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Yes, that's me.

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I love to do things the way I'd like them to be, like it or not, that's your problem.
I'm sure no one in this wholewide world is perfect, so of course, I do have my flaws as well.
Studying in Holy Innocents' High. Definitely neither the best nor the worst school, but what really matters is that, I enjoy my schooling life there.
Class of 2Humility, yes that's where I'm currently in.

I'm crazy-ing over idols, just like many other people out there. I'll go screaming around over idols, especially for 飞轮海. Not to mention, 炎亚纶 is one who has touched my heart.

I love to sing & dance. I dream to be a superstar one day. If my dream ever comes true, I think I'll be the happiest girl on Earth.

Don't like any parts/everyth of the above? Too bad then. Cus there's nothing you can do, that's the way I am.


Goodbye.
Leaving so soon? ):

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Saturday, January 31, 2009, 3:50 AM

Hello&. Hi!



Today've been a long day for me..
As of routine on every Saturdays(except for some Sat's),
there will be St John.
Today ain't of any exception.
So, today wasn't any welcome party as I've thought it would be.
Hahaha, changed to next Saturday which is kinda cool,
probably because I find it cool. Yeah.



Today went like this for the activity;
Parade. Foot drills. First Aid. Case study. Interactions. Parade.
Somewhat went that way.
Wasn't really boring though.
Interactions time has always been one of my favourite part of every activity.
If you were to ask me why, well.. It's really fun.


Teehee, me, Dora, Shawn& Qun Jia were chosen to do the case study.
I've realised how much I suck at first aid, be it theory or practical,
after I went 'thru that quite-short case study.
I don't seem to remember anything just now.
Or maybe it's 'cus I was nervous. No, but I wasn't really nervous.
Lol, I can only blame it on myself for not revising my stuff.


Kay, foot drills being a killer today. Maybe not for the first one hour.
It was fun& I was quite happily banging here& there,
during the first hour. After I heard that it's gna be extended for,
around another hour, my mood's totally went down.
Still, we've endured 'thru! Haha. Isn't that good?


I've been in a shopping mode ever since I-don't-know-when.
Been shopping around& buying stuff which I like these days.
Like just now, I bought Fahrenheit's newest album, a keychain, & a watch.
I love that watch of mine very much. 'Cus it looks simple yet classy.
Okay, it's not really 'classy' but it's very unique.. Cost 10 bucks only.
It's so worth it, for a watch that I really really love.
Even if it's 20 bucks, it'll still be worth it. Price doesn't really matter here.
Lol.



Been having lots of homework lately. And many are uncompleted.
Oh well. And the best thing is, I've got so many tests coming up!
Let me see..
Next Tuesday- Higher Chinese test.
Next next week- Literature & Geography tests.
For the Science test, I'm not really sure if it's on the next next week,
or the week after that. But still it's in the month of February.
I think I've done pretty badly for the most recent Maths test,
'cus I've lost some marks for the first page.
It was so careless of me.. But it's not worth crying over spilt milk,
so I wouldn't be harping so much on it.
I'll just work even harder for the next test.



I'm quite happy about the result of my Maths test on,
Scales& Maps and Direct Proportion.
Quite happy.. Not very happy, because I know that,
pride comes before fall. So I shan't elaborate on that anymore.

That's all for now.
I didn't know I have the potential to post a long post.
Hahaha. That's a random sentence. Bye.




I call it forever love.

Friday, January 30, 2009, 3:42 AM

Haha, i forget to rotate this pic,
tilt you head to see chiobu-s okay! ;D

'Cute couple' ;D hahaha, i'm just joking. :D

Crystal like wanna kill me like that.
SCARY):
First time see jiayi so willing to take piccy sial. Hahah, Joanne! (:

Who's this super noob guy?
Hi Shi Yah! Hello Shi Yah! You're so cute here..

Guess whose super unglam butts there?

