okayyy. Not sure how to start, all these. I will ask friends about it. & during Hist just now, Crystal's asking me to post about her Maths common test marks. Oh ya, she got full marks. 35/35. & I failed that paper. Well, can't really deny that she's a maths genius. See the big difference? (Sighs) Random ; Felt like crying out loud now. Really, I can't stand all these. Like as if, anyone can stand it okay. If they understand what I'm going through, yeah, & they would probably gna feel the same way too. I guess I'm not strong enough. To take all these at one go. Studies, friendships, & even, love. All these are too much for a 13 year old me to handle. It's a lil too much, seriously. I'm neither a superwoman, nor a super girl. I am not. At times, I suppose I've think too much about things. If crying could solve all of my troubles, I would. & I admit, I suck at controlling my emotions. Labels: I'm sorry, really really sorry ; ♥ I call it forever love. Tuesday, September 23, 2008, 4:03 AM
Heyyyyyyy! ;Dtdy was... Okay I guess? First thing in th morning, I realised tht I've forgotten to bring my Maths file to school! Okayyyy& I realised tht when I was at th bus stoppp? But too lazyyy to went back house&take xD Sms-ed gf&twinny to tell them this bad thing. Replied&they seemed to be ignoring itttt. :/ It's okay then(: Reach-ed school&kept sms-ing twinnnyyy luhhh. Then finally she reached school. [: Chat with her abt sth&went to hall for assemblyyy. Tsk tsk. They haven't announce th student of th yr's winner. I know I know he may not be th winner. But I'm like dying to know who won. Gah ~ I wonder whn they gna announce it. &don't tell me it's after EOY. I can fainttttt. D: Lessons were as usual. Phew, lucky me didn't get caught by Mdm Hayati for not bringing my file. I know, I'm luckyyy ;D Oh... I flung my Maths common test. Scored 14/35. Tsktsk. This is getting from bad to worseeeee. :/ I don't know why, kept doing badly for my maths. I think I failed to concentrate during tests. Had a lot a lot a lot of distractions. *Sighhhhhhs* After school, was superrrr moody okay. Thanks to that mood spoiler. Tsk. Ohya, went with gfs&twinny to this cute shop, bought a hp strapppp. Long one, &I really love its design a lotttt! I bought this lollipop-printed strap, pink colourrr. &I se-rious-lyyy love ittt! :D Okay, that's that. Mugging for my poor maths, &Science now. Btw, my english eye-witness report(which I did with 2gfs), got 25/30 okayyyy! I'm like happy luhhh ;D So, yep, toodles! Love, Cinnndy :DD I call it forever love. Monday, September 22, 2008, 2:06 AM
Today gna be my bestestbestest dayyyy! ;D{ If I didn't see HER . } Alright, It's still counted I guesss? School's pretty pretty fun, especially a day like today, when there's no maths. *Oops* Only had like, 4 lessons? Literature-Chem-*recess*-D&T-English. Lit. Wrote a journal entry. Chem. Mr Liew rantttt again~ (& He seemed excited everytime he taught us.) RECESS. Aw man. It has been long time since I saw ________ during recess. ;D D&T. Completed my workpiece! It was niceeeee okay. CUTEEE. Oh well. I love ittt! English. Got back compre. 25/40 this was veryvery bad. :/ laogong is smartttt luh, she got 30. I want that chocolateeeee. D; After school. Went to hgm with gfs. Ate at mac's. Then I was like telling twinny this, me : Sweeny, you know that time hor, I saw _______ going in hgm leh.. her : Huh? Really ar? When? I nvr see leh. me : Oh well. I think I wasn't with you at that time. I think I was with minmin. (turned to look at ZM & talked.) me : I think I was with you when I saw _______ righttt? her : Hah? Oh, yepppp. I think so lah. Suddenly, I really saw _________ . So I was like, ' Oh shittt. It's really ________ siahhh. ' twinny said, ' Wah Cindy, you can win jackpot already lahhhhh. ' me : Ya man. I was like talking about it then really saw ________ Okay, then they did what they usually do. After sthsthsth happened, then we proceed to the playground on top of hgm. I played the turn turn thing, twinny& Jiayi & minmin ah kept turning & turning me arnd. Goshhh ~ Then after they stopped, I really really felt like, vomiting. Yes, vomiting. Many things happened after that. Don't feel like elaborating them here. { btw, I saw her . } ORAL. It was PFFFFFT. Teacher kept prompting me. But I saw my reading marks