I love you with all my heart, but look at what u have done to me.

2009-08-01T03:10:00.000-07:00

I'M BACK FROM PANWEIBO [007] QIAN CHANG HUI! :D :D :D :D :D
It was extremely fun. &Enjoyable. Hahaha.
I think he's like one of the most humourous guy I've ever seen/known.
Other than FRH guys la :D Hehe. He super super super funny seriouslyyy!
Btw, his hand the bones broke or something. &It's quite serious, omg.
WP, must take care okay! ):
But he's still very le guan, so that's the right attitude~hahaha.
Somemore he's now having his xun hui yan chang hui..
Haha, he was like, shld I add singapore in? o.o

Anyw, details will be posted @ www.echoesof-love.blogspot.com!
So stay tune there! :D
I'll post in these few days, hopefully can upload pictures too~
Stay tune stay tune! Not here but there HOR~ :) :)

2009-07-31T04:13:00.000-07:00

Okay, still can't get pictures up.
Don't know why... Suay.

Tags replied-
Yuting- Thanks! :D
Feiyun- Thanks a million ~ Haha, yeah. I'm using I.E but still can't! Tsk..
Xiaoyann- LOL~~~

Anyws. Think I'll update more @ echoesof-love.bs now.
No special reasons though :D
So don't say I MIA~ I'll blog back here when I feel like it?
In the meanwhile, @ ECHOESOF-LOVE.BS ah..
But still tag here K!

Tmrw I'm gna go see WILBER PAN~
Pictures till then! Pray that... Blogger can uploads them? :D
Zz. Having lots of stress now.

Kays. Bye~

2009-07-28T04:06:00.000-07:00

I know something is wrong with my current blog.

It's cuz of my privated blog btw.

And I still can't post pictures you know.

Suay right, I know. -_-

Science test today, and this girl right here has apparently left 2 blanks.

But she's not that dumb either,

those that were left blanks are either 2 marks/1mark.

Hahaha, actually I only left 1 blank. The other one not counted I guess.

Cuz I wrote 90% of my answer before time's up~

Ohya. It's been damn long since I last heard this song.

Missing You by Baby V.O.X. Now am listening to it again, very nice eh. :D

Go listen if you're still clueless of that song. o.o

The song is like quite old already,

& I think it was my bro who introduced me to that song. :)

Thinking a lot these few days too, about many things...

Don't know if I should type it out, cus I'm not supposed to.

So okay, forget it. :D :D :D

I'VE UNLOCKED www.echoesof-love.blogspot.com BTW :)

I want to watch Harry Potter but can't, thanks to tests & assignments.

Oh btw. Did I tell you that Yalun visited AN's forum?

Hahaha. Yeap, HE VISITED AN'S FORUM! :D

On 24th July '09 around evening time.

But he didn't leave a message at all. Aiya. His identity is so mysterious.

Still. Glad that he came at the very least!~

I still remember, what about youuuuu? ):

It's going to be very special this time, I swear.

Thanks for the everything you've given me then,

even if you don't remember anymore, I still do.

& that's all that matters to me. :D

you'll get even better one from me, wait K!

PS Kbox, ANYONE? ^^

(repeating my label in a diff way, tsk. -.-)

2009-07-24T04:09:00.000-07:00

Something is wrong W blogger!
I can't upload pics, change fonts colours~
& what's worse? The icons above the posting part all gone!
Ahhhhh. I'm going to go crazy soon~

Anyway, these days I feel super *** la~
Maybe cus of the usual something. But not really lol. -.-''
I hate school life seriouslyyyyy.
Not hate la, but really don't like..
Lessons all these. & YAY!
Next week have 4 Tests + 1 Algebra Quiz. -__-

CAN I GO BANG INTO WALL NOW? ):
& I am wondering when _____ is going to _____ me about _____
Ah. Never mind, I shall wait~

Planning to go Kbox w classmates on one of these days.
Most probably is after next week! :)
Next week = My death week.
This Sun going to ____ to study! HAHA :D
History is still killing me.
28 January 1819
06 February 1819 (?)
August 1824.. &so on. I must memorize all these date/month/year.
And not only that! Still have to know what's the terms of the Anglo-Dutch Treaty~
&The founding of Singapore~
& Parameswara(I don't even know if spelling is correct)~~~
And the artefacts, & what Wang Da Yuan wrote in his book about how Singapore was like then..
Got piracy all these also. I was saying..
Munshi Abdullah IS the boss of Munchie Donuts. LOL.
Is there even such a thing as Munchie Donuts. Haha.
Sounds shun so just anyhow. :p
AND IS HE EVEN ALIVE NOW? -.-
And I almost forget about Indra Bopal~~ :)
Still got a lot more la~ &it's only Hist!

I still have Maths, Literature, Science~ + Algebra Quiz.
Conduction, Convection & Radiation :D
Some what understand the difference already!
Cus I kept mixing all up.
Which only dumb ass like me would do that.

And K is owe-ing me a drink or something!
Cus I scored an A2 in the recent maths class test :)
I don't care who beat me or whatever...
And don't come and tell me,
' A2 only so happy for what T.T class test only. -.-'
It's my own target K. I thought I would get like B3.
But at least got touch A. Though is barely~
But is considered one of my achievements! :D

As for Chinese situational writing~
Super disappointed with my score la. 11.5/20.
Told you the HCL new teacher standard's super high already right? Highest in class is 14.5/20 only.
Nobody touches 15 can you believe it? o.o
I can't): my eyes were quite red when i received the paper can.
But upon knowing that highest is below 15, then I heaved a sigh of relief.
-.- sounds like what sia. If I never cuo bie zi, i'd have gotten like 12.5!
Must buck up already~ can't forever stuck at below 15~~~~~ ): ):
Yah yah yah. I very KS kay. If get above 13.5 will be quite happy already though! :)

On 10 Aug, I'll most probably going eat buffet W 2 lovelies :D
Maybe have 44% there? LOL. T.T
Has been 1234512345 days since I last went for a buffet~
Kind of excited? Some more W 2 lovelies! ^^

2009-07-20T05:12:00.000-07:00

Cindy's stressed.