Santhosh is VERY CUTE right? Right...
Picture perfect. Not. Oh, hi Zhimin!
twinny too in love with the stapler..
thinking how to confess to the stapler...
She's giving 'No-looking-at-MY-stapler-it's-mine' look :P

She just stead with her stapler, see how happy she was?



Kay, that's SOME of the pictures I took during CNY performance in school.
I mean, before the performance.
While we were doing the so-called,
spring cleaning. Hahaha.
I'm too lazy to post all the pictures la,
so that's all I've uploaded & posted for todayyy.

It's considered good already okay,
I seldom post pictures one ley, so trouble-some.
Yet I'm so nice today to do a trouble-some thing,
for the sake of some people who want to grab th pictures,
seeeeeee! I'm so nice, right! ;D (this sentence only meant for some people.!)
Lol, the bunch of cute classmates I have there ;P



& I'm cuter than CUTER THAN CUTEY!
I'm bhb-ing, so random! Lol.
Kay, off I go to eat dinner.
Bye all!




I call it forever love.

Monday, January 26, 2009, 9:57 PM

Dear dearest diary,


The feelings that I'm currently having are feelings that can't be described in words.
Really. I've got so much things to ponder, so much things to settle,
&of course,many others as well..
I'd really wished that people around me,
be it friends, or families, are able to understand me better.
But sadly, you can't always get what you wanted.


Suddenly felt so hopeless, useless, &everything else that I could think of.
Life sucks, it sucks so much for me.
No one will know why, 'cus no one ever tries to understand me.
But it's alright I guess?
If life's meant to be that way,
then I've just got to accept life as it is.


When it comes to school work, again I suck at them.
I can't seem to understand many subjects in school,
&besides,it's not that I have never tried to ask.
I did ask, but the answers I've got in the end,
still couldn't really clear my doubts.
I wanted to ask friends, but seriously,
there've been no friends,that could really enlighten me.
They have so much to study themselves,would they ever be so kind
&spare some of their time for me?
I guess not, 'cause everyone's like so busy with their own stuff..
Sigh..
And I can't disappoint myself,
parents, friends, relatives, teachers,
basically everyone who has pinched high hopes on me.



Diary, will you ever teach me how to not be sad/emotional anymore?

&love-wise,

I don't have much to say about this.
What I've got to say, I've said them all.
Because it's just a waste of time saying things of no meaning.
Time, time &time. They're all I ever need, for now.


Diarrrrrrrry, I really hope you know how freakn' sad I'm now.
I've been such an unfilial daughter, &'un-great' friend to some people.
I thought this life would be so beautiful,
but unfortunately, it isn't so great after all..
Maybe it really depends on how you see life as,
and I can say now,I'm not being very optimistic towards life.
Pessimistic, that's the word.

Like, thinking how much I suck at many things,
being a failure in basically anything I could ever think of right now.


So diary, felt a lil' better after letting out some of my thoughts.
Let's hope there's such thing as a better tomorrow.

That's all. Goodbye dearest diary.
With love,
Cindy




I call it forever love.

7:40 AM

I'm havin' the sudden urge to blog,
so here's one.


Lol, freakn' happy today?
Wait, maybe not so.
Lol, mixed feelings I guess.
Hahaha, but today was a hectic, fun& 'happening' day for me.
Good? Of course. I seldom have that kind of days.


So let's talk about today first.
In the morning went to grandpa's house to bai nian,
but sadly, he didn't give me any red packet.
Grandma also didn't give kay, but it's alright.
Maybe they treat me as a young adult,
&think that I'm matured already so never give.
(haha, like real luh. xD)


Afternoon went to cousins' houses.
Yesyes! I have lots of cousins' 'cus my mum's side,
has lots of siblings, &they have lots of children,
so I ended up havin' lots of cousins.
And it's yayness?
Oh, & today I'd received many many red packets.
Really a lot luh, seriously.
Counting the number of red packets,
should be around 15 to 20 I think?
& that's not all kay, I haven't get from some aunties yet..



