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Tuesday, October 28, 2008, 3:17 AM
I shall updateee now. ;DSaturday went to vivo with twinny. To watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 :D It rockkks luh, seriously. So romantic kayyy. And a lil touching too. Lol, I wld give it a 4/5 rating. I don't rly like it actually, but after watching th HSM3, I think I like it alreadyyy. Teeheeeee. We camwhored a lot. But I think thr's sth rly wrong with my usb cableee. So no pictures for now. Aww, sad right? D; Tmr gng out with Dora& her frnd. Lols, to watch movieee again. Okay that's it. Toodles! [Random] If I were to choose between stopping and continuing, I would choose to stop. I would stop, once I ran out of strength to continue, really. Maybe not. I would stop, when I think thr's no more reason why I shld continue. I call it forever love. Thursday, October 23, 2008, 2:54 AM
Hey all. Today's th last day of school, as y' can see, if you did read others' blog. Watched a movie, but I didn't rly watch it. Played card games instead. Ended school at 1030 sharppp, teacher refused to release us earlier. Well, yeah, as I said, today's th last day. Actually we had planned a class partyyy& outing, but thr wasn't any class party/outing due to some reasons I believe. 1 Humility is one united class, right? Yes, right, I initially thought so. But it doesn't seem so, now. Or is it all along? Still, I rly enjoyed times with classmates arnd. The noise we made, th laughters tht filled th air, were one of th memories tht I wouldn't forget. Went bowling w crystal, amira, shaista, dahlia, suryani, ain& hajar after school. It turned out to be quite fun. Lol, played a total of 3 games. We teamed up, Amira& me and Crystal& Shaista. In th end, Amira& me won. Th last time we went, Both of them won, &this time it was us. After th games, Crystal& me went home first. The rest wanted to take neoprints. So we left. I'm still not in th best mood currently. Apparently thr's some misunderstandings arnd. Anw, as said, it's misunderstandings so I rly hope, everything's gnna be alright real soon.. Got scolded just now. Almost cried luh, but I didn't. Phew~ [Random] It's just so hard to let those feelings go awayyy~ Sigh, I wonder how much time I need, rly. I still hope tht next year would be a much better one than this year. Life seems to be worse than a roller coaster. I wish I'm gna suffer from a typical memory loss, whereby all those painful moments wld just go awayy & happy ones will stay. Just couldn't imagine it would end so fast. Right.. How time flies, huh? I call it forever love. Tuesday, October 21, 2008, 4:34 AM
Thinking of you makes me smile, somehow. Kayyy, just a short post for now. Not in th best mood, currently. Went out with zm, sweeny, kerlyn&jiayi to orchard tdy. For more details, you can go their blogs to see if they posted anything about it. School has been pretty boring, rly. Anw, nothing much to update actually. I just feel like posting, that's why. And, zm, very sorry for th trouble I've caused, next time don't prank call me luh. If not, I'm just gnna create extra& unnecessary troubles for you. Everytime, it's always has to be me who makes th wrong decision, th wrong choice, & th wrong 'everything'. I'll never be right. You can blame me for everything, cos i'm always th one who's wrong. (random) Holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go. I thought this love would never end. And I think, I'm wrong again this time. I call it forever love. Saturday, October 18, 2008, 3:41 AM