okayyyy. It was 9. out of 12 I suppose? I know it gna be arnd that marks luhhhhh. Wondering how I gna do well in oral? :/ Random : I've think through many many times. If things weren't in this way to start with. Then I wouldn't have ended up in this state, I guess. :/ I'm trying, trying really really hard. But no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't. Couldn't let go & forget all about it. Perhaps I shouldn't try anymore. I shld just let it stay in my heart & let time erase all those memories of him. Though it's kind of, painful, I'll try. &Trust me, I'll let go of everything real soon. Labels: Define love. I call it forever love. Friday, September 19, 2008, 3:21 AM
I wonder why I like him.Tsktsk. I'm wondering why. I can't explain this feeling, I think about it everyday. It gets so hard to walk away. (song lyrics. but somehow it's what I'm wondering now.) Hopefully he will win the thing. But if not, at least, I've tried to help.(: Many random thoughts going through my mind right now. So I guess I better stop here or else it's gna be an emotional post again. & I don't want that to happen. [: TOODLES! :D <3 I call it forever love. Tuesday, September 16, 2008, 2:58 AM
I'm really sorry, I just can't. Okay, I've promised myself not to post too many emo posts. Kind of, bring down the mood, yeah. Haha, I shall keep my emotional problems to myself then. Today had Chinese test. Oh my. I think I have not been really listening in class luh. Thanks to my emo mood recently! DAMNNN. SO I DIDN'T KNOW there's this test (which gna be in CA lah). Okayy, so didn't study lah, damnnn. :/ I think I wrote, crap sial. Oh& chiong 2nd last compre, didn't finish last compre, but teacher said that she gna gives us more time. Thanks luh (: Nevermind, I think I shld be able to do okayy. Teacher shld have written it on the whiteboard laaaah. -.- blame it on her blame it on her. But it's my fault though. ): Okay, done with my craps. Cindy♥ I call it forever love. Monday, September 15, 2008, 3:20 AM
From 5.40pm just now, till now, 6.34pm, I've been staring at my laptop screen, thinking&thinking non-stop. What if... `I'm not here anymore. `He left the school. `I realised that all my frnds aren't my frnds. `My frnds have been using me all this while. `I can't forget him. `My feelings are numb. I'm really veryveryvery moody right now. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Today, I sat bus to school. In the bus, I kept thinking of super random stuff. Like things above. Then reached sch, went up to class. Talked to Crystal &Celeste. I was telling them about fun stuff I encountered last Saturday. They kept saying that. I don't think I need to repeat again. Whatever. Then assembly in class, that was alright. Today morning weather was so dull, don't you think? It didn't cheer me up in any way. Okay, crap. Science. Had practical test. Maths. Was so frustrated by those stupid graphs that I don't know how to do. Recess. Eat, duh. History. Mrs Ho didn't come. I wonder how I will pass my History in this way. English. Had English comprehension test. End school. Went to eat lunch with Sweeny, Crystal & Jiayi. At Hougang McDonald's. It was quite fun, we chatted about many stuff. I think I made twinny 'angry'. Then she took the fries and said that ' Eh Cindy if this one is Xxxxxxxxx, I break it into half ar? ' I said, ' EH NO, D.O.N.T! ' She replied, 'Joking luh xD ' Then something funny happened. HAHAHA. (: After that we went up to the playground on top. After playing, me&twinny felt like vomiting, had veryverybad stomachache. Cus' we played till crazy already. Thanks to Jiayi, I had headache all the way home. Oh, EOY's coming in days' time. Work hard okay? &play hard after that. [: I call it forever love. Sunday, September 14, 2008, 4:17 AM
Currently very emotional. :/I don't know why all this have to happen in the first place. They say "Life must go on," and during the day that's largely true. But when the sun sets, life again comes to a jarring halt. How true is that? :/ &, All that glitters is not gold, and things that look warm are often cold. Yeps, things aren't seem to be what you think they are, most of the time. I've many many emotional problems righttt now. Oh man, it's like getting from bad to worse. And, worse thing is that, I've got like no one to talk about them. Okayy, I think the worst thing that can happen to me is that, Having many sad problems but having no one to talk to.. kkay. I'm having not much mood tdy. :/ talking to Clara on MSN rightt now, hopefully i would feel better. I call it forever love. Saturday, September 13, 2008, 3:54 AM