Night time went for a sumptious meal,
with family& friends' family.
Lol, sounds like a lot of people,
but actually only 8 people went including me.
Hahha.


P.S ; Thanks for all who tagged, will reply tags next time.
P.P.S ; Pictures will be up asap.




I call it forever love.

Sunday, January 25, 2009, 7:30 AM

Went out to Forever 21 with mummy just now.
Bought 3 toppps& 2necklaces.
Altogether, they cost around 60 dollars?
&of course, mummy paid for all.
Wait, no, it was daddy actually,
so thank you daddy! Me love you very much.
'Cus it's you who paid them. Lol, xD.
It's not that expensive after all.


After that, I went to rebond my hair.
'Cus mummy asked me to, &my hair's like 'curl-ing' up already..
& it's not really rebond actually, maybe you can call it,
soft bond or something?
That cost mummy (guess how much. ;D)
It's only like, 5 dollars? And it's really really straight!
Hahaha, don't be jealous too fast..
Lol.



That's all for today.
I've got many pictures to upload but currently they-are-not-yet-in-lappy.
So maybe by next post, most probably kay?
Don't be disheartened though. Lol lol lol.


I've found out something during sec 2 camp,
which isn't very pleasant for me..
& I've found out another thing during cny celebration day in school,
which isn't very pleasant for me, as well.
And now, I'm kinda confused, there've been so many things,
that have been bothering me lately.
Sigh, what should I do? & sadly, I couldn't tell anyone about it..
It's not really couldn't.. But rather, I'm thinking if I should.


Anyway, that paragraph above is just an extra one,
really. It's just some thoughts of mine, you know you know.
Okay, that's about it then.
Goodnight/morning/afternoon/evening, earthlings/people/readers!
(That shall depends on when you're reading my post. Lol.)




I call it forever love.

Thursday, January 22, 2009, 3:07 AM

Kayyy, I shall briefly type out what happened on second& third days of camp.
Second day;
Morning PT quite boringgg.
Had to do canteen duty for the breakfast.
So yeah, went to do our duty,
&so, we didn't get a chance to practice our mass dance!
What a wasteeeee.



After that, it was time for station games.
Quite fun, except for that freakn' caterpillar game.
To me, it sucked like much.


Night time.
CAMPFIRE! My long-awaited CAMPFIRE!
We're like the last class to perform.
Lol. &I'm super& very zi high during that time.
Ya, now my voice changed already,
hope will be normal again soon. ;D



Last day;
Nothing much.
Did morning PT& flag raising.
Eat. Food was 'very the nice' to me, don't know why.
Then cheered around, area cleaning, & that's all?
Lol. So we didn't win the best class, best camper, best psl..
But it's okay, it's alright, 2hum 2hum fight, fight, fight! ;D
2 hummies still the best class deep down in my heart! Lol. (:


&you can choose to ignore this part.
I don't know why I'm thinking of you,
when I'm not supposed to.
Why do life have to work in this way?
Who knows how hurt I was when I've realised that,
things aren't as simple as I'd thought?
Fact is, no one. But so what if they had knew it?
They still can't really cheer me up totally.
'Cus it takes time.. I once wanted to cry out loud,
but even if I've shed tears for you,
will it ever change how things are?
No, nothing will change. I'll just feel worse than before.
If we can't talk like good friends, might as well be total strangers..
'Cus rather than see-ing myself gettin' distracted so easily,
it's better not knowing you at all.
Though I'm saying it in a very very very very very reluctant way,
but wouldn't things be better off that way?
I don't know, but I think so.
Sometimes I did think to myself,
was it a right decision to tell you how I really feel?
Yes, some told me that it was just a one-sided love.
They may be right, &there's nothing wrong with that!
You can't always expect love to be two-sided, you know.
You'd never tried to understand how I really feel.
So do you have the slightest idea how terrible I once felt?
Never in your life right. Besides, there's no reason why you have to.
I don't want to go 'thru this any longer.
I'd enough of it.. Yes, like as if I could just forget& run away from it,
as& when I wish to. Like I could..
I've got nothing left to say. What more could be done& said?
And anyone, just anyone, if you can enlighten me, that would be best.