I'm gna post as much as I could todayyy!Lol, that's partly cause I didn't post for at least, 4days right? During these days, I've been like gng out, doing a lil of studying & others. Th post exam activities aren't that interesting. I mean, it's quite okay luh, though ain't as fun as I've expected. Anw, I don't mind, it's better than stoning in class, huh? Alright, 2 plus more days &it's th end of school days. Mixed feelings, rly. But anw, even if thr's school I still cant see that person luh. So I shld be happy, I suppose. Lol, I'm gna miss my gfs when it's holidays! Yesterday went to twinny's frnddd chalet, was so-so. Just tht something happened luh. But I guess, typing it out won't make th situation any better. Cca as usual today. Th morning footdrills were rather, boring? I doubt boring's th right word to describe. Perhaps, tiring? Still, I think boring's th best word to fit it. It's a repeat of what we've learnt over th year. Starting not to like st john already. &ohya, we watched a movie, it was quite nice though. Lol, guess what's my cca pts? It's only 3. THREE, only. Others got more, likeee 5 or 7. And I only got threeeeee after gng thru' so much luh! Not to forget, the training camp. It was half @#$%^&* half okayyokayy. Think it's more of th 1st oneee. &I still got, threeee points &fullstop. Thr was thanksgiving mass on Friday. It was rly goooood. It's th best time to reflect on things that we've failed to reflect all these while. Like, the you-know-what-luh. I rly love th whole hr of peacefulness. And, I reflect a lot during tht hour. Some of th songs were niceee as well. Seems like thr's quite a number of tags to be replied. Lols, I shall reply tags here then. ;D Look for your tags luh! Don't be lazyyyyy kay! :D Amira : Haha, you're one cute girl. Anw, yeah I'll cheeeeer up oneee day, I swear! ;D &I do believeee in fate at times, hope thr's fate between us luh. Love'y! :D Eileen : Thnks! &Loveeees ;D Melody : Haha! Okayy. Joanne : Are y' trying to make a fool out of yourself? Lol, anw, thnks for ur tags! Haha <3 Sherley : Lol, thnks. Celeste : Haha, <3 Eileen : Grats! I know y' can do it oneee! Your geog is quite strong huh? ;D Sherley : Maybe? Crystal : Thr, I updated. :D Clara : Oh, sure? Be backkk fasterr thn! Or elseeee, I'm gna miss y' lots luh! <333s ZM : Hi! thnks (: Shaista : Aww, that's so sweeeet of you! Yeah, loveeeee you too! Haha, okayyy, <3 Claire : Yeah, it has been a long long timeeee. Thnks! ;D Sherley : Thnks. Celeste : I love you to th coreeee too! Loveeee laogong! <33333s ( Random ) Sadly, you've left th school. Bet i gnnna miss y' like crazy. & it's true, I'm missing you right now. One thing's for sure is, my life has changed, ever since I've met you. To love is to let go, isn't it? so you know now, why I'm letting go of you? I miss you, a lot. I call it forever love. Monday, October 13, 2008, 2:36 AM
HELLOS EVERYONEEE~![oh crap. I don't usually start a post tht wayyy,] Today, received some of my results back. Wasn't as good luh. But still, it's no use crying over spilt milk, right? Maths paper 1- 34/60 Science- 71 (overall.) Was supposed to get back 4 papers, but ended up only 2 cause during hist today, thr wasn't any teacher in th class thru out th period. &English, I'm still wondering why Ms Dot didn't give back papers. Anw, I think I gna fail History, I just know it, or rather, I got tht feeling. Right after I handed up th paper. Yeah, &I've just realised how dumb and 'slow' I'm actually am. 'I'm actually am', what english is tht? I'm slow, in knowing that th study breakkk for Sec 4s are like, all th wayyy until their 1st day of Os? &I thought it was only for a week, till like, today then I realised it's not. It's kinda weird having to find out tht 'pathetic' truth, only today. This means, I'll never ever get to see ______ anymore. Tsk, I hate life this wayyy. Going to school, with nothing much to look forward to, &things like that. Will I get used to life tht way from now onwards? I doubt so, really. But I know, I must & I have to. [Random] You had me gng strong. so you know, I couldn't live without you. It gna hurts like hell. HELL. Hopefully, it gna gets better as time passes. I never knew it could hurt me this much. I guess I'll still smile, regardless of how hurtful it is. No matter how hard it is, I'll be fine one dayyy, without you arnd. /P.S : I GNA MISS CLARA WHEN SHE FLIES TO HONGKONG! Awwwww. I call it forever love. Saturday, October 11, 2008, 7:35 AM