Fishhhhy, sorry ah. I don't understand luh.Say that I'm blur. It's okay, I can't deny anyway[: I will edit, like tmr? Or maybe th day after. Sorry luh, Cheer. (: Today was pretty fun. ;D Had st john. First was admin. That was nothing luh. Talk about tmr stuff&all. PeeTayy-ed. Okay this quite tough as well as fun. I don't know how to describe, you know, when you do things with your frnds&CCAmates, it's fun. Then have games, interactions, and first aid skit. The games was really fun, I think. Haha, kept laughing. I think I gna be crazy. Like soon. Oh hopefully not. The rest also pretty fun. Somehow, I just have no mood today. A very random mood I guess. Lunched with seniors. okayy luh, didn't talk much then. After that, slacked at playground. Emotional, that's my mood today i think, Or mixed feelings, I don't know . :/ Fun, overall. HAHA, Yong Mu, remember all? *those who were there will know* He's a noob right. Haha[: Random : I don't know why, sometimes, I have this overwhelming feelings going through me. A feeling that I hardly can describe. I want to let go, but I can't. Yes, I know it's not worth to hang on there. For nothing. That's why, this feelings came to me. Is this all fated. I wish I didn't know him in the first place. Perhaps, this is FATE yeah? :/ But after knowing him& liking him or whatever, I learn to grow up, in a much matured way, I hope. Things are never easy, but I think with the mindset&determination, nothing is impossible. I mean, the process of letting him go. Cindy has grow up. Quite amazingly. Love is such a wonderful thing to me. It can give me happiness, &sadness at the same time. But i think it depends on which angle you're looking at. positively, or negatively. &I'm looking on the darker side. Obviously. Can't you tell? :/ Done with my rubbish. bye. &why many asked me about Melvin. LOLS. I got that pic from the st john chart luh. haha(: I call it forever love. Friday, September 12, 2008, 2:15 AM
A quiz that fishhy asked me to do,1. The person who tag/pass you is? ZHIMINNN[: (MinMin) the cutiee :D 2. Your relationship with him/her? Well, classmates, &quite close frnd I guess? ---x33 [: 3. Your five impression of him/her? Hmm. Must be FIVE? Okayy. Hyper, Sweet, Fun-loving, Helpful &Wonderful ! x3 4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? Talking to me perhaps, that'll be enough to be a memorable one. (: 5.The most memorable thing he/she has said to you? Nothing much. Oh, maybe this : ''OHMYGOSH. Avril Lavigne concert was superb!'' I regretted of not going. :/ So yeah, quite memorable? ;D 6. If he/she become your lover, you will? Haha, you think it will happen? Anw, we aren't lesbians. & I love him already[: 7. If he/she became your lover, he/she has to improve on? I'm not too sure about that aye. Sorry ah. xD 8. If he/she became my enemy, you will? I will be rather sad lah, cus' I don't enjoy having enemies arnd. :/ 9. If he/she became your enemy, the reason will be? oh well, I dont know, perhaps, misunderstandings? Heh. 10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her? I want to hug her! (: x33 11. Your overall impression of him/her is? Hyper, an optimist I think. &she's quite a good frnd, :D 12. How you think people around you will feel about you? Hey! I dont interview them how thy feel about me, (dumb qn lah) 13. The characters you love of yourself are? I'm cute? Okayy, At least to myself, I feel that I'm quite, matured/sensible, (i know you gna puke but I dont care.), able to understand people's emotions, a good listening ear,& able to give people advices thy need( really, try me!) :D 14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are? Unable to control my emotions well, sometimes quite a pessimist, like to talk back to people rudely, undecisive, studies not as good as my brother, etc. :/ 15. The most ideal person you want to be is? I don't really know lah. Sometimes, I feel that I'm really a fortunate lil girl. At other times, I wish I were her. :/ Oh well, I guess no one's perfect. [: 16. For people who care and like you, say something to them. I hope that all your concern for me, &whatever for me, aren't fake. Thanks for everything. (: 17. Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you. (5girls&5boys ah) FAIR.(: [eh, all these names are damn random. thinkof suddenly one-.-] 1)Celeste 2)Edmund 3))Benjamin 4)Clara 5)Aaron 6)Mindy 7)Peisheng 8)Kevin 9)Eileen 10)Sweeny (If thy dont want to do, it's alrights :D) 18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with? Minnndy? Oh hopefully she gna have a relationship with her Mr. Right[[: Now? I'm not sure huh. D: 19. Is no.9 a male or female? Looks like a female. (: 20. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? No luh, I doubt she likes him, &he likes her. Oh well, I'm not sure though. Nothing is impossible as you know. 21. What is no. 2 studying about? HIHS. He's in th smartest class, that's all I know, &smartest class ah, ofcourse, studying triple sciences, double maths, lalalalallaala~ xD 22. When was the last time you had a chat? Minutes ago. Crystal called me&have a damn short chat. 23. What kind of music band does no.8 like? Kevin? Oh man, how the hell would I know this? Click Five ah? I se-rious-ly DONTKNOW. -.- 24. Does no. 1 has any siblings? laogong? I think one younger brother. LOLNESS. x33333 25. Will you woo no.3? Benjamin? I will, you mean say ''WOO'' to him right. :DD 26. How abt no.7? Peisheng? I will, you mean say ''WOO'' to him also huh? (: 27. Is no.4 Single? Clara? haha! I dont know. [: Think single luh ;D 28. What is the surname of no.5? shit. This one I really dont know, his blog also never write. Aaron...WHAT? [: 29. What’s the hobby of no.10? Sweeny? Go out bah, &I dont know. Can ask her yourself, Thnks. 30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well? Eileen & Aaron. WOOOO ~ ~ HAHA, think so luh. Schoolmates LOL. &CCAmates. 31. Where is no.2 studying at? Zz. I said just now liaos. Okayy, I repeat for the last&only time. In Singapore, situated somewhere at hougang, a schl called HIHS, in HIHS somewhre on the 2nd floor I think, there is a class called 4Humility, inside there lor 32. Talk something casually about no. 1. Celeste, oh she's totally cute, my laogong. &That's all I can tell you, yo. 33. Where does no.9 live at? EILEEN? WHRE YOU LIVE??? Haha. I dont knw. In Singapore la , dumb. 34. What colour does no. 4 like? I think uh, Orange. 35. Are no.5 and no.1 best friend? They don't know each other. What do you think? 36. Does no.1 have any pets? I think have, a dog. Oh well, ain't too sure about that. 37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? PEISHENG? EWWW. SO NOT. FELICIA CHIA. I'm done with the quiz you asked me to do. Take gazillions hours ley. Must read lah. &the photos! ALSO MUST SEE LAH. Cus' I upload also *youknowwhy* lah. -.- Love'you anw. Okay, done with the so-long quiz. kkay, &enjoy the pics I posted hor I very long then post one time pics one okay. okay, Off to watch movie agn. byebye[: I call it forever love. Wednesday, September 10, 2008, 2:32 AM
Found my USB Cable already. okay, I have lots of pics in my phone but not uploading all luhh. Too many already. &Melvin, haha, he's th psn i said i wan to upload the piccy one. Only one luhhhh. xD I'm nnot evil hor. Only one(: Oh the smile white colour thing, I made one! During arttttt. GAHHH. so cute lahh. At least, ILOVEIT ;D Okay, enjoy the pics. I shall let th piccies do their talking thenn. :DD I call it forever love. Tuesday, September 9, 2008, 3:50 AM
okay, I'm boredbored&quitebored. So PFFFFT by that psn lah. haha. I wont be too angry over you. Not worth it at all. It's so not. Oh well, kinda bored so posted. GRRRR. where's my USB cable lah. I want upload piccies can. Awwwwwwww man. This is saddening, really. And the AUDI ah. I dont know what's wrong, it's so damn lag&also like, to DC. oh damn. Zz. Kk go watch movie liaos. byebye. [: I call it forever love. Saturday, September 6, 2008, 8:45 AM