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I call it forever love.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009, 3:11 AM

I'M BACK FROM SEC 2 CAMP!
Lol.


Okay, I shall briefly say what were the things that happened there,
so on& forth, kaykay.
First day, some classes which also includes my class,
did high elements. At first, I was like hoping,
pleaseplease, don't high elements today, can change to tomorrow or smth.
But in the end, no, I changed my mind.
I prefer it to be on the first day, which it was.
Lol, yayness!



I love high elements the most, out of everything elseee.
Seriously. 'Cus the stations there were quite challenging?
Though weren't as scary as I thought they would be.
But still, my heart will still beat freakn' fast when it's my turn..
So yeah, I love high elements!
I did 4 stations, which are considered quite many already.
'Cus some people don't even get the chance to try one.
Count me luckyyy? Maybe..



My first station is the walking on the log thingy.
I'd forgotten the station's name, lol.
&I was like the first out of the whole batch to walk on that scary log.
Yeah, 'cus my grp went to that station first on the first day?
Lols, it wasn't as scary as the one I did during my pri 5 camp.
So.. Managed to walked finished the log.



Second station is called vertical pole, is it?
I'm not too sure luh. I did that station with twinny.
That station is like so difficult to climb up one.
But the main objective is to, help each other to get up the thing.
Super tiring& requires lots, lots& lots of self motivation(lol?),
& communication between each other..
In the end, we made it 'thru! Somehow, have this satisfactory feeling. ;D



Third station was challenge pole.
This one.. I did it.
I mean I touched the thing on top while jumping down!(:
Was like, so happy, jumping here& there.
Lol!


Fourth& last high elements station was,
the rock climbing thing, I climbed then stuck somewhere near the top.
I couldn't reach the top 'cus my muscles were like,
very& super painful okay.
Couldn't take it. So give up..
Then something happened there,
won't type it out here.


&the food was okay. Except for at times,
the servings they gave are so little.
But the food there can be considered as quite delicious already.
It's camp, what more do you expect?



I'm kinda lazy to talk about second day& today's.
Maybe talk about it in the next post.
So in summary, the camp was FUN.
& I MEAN, F-U-N. FUN. (:
Congrats to those who won,
best female& male campers, best psl, & best class.


& I don't mind many repeats of the camp! ;D

Kay, that's all. (:




I call it forever love.

Saturday, January 17, 2009, 4:29 AM

Today was a helllllllllllll tiring day!
Tsk, I've been so busy all day long.
When will I ever have a break? Sigh,



Yeah, st john-ed today.
Think 12 sec 1s joined us, only.
Besides that, today also had a test.
I say it was pretty easyyy! Seriously, (:
I did attempt all the questions ley,
of course for the exception of one, which I kinda not sure about.
Hahaha. Lol, I'd lots& lots of confidence for this test.
Maybe 'cus I've studied for it? (though it was a last-minute thing.)




Then we all cleaned the st john's room.
It was reallllllly dusty, but after we had cleaned it,
the room must be very clean now.. (:
Lol. &then I think it was dismissal time or somethinggg.





Oh& we'd this so-called 'bondage time' with the newcomers.
Yeah. Let's see how many sec 1 names I remembered so far...
Yi Fang, Ruo Yu(I think?), Hui Wen(I think?), Wan Ying, Patricia,
Cheryl.. Oh damnit, I think that's all I remembered.
Okay, maybe my memory ain't that good after all ;D
But I'll try to remember all by maybe after the welcome party? (:





After we're released, went to eat Pasta Mania with,
Huibing:D , Kailee:D, Dora:D, &Claire:D.
We sort of teased Claire about we-know-who,
&it was quite funny, I mean looking at her expression& all.
Teehee :P
Lol. The Pasta Mania's food tastes bad.
I mean, mine? Yeah, at first it tasted quite okay,
but when I was about to finish them all,
suddenly the spaghetti tastes yucky.
Or maybe it's 'cause of the cream..