Edited/:Alright, just a short post for now. Yesterday went bowling with twinny, Zm& Kerlyn. For more details, can go visit their blogs and read. Anw, even if I posted about it, I bet it gnna be about th same thing. Heard tht yesterday was also th graduation day for th sec 4s. This means that he has graduated, hasn't he? Sigh, I don't know if thr's anything much I can do at this point of time. Seems like I can do nothing about it, right? Yeah, can, I can do sth about it. Cry luh. If not, I wonder what else I can do. Time is all I need, I suppose. They said time heals all wounds. Probably, they're true. Just that, scars will be left behind. Cause' no matter how well a wound has healed, a scar will always remain. Random ; You used to be my strength, strength to wake up in th morning, thinking that thr's gna be someone to look forward to in school that day... But now, my source of strength has goneee, fly awayyy into th thin thin air. Truth hurts a lot. A lot. &th truth is, you're leaving. I should have seen it coming. Can't believe that I'm such a fool. Anw, it's all over now. Time, really flies. I call it forever love. Thursday, October 9, 2008, 3:40 AM
Today's art was (totally speeeeechless).It has always been like that, that bad. My poor art, sighs. Anw, not gna be too sad over it. As long as I've tried my best, whatever grade I gna get for this, is totally what I deserve. After school, flyyy to orchard find my lovely aunt. Lovely aunt, I repeat okayy. Lols, she's totally lovely luh, teeheee. Went for shopping aftermath. Yet, only bought a few, I don't rly like the designs of th other clothes. I'm one fussy girl, I know I know. Who cares anw? (grins) &shopping's like th love of mineee! Seriously! ;DD Replies of tags shall be done here. ;D FISHY Hey you! Haha, yeah, exams are over, but still, ain't feeling as happy as I'm supposed to be. &Cindy agrees on this : I must spend some time with y' again! Haha! I think I've been putting too much pressure on myself, yes? Okayy, will enjoy myself I guess. Love'y! ;D CLARA Purple rocks luh, ;DD I LOVE PURPLE! &yayness luh, exams are over. :D phew too! xP GRACE Hey Grace! Though I'm like, super clueless who y' are, but thnks for th comment alright. ;D & I don't hear 98.7, but I listen to 98.7. xD Sometimes luh. KRISTINE Heyyy! Thnks a lot! [: ARTHUR Heyheyhey. Lols, triple heys. Oh, good luck for ur chineseee paper tmr! I thought ur exams ended already leh! Didn't know y' have lots of exams. Hah, go study luh! SHOO! :D SHAISTA Hellos! Haha, okayy sure, no problem. ;D { Random } It's really sad to know that we're worlds apart. I tried to pretend, that nothing has happened to me. The truth has to be faced, still. It's saddening to see you leave, &have no courage to say a Goodbye. It's ending way to fast for me, way too fast, I repeat. Tell me, what's love all about? I call it forever love. Tuesday, October 7, 2008, 2:19 AM
Hey'y! :DHad lit paper today, was quite alright. But I don't rly have confidence tht I gna secure an A1 for this. Despite th fact tht, my lit has always been quite good. What's done can't be undone, so yeah, not gna complain & complain like those people in th market buying fish. Had chinese paper 1 & 2 th day before, Monday. Yeppp, this one quite okay as well. Getting a 'B' shouldn't be a problem, I think. But an 'A' would be better. Ohya, I managed to complete paper 1 in time, &paper 2 10 minutes before th actual ending time, which was quite a surprise. That's 'cause I used to be rushing thru th paper 2, &still unable to complete either th last compre, or a few questions. After reading th above, don't y' think I don't seem to be myself today? Hopefully, y' know what I'm trying to say. Okayy, maybe I'm th one thinking too much. [ seriously don't have th slightest idea what I've typed. ] Still, I don't care, this is my blog, means, my say. I type anything I like. Kay, thr's maths paper 2 tmr, & I just studied for it from 12plus to arnd 5. Yeah, gna have tuition shortly. ;D { Random } Sometimes, I do ponder, what's th point of loving someone so much, yet in th end we are th one who gna get hurt? I tried rly hard not to love. In th end, I'm th one who's hurt. I'm hurting myself, in a way or another. When you really want something, you have to sacrifice something else. & Goodbye seems to be th hardest word to say. I call it forever love. Saturday, October 4, 2008, 5:13 AM