Cindy's feeling saddddd right now :/& PFFFFT. angry as well. During tuition tdy, I watched video in psp, but teacher was analyzing the qns what. So I was like, tempted to watch th show mah. Nvrmind what, anw, she also thinking how to do. Okay lah, my fault kkay. But can't she just tell me to put it away. Why must she complain to him???! Then just now get scolded lor, he said ''WHY YOU GO PLAY PSP DURING TUITION JUST NOW HUH. '' "Next time i donwan help u download th other episodes of th show alr lah. '' Oh, you didn't see the way he said those words. &added some other words which I think it's better not to mention here. Damn lah. Who he thinks he is? I dont think he last time never lidat one lor. Zz. Just because he's older than me then can scold lah. Dumb ass lah he. I hate him now. Seriously. Oh btw, dont download then DONT DOWNLOAD LAH. -'- LAME. I can watch the other episodes IN YOUTUBE EH. Dumb lah. Also good mah, now cant audi, so like, can watch th shows to pass time. HAHA. He's a dumbo. dont help jiu dont help lah. I feel like telling him : ''awwww. fuck lah. you think who you are. " I call it forever love. Friday, September 5, 2008, 5:30 AM
Oh man.Crystal's asking me to update. Okay okay, Crystal, I'm updating luhhhs [: Woke up arnd 8 then slept. Again. HAH. Then woke up agn at 10. So decided not to sleep. In case I overslept. Do morning stuff. Then, Clear my messy table&read magazine. Played psp for like 15mins. Then pack up go airport study. Haha. I love studying there. It's so quiet & I just love its atmosphere ;D The <3333s! Tuition there&frnds coming pei me study. Ohkay. I love that. Study together. Then after that, go minitoons. I shopped. Bought 2keychains& a black cute pouch. OH MAN. The material is damn nice. &Shopping the loveeee! I bought the sticker also. Some sticker luh. (: Bus-ed home aftermath. Frnds going parkway. Sighs* Want to go with them luh, but, Cant. Okay, next time yea? I promise. :D Okay, that's that tdy. Seeeee Crystal. Nothing much to post tdy luh. I'm looking for something I've lost right now. :/ I call it forever love. Thursday, September 4, 2008, 4:19 AM
It has been days....Since I last posted. Miss me? Oh don't ;D Cus' I'm back! :D I only feel like postinq about tdy lehs. 'Cus I feel like it(: Went to find my cousins &crapped [: proceed to Orchard aftermath. Find my ex-class frnds. l0l, 3of them. 2girls&a guy. First stop : Cineleisure book a room. for two hours. th 2qirls played some game, then i was like '' OH. whats that? 0.o '' thy said is some game luhhs. I went ''OH.OKAY. '' in th end, thy're so kind let me play. &fun luh. thn the next hr, I played audi!~ I was '' YEAYYYYY! FINALLY MANNNNN ! <333> then th guy came. Apparently, he was like, lost. Then I told him th direction to cineleisure. think it's his first time there. gosh. poor thinqq ): so I kindof ps them &played my audi. challenge on of the qirls, lose -.- FUNFUNFUN. Second stop : takashimaya We qo there to meet my cousins. YAY. just pass me sth luhhhhs. [: I was feelinqqq sooooooo COLD. -.- GAH. but I nvr brinq jacket. Nvm luh (: I <3> Then walkwalked. So BOREDDDD ; So...... Proceed to... Third stop : Wisma Atria HAH. wanted go see fishhhh. but I think thy renovate alr. So bo fish Lol. Then walkwalk, talktalk. also damn borinqqqq. Unless you're like, shoppinq? 0.0 Then I suqqest we qooooo.......... Fourth &last stop : Plaza Singapura Oky at least this one not so borinq huh. qo arcade . playplayplay ' then find foood. Eat lonqjohnsilver. EYEEEER. STH happened. I was so SPEEEECHLEEESSS =xx yeps. after that went home. SIGHHHHS ** I'm bored. Entertain me anyone? I call it forever love. Monday, September 1, 2008, 3:51 AM
Hellos.Short update. There's some pics which I had intended to upload, LONGTIMEAGO. but DAMN luh, I dont know which human in my house took it away, without returninq it to me. I gna get it back asap, hope that I can find it. .___. Had swimming today, was supposed to swim 8laps, but I think I only did arnd 4 laps. 'Cus I restart for 2times or so. It's super tirinq I tell you. GAH. & I never eat breakfast somemore, so what you expect? HAH ! But fun luh, chatted with Crystal durinq our 8laps. About Audition haha! OMG, I MISS AUDITIONNNNNNN-INGG ! Oh man. * siqhhhhhhs* btw, Yesterday supposed to meet up with Crystal, &joined Veronica &th rest fr th EXIT thinq. At first, Crystal said she could make it, but thanks to her mum luh! She said it's too faraway. I was like, '' OH DAMN. '' & I don't want to be th only sec 1 there. It gna look super extra, so I DIDNT GO. WTH. -__- kkay, toodles&byebye. I miss audition by the way. I call it forever love. |
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