Then we went to CP.
We are (Dora, Claire,&of course me.).
They're kind souls that accompanied me just now.
To shop for some stuff that I lacked for camppp.
Thanks a million, billion, trillion, you two!
Then after that, we went our separate ways.
&I walked home alone.
I think I realised something while walking just now..
Sigh. I'm thinking too much, again.


&that's all for today's news.
Thank you & have a nice day. (:

When you come to realise that there's actually something that lasts forever,
will you cherish it?




I call it forever love.

Friday, January 16, 2009, 3:20 AM

I'm kinda not fine emotionally today.
Or rather, should I say ever since I used my lappy just now?
Lol. School's been okay for today.
Someone*(you know who you are?) spoiled my mood,
like totally.



There were only few lessons for today.
Shan't say anything about those then.
'Cause seriously nothing much to say about them.
There was a Maths test just now?
&, I think I'd done quite fine?
The sad thing is that,
I guess, I've accidentally let 4 marks slipped away.
I think so. &I'm pretty sure about that. /:
Couldn' stop thinking about it.



I think the one& only current thing that is able to excite me is,
Sec 2 camp @ Jalan Bahtera Adventure Camp.
Yeah, seriously. 'Cus I think that's gna be the (last time?),
I could see I-know-who& you-may-know-who.
Last time, I think. But in anyway,
I'm quite looking forward to the 3days 2 nights camp.
&esp, CAMPFIRE. ;D
&&, our class's performance.
Hopefully it's going to put a smile on everyone's face. (:
Can't waaaaaaaaaaaait! Egg-cited! You know why, :D




Lol, that's about it.



'Cus wherever you are, I'm still missing you.
When I'm not supposed to.




I call it forever love.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009, 2:41 AM

Hi LOVE.
I'm blogging today. Surprise? Lol.
Anyway, anyone knows what's LOL stands for?
It stands for...
Laugh Out Loud!(LOL) Freakn cool right?
Oh well. I sort of just realised it today.
(Despite me saying it for 123456789 times before.)



I'm always slower than the rest,
so if you'd known it already, WHO CARES. ;D
If you only realised it after I've told you,
then.. That's your problem. :D



Sch's seem short today.
Lol, yay? Not so/:
Though it was like short, but I kinda didn't enjoy it at all.
Sigh, tell me why anyone? 'Cus I don't know.
Maybe 'cus you feel like a billion miles away?



P.E was seemingly short today, TOO.
Not 'cus I super enjoyed the lesson today,
'cus we don't have time to do anything elseee.
Blame it on the taking of height& weight thingyyy.
But still wasn't that bad actually. [:




Overall everything is okay, OKAY,
so that's my main point of saying soo much kay.
LOL. Yay, now I know how to use LOL already.
L. O. L. ;D


Bfore-I-forget part.
For some people who (ARE) very important in my life,
you'll definitely pull through this alright?
You'll be okay, don't worry.
I'm tellin' you : Everything's alright. &the next time I'm gna see you,
you've got to be smiling PROMISE ME k? (:
I'll do almost anything for you to see you smile.
It hurts to see you frown/cry..
O levels ain't the end of world or whatsoever, really!
You've got to.. Stay positive& optimistic.




'Cus I'm thinking of you again..
Tell me why, why it's so hard to forget you.




I call it forever love.

Monday, January 12, 2009, 3:57 AM

Shall be typing a short post for today.
'Cus I'm kinda rushing for that pile of HOMEWORK stucked in my bag.
Damnit. Screw HOMEWORK.
Then again, I do think HOMEWORK is cool. [:
(this is how random I can get. Lol for me?)



Maybe I shall dedicate this post for the tags-replying or smth?
Yes, I think I should. Waaaaaay too many tags unreplied already.
(Though I'm not too sure if they'll read back what they'd tagged& read my reply to them.)
But in anywaaay, I'm gnna reply now.