HELLOS! [:I'm okay already, I thinkkk? Yeah, hopehopehopefully. Have been studying for th past few days. And, I'm glad that 4 papers down already. Had maths paper 1 & History yesterday. Maths paper 1 was quite easy. As in I could do most of th questions luh. Surprisingly huh, for a 'mathsnoob' like me! :D &History was superrr hard luh! I swear! So the only regret is, I didn't study history, & I had underestimated th power of history. [uh, what's THE POWER OF HISTORY? ] ;D Kay, my laziness is coming back to me. I've just realised todayyy luh. I was dng my chinese assessment, oh guess what? I fell asleeeeep~ &waken up by th loud sms ringtone of my phoneee. Greatt, and that's like 1 and a half hr later. Planning to wake up at 6.30am tmr morning to studyyy. Yes, I already set my alarm. &I'm those kind that doesn't snooze alarms. Yeah, I'll be studying agn tmr morning. { Random } You mean everything, to me. I think I gna cry when you leave. Cause' you're leaving, farfar awayy from where I can see you. I can't bring myself to say 'good bye' to you, really. I call it forever love. Thursday, October 2, 2008, 2:09 AM
Alrighttt..Cindy's superrr [angry/upset/emo/pisstoff/whatever] today. Yep, super. Okay, I shall list down one by one. First, It was th Science EOY. Thr's this mcq question, whereby I knew th answer, but I've no idea why, I wrote th wrong answer. Perhaps, I was too nervous, or thought too much. Yeah, 1 mark flew awayyyy~ EOY ley! 1 Mark means A LOT okayyy. So angry with myself. &pisst off. But on th overall, it was manageable Next, th student of th yr thing. & that's like th worst thing that can ever happened. I was having recess after th exam, cause' thr's maths supp afterwards. Then Joanne told me that th winner of th student of th yr is blahblahblah. I was so surprised luh, was asking her how she knew it. She said th tv in th canteen thr got put. Okayy, so I went to see it. & yeah, saw ittt. Th moment I saw th winner's name & face, I was like so angry+upset. [you shld know why luh.] It's like so obvious okayy, that psn confirm win one. & yes, he won luh. [whatever.] So didn't feel like eating at all. Threw awayyy my noodles. Hungryyy all th way until 12pm. Tskkk. { But I'm gladdd, at least, I've tried my best. } :D Last was tuition, I told her about it. Was super upset & emotional just now. Then someone, just got to pisst me off once again. Yeah, guess what he did? He complained that I talked a lot, ever since I reached home, kept talking& talking about th guy. So I said, 'That's cause' I'm sad what, if you were me, you wld feel th same wayyy okayy. Whatever luh, I shuttt uppp.' So didn't rly talk. In fact, I kept quiet for quite some time. Was rly angry+sad. In times like this, that person just got to get me even angrier. Tskkk. { Random } I've to face this truth, in some ways, whatever ways, that I'll never be with you. They said, 'When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door, that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.' It's true, I think I've been looking at th closed door, for too long, too long that I've failed to realise that it has closed. I thought it would start, and last somehow. I'm just day-dreaming, sth I can't rly deny. I know, I'm fighting against a losing battle. You know, th thought of giving it up is rly scaryyy. REALLY SCARY. Alright, call me a childish/dumb/crazy/[whatever-you-deemed-it-as.] girl. I am. Or rather, I behave like one. It has been quite a heart-breaking experience for me. Thanks, love. Cindy :D Labels: Fighting a losing battle sounds stupid./♥ I call it forever love. |
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