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Cindy Goodbye.
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Aaron
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Monday, January 26, 2009, 9:57 PM
Dear dearest diary,The feelings that I'm currently having are feelings that can't be described in words. Really. I've got so much things to ponder, so much things to settle, &of course,many others as well.. I'd really wished that people around me, be it friends, or families, are able to understand me better. But sadly, you can't always get what you wanted. Suddenly felt so hopeless, useless, &everything else that I could think of. Life sucks, it sucks so much for me. No one will know why, 'cus no one ever tries to understand me. But it's alright I guess? If life's meant to be that way, then I've just got to accept life as it is. When it comes to school work, again I suck at them. I can't seem to understand many subjects in school, &besides,it's not that I have never tried to ask. I did ask, but the answers I've got in the end, still couldn't really clear my doubts. I wanted to ask friends, but seriously, there've been no friends,that could really enlighten me. They have so much to study themselves,would they ever be so kind &spare some of their time for me? I guess not, 'cause everyone's like so busy with their own stuff.. Sigh.. And I can't disappoint myself, parents, friends, relatives, teachers, basically everyone who has pinched high hopes on me. Diary, will you ever teach me how to not be sad/emotional anymore? &love-wise, I don't have much to say about this. What I've got to say, I've said them all. Because it's just a waste of time saying things of no meaning. Time, time &time. They're all I ever need, for now. Diarrrrrrrry, I really hope you know how freakn' sad I'm now. I've been such an unfilial daughter, &'un-great' friend to some people. I thought this life would be so beautiful, but unfortunately, it isn't so great after all.. Maybe it really depends on how you see life as, and I can say now,I'm not being very optimistic towards life. Pessimistic, that's the word. Like, thinking how much I suck at many things, being a failure in basically anything I could ever think of right now. So diary, felt a lil' better after letting out some of my thoughts. Let's hope there's such thing as a better tomorrow. That's all. Goodbye dearest diary. With love, Cindy I call it forever love. |
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