CLAIRE. Hey there! Yeah. I will cheer up in no time. Thanks for your concern anyw. ;D
FELICIA. Hai. You can't really help it.. So I've no choice. Lol, I cried. Anw, you don't cry too...
FELICIA. Hello my dearie! Yes, must meet up soon. Don't be too sad about it. LOVEYOU! (:
FELICIA. Hey dearie too. Loves& takecare. Cheer up.
WALDINA. Lol. I'm not a crybaby okay? Haha. I can't help it..
CELESTE. Hmm. You talking to me or? Anyway, I love you laogong!
BENJAMIN. Hi, hm yeah. Quite sick. Lol. So qiao ar? But I'm considered okay now. LOL.
SURYANI. Thanks friend. Sure. Thanks for the kind concern! :D
FELICIA. It's seriously okay. Cheer up cheer up. Love you too! <3333333s
SHEARIN. Hello LOVE. ;D
IRENE. Yeah. So qiao right? That's weird. &I don't know why. Haha. It's cool yep. xD
CLAIRE. Hey bestie. Hopefully will cheer up soon. In no time kay? Don't worry. Loves.
WALDINA. Thanks, same here.
YP. Thanks for tagging BFF. Takecare& meetup SOON. &I MEAN S.O.O.N. LOVES!
JACQUELINE. HELLO there jacq!(: haha,
FELICIA. Yeah. Seen you just now. If you need a listening ear/ a shoulder to cry on, I'M HERE.
MINDY. Thanks a lot. Yep, will cheer up hopefully very soon. Yep, I know that too, (:
HWEETING. Ya, shocked that you tagged me! Anwy,MEETUP SOON. Loves,
CLAIRE. Hello bestie. Thanks, I'll stay as cheerful as possible. Thanks. ;D
LRM. Heyyyyo Crystal. Yep, I won't tell anyone about that. You shouldn' too huh. Thanks.
CLARA. Oh really?! Omgosh. Maybe that's why... But anyway, I can still view it in the end! YAYNESS KAY. Lol.? :D



Tags are replied now.
Search for your tags okay?
Well, that's up to you.
Anyway, thanks for tagging. Love you all loads! ;D.

BYE.


'Cus it's just impossible. /:




I call it forever love.

Sunday, January 11, 2009, 3:29 AM

Hey there people.


Been pretty hectic these few days.
& homework is like piling up.
& many things have happened lately.
(which I won't really say them out.)
Gosh. I'm really stress now.



My muscles are aching, badly.
Credits to yesterday? Sigh. Hope they'll be okay as soon as possible.
'Cus the sec 2 camp days are nearing!
Damnit. I kinda not lookin' forward to this camp.
'Cause... Of many reasons. Which I don't really feel like stating them down.



So today went out with twinny& kerlyn to airport.
Don't feel like elaborating though.



I'm still emotional quite down.
Too many things have been happening to me lately.
& they'd caused my to be down, down& down.
I really wish I could be strong enough..



Maybe it's really time for me to move on.
Everytime I said it's time to forget you/move on,
I ended up not keeping the promise I made to myself.
I don't know why, really.
Maybe I'm lost, not knowing what I'm suppose to do.
Cus it had been all too sudden for me.
Too sudden I must say. But I know,
everything is going to be like that, sooner or later.
Then again, why must I feel this way at this point of time?
I shouldn't be like this..
Is this called fate or destiny?


Love is always unconditional.
Love is selfless giving& expecting no return.
Love requires great courage.
Love is never ending.



Maybe it's life.
If things were bound to happen someday,
they will happen.


&anyway, I'm fine.
So don't ask me anything about you-know-what.
Lol. I'm off to do homework.


Best of luck to all sec4s'08 for tmr!


From the moment I saw you, deep inside my heart I knew...




I call it forever love.

Friday, January 9, 2009, 4:02 AM

HEYYY THERE! ;D
Lol. I'm so tired& a lil worn out today.
Know why? I'm sick.
But am better now anyway.
Though it hasn't really healed like, COMPLETELY.
Kay, *skip.



Sigh.
If you'd known what I really wanted,
then maybe you will think twice.
Okay, I don't even know what on earth I'm talking now.
Seeeeee. It's 'cus I'm too troubled/stressed out/clueless on what's ahead of me now.




&this time I can guarantee that I'm not thinking too much into things.
Though many times, I thought I do.
But this time, my mind's telling me that I'm really troubled, so on& forth.
Basically, I'm havin' stress. Of lots of things..
Been thinking a lot these days too.




Anywaaay, I really hope everything's alright.
'Cus whenever I think everything's alright,
it's sometimes not at all..
It's contradicting, of course. But it's the fact.
As from what I've realised.
Can anyone kindly guide me along please?




The feelin' of havin' no one to share your trouble with,
is equals to HELL.
You know... How much it hurts having to keep all you troubles,
problems/everything to yourself.
Sighs, maybe you will only know it when you're going 'thru it.





So if you don't know, then it's understand-able.
Whenever I said it's time to forget you/it's time to let go,
I'd never meant it.
'Cause at the end of the day,
I still found myself thinking of you, you &YOU.
See how much I suck at keeping the promise I made to myslf?





Lol. I seem to be posting emo, Emo, &EMO posts lately.
I don't know why either.
You know there are ups& downs in life. &you can't avoid either of them.


School's been so-so.
Anyway,
GOOD LUCK TO ALL SEC 4s'08 RECEIVING THEIR RESULTS ON MONDAY!!
If you had done your best, whatever results you gna get, are totally what you deserved.
There's nothing to be nervous/sad/scared of, just smile! ;D
Best of luck peopleeeee! :D




Kay, that's it.
Toodles, noodles, doodles.
Wow, they rhyme..




I call it forever love.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009, 2:46 AM

Hey there.
Today felt kinda emotional.
So I suppose this post's gnna be emotional too.
Don't read if you don't want/feel to.




Something's weighing on my mind nowadays.
Or maybe it has been all along ever since last year onwards.
I don't know how long I've been thinking about it.
&what's worse? I don't have the slightest idea on who to turn to.
It's not only that by the way.
You should know what I meant by that.
It's something else too. Sigh, I really don't know what to do..






Am I regretting it now? Regret that _________ all along.
I've been so childish thinking that ________ . But in the end,
who's the one who'll end up crying? Isn't it myslf?
By th way again, it's not that I'm talking about right now.
So don't make wild guesses.

Sometimes I really wished there's gna be someone arnd me,
whom I can share my troubles with..

But whenever I scrolled down my contact list,
everyone whom I'd thought I'm close to,
actually not. I mean, in reality, they aren't that close to me after all.





At the end of the day, I just have to keep every single thing to myslf,
&thinking.. What should I do next?
If only my brother was here,
then I think I'll tell him my current trouble.
'Cus he knows how I think& so on,
&perhaps, he can give me some directions in life.
I believed he'd once gone 'thru what I'm going 'thru right now.
(Though I'm not very close to him...)




Yes, at times, I really want to tell my BFFs about it.
'Cus they are the ones who can truly understand me.

&are able to give me the advices I need to overcome everything.
And I mean it. But now,
I'm not that sure if I can tell them about my current trouble,
that's like all along been in my mind...
'Cus firstly, they have their own stuff to do.
&they don't know what's really happening arnd me.


So, after thinking twice, I don't think I'll tell them..
It's not that I don't trust th 2 of them by th way. ;D





I teared ytd's night, and ytd's ytd's night.
I know it's childish to cry. But if you'd really known what's my trouble,
maybe you'll understand why I cried.





I miss you love.




I call it forever love.

Monday, January 5, 2009, 2:24 AM

First of all. Hi people.
Lol, so this is sort of my 2nd post of the year.
Hurray! Claps! ;D
Okay, crap.


Let me do some updates on th recent days.
Last friday was th start of school.
Was pretty okay I must say.
'Cus I saw someone,
which I kind of couldn't believe that I'll see that person on th first day.
Really, freakn' shocked out of my wits..
And..
There CCA Orientation prep after school.
No comment. ;D



Let's move on.. Saturday.
It's the CCA Orientation people!
So as usual, Join St John Family all these.
Was feelin' quite uncomfortable wearing th uniform for hours.
Sigh. Have to get used to it sooner or later anywaaay...
Hopefully th sec 1s will join st john yeah.
'Cus as the saying goes..
The more the merrier!! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
Lol, yeah. Lookin' forward to see-ing lots of sec 1s.
& I saw someone again. YAY ;D
Made my day so much brighter. Lol.



Kay, today was fun too!
'Cus someone made my day again!
Oh man. I love going school nowadays.
I won't skip a single school day I swear I swear!
Maybe till a point when I won't get to see someone again?
Even if I'm not feelin' well. I'll still go to school.
Sigh. But still, I have to go to school. I have to.
Nono, it's I want to. ;D
Call me a crazygirl then. 'Cus I sound really like one ;P




Today sec 1 camp! And something happen this mornin'!
Only Crystal, Amira, &some others who know what it was I think.
Omgosh. I want to be a sec 1 for 3days. Just for th camp.
Really.. I want. Just for this camp. Lol, I. Am. Crazy.
Wa, I'm like back to my old self.
Seeeeeeee. You can say it's the power of love or whatever you call it.
'Cause I'm not sure of it anywaaay.




Went home with Claire after visiting Kailee& Huibing at their respective stations.
Yay, fun chatting with them. ;D though it was a pretty short chat..
Oh we came across this bus driver.
He's a freakn' ass I must qiang diao. He's such a noob,
worse than a noob I think!
Shan't really say what he did 'cus kinda lazy to elaborate.
Just now I rlly felt like going right in front of his face,
and just ask him go& die. or xxxx off. Oops. Okay, I didn' type out anything uh.. :P
I think he should be sacked by th manager.
Can't waaait for th day he's gna be fired or smth. (:




Oh&before I forget/thanks to Crystal's reminder-.-,
she told me something this mornin'.
Since she sounded like she wanted so much for me to post about it,
I shall type it out now.
She used another number to msg me&
told me that she's someone.
Then th noob me really believed it.
Yeah, so she used that number to sort of msg me about sooo many things.
Which at that time I took all for real.


So I'd actually believed every word she said,
using th 'temporary number'.
&I really thought ...
Was quite shocked also.
Luckily, she told me today that it was her,
who has been playing arnd w me all along.
I was like. Totally shocked. Was super angry,
I really took all th msgs for real.
Really! So angry with her now. Actually I know luh,
someone wouldn't be so....anyway.
Sigh. I really want to get rid of all my childish thinking.
I went to save all th msgs into my saved msgs you know.
Sigh. Sigh. Guess I'll be deleting those msgs from th 'temp number' soon..



Alright. That's about it people.
Sorry for taking gazillion days to update.
Oh well, it's not really that long anyway.
Yeah. I was lazy only.


Have you ever found someone who can make your heart skipped many many beats?




I call it forever love.

Thursday, January 1, 2009, 4:51 AM

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE ON THIS EARTH! ;D


It's a new Y.E.A.R!(:
There's school tomorrow.
So I'd to wake up early, all over again.
&there's cca tomorrow.
So I'd to stay back, on first day of school(?)
Lol.


Hopefully I won't oversleep or that's gna be bad luh.
Cross fingers*
Homework undone. Shall do them soon.
Lol. That's about it.
I know it's quite a short post. But it's rare of me to post a short post,
so.. Cherish it before I post another long post. (No link though.)


&forget it, if you don't take it seriously.

P.S, I MISS FAHRENHEIT's CONCERT/:
Like everyday thinking about them,
&you of course.




I call it forever love.

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