Take life easy, HOW?
Tmr's History test, AND I'M STILL USING LAPTOP?
What the shit.

Sometimes, I really hate myself for not being able to get my priorities right.
Uh. History is like even worse than Geog.
At least, Geog I know, as long as I do my job, A1 is okay for me.
But Hist is different! They won't just ask you questions from the textbook.
They'll ask you harder ones. So it's like you've to understand this whole thing.

I miss Geog. But even for Geog in the end,
only managed to get 77. Like low A1.
What's more to History...
Hm, F9? I know I'm being sarcastic.

Today's higher chinese paper 2 also. So damn hard.
Got chinese lit passage some more. So challenging la.
Total killer. Sigh. This new teacher's standard so high.
Wish I could just runaway from all these shit & troubles.
But do I have a choice? No.

And all these, are just secondary 2.
Nothing compared to sec 3 or above's work.
NOTHING AT ALL. & I already wanna die now.
Tell me how?

God, please guide me through all these obstacles.
Felt like crying, anytime.

2009-07-20T04:59:00.001-07:00

Eileen- See you during the outing!
cherrybeylla- Linked you! Hehe:P
Yuqi- Hahaha:D
Berlyn- Linked! Sorry for the delay): link me up too thanks! :)

Tags replied.

2009-07-17T01:26:00.000-07:00

Zz. Youtube is giving me headache man.

Okay... Now is fine already. :)

-DELETED-

don't ask why.

I feel like privating my blog... Cus too many things I wanna post,

about many things which I don't want everyone to know. :D

& I don't have to worry bout who'll steal my exclusive pics in future.

Cus I limit to some ppl can enter only duh. But then so far...

No exclusive pictures yet. LOL. Some in desktop still. -.-

It's 99Days. FINALLY, two-digits number~

Let's wait till it decreases till it's about HALF :)

OH SHIT. This also means that EOY is coming in LESS THAN 99 DAYS.

Anyway, I've a privated blog already.

But I'm still considering to private this one, maybe soon? :)

The URL for my current privated blog.

www.echoesof-love.blogspot.com

No point visiting :P

Cus this thing will come out:

This blog is open to invited readers only.

2009-07-14T02:00:00.001-07:00

I miss those lovely times, those times when I'm truly happy.

I miss Fahrenheit 4 lovely guys, a lot.

Like how I miss you, AaronY. ): ): ):

But gna see you all soon~ (102 days more to go~)

I shall be patient... &wait. :D

I can never compare myself with my elder brother who tops in everything.

I dislike my whole family who has never considered my feelings at all.

Come on lah. Everyone is special in their own ways.

But you all just don't understand.

Even when they don't say hurtful things to me,

I still know that they think I will not amount to anything, anything great.

How would you have felt if you were me?

Try putting yourself in my shoes?

Yes, in your eyes, he's always the best.

He's ALWAYS the one that makes you all proud. While me...

I'm just... ______________________________________

Lovelylovelylovely.

2009-07-11T02:23:00.000-07:00

Tagsreplied;

Cassandra- Linked you up too!

cherrybeylla- Will link you soon! :) yeah lor, they stupid one eh.

Yenping- Yah. They judge books by their covers. Lifeless.

Melody- Hi PT! :) Hahahha, me loves you too~ :D

xiaoyann- Now can upload pics alr! :) Blogger likes me back:D

Eileen- LOL okay~

Kristine- Hi!

Serene- Yeah. Can't stand lifeless people.. They seriously need to get a life.

yeap, we love them can already! :D

Claire- Lols, what lucky? What you mean... Hahhaa, thanks for the tag!

liluan- Hi yalun fan there! Will link you soon! :) Sure~

Done:D

2009-07-11T02:01:00.000-07:00

'dearest' ZHANG DONG LIANG :D
HAHAHA. I'm just infront of the red stage~

Lol. I don't really like him though :)

But can't deny that he's quite mi ren eh.

Whoooo~

His FC. He got 2 FC!

The PINK people :) & the GREEN people. :)

Not bad huh! Got 2 FCs. :D

Starting to sign albums already :)

OH & I TOUCHED HIS HANDS~

Sort of? When he's coming onstage. From the path there. :)

Hahaha! But I felt nothing :P

If only it's yalun's hand or somethinggggggg~ ):

I've 100plus more pics with me. &3 Videos!

He sang dui diao, chen mo de shun jian(DUH!) & one more idk what song.

If you want can ask me for pictures :D

I'll give you if I want to~

Don't want upload too many of his closeup pics...

you-know-why~~~ Lol.

Kk. Bye.

2009-07-10T09:13:00.000-07:00

VERY NEAR RIGHT :D
HAHAHA of course! I first row ma! :D

& from left :

JJ LIN! YUMI! MIKO!(By2) ZHIYONG(933 DJ) :D :D

HAHAHA :D PS zi-high. Damn happy lah. :)

though it's nothing compared to FRH's auto~

but still! :) Miko & JJ Lin came to my camera you know~

JJ looked into my cam once/twice.

Miko&Yumi came towards me when they're singing.

Hmm singing wo zhi dao & DNA lol.

The Seal The Love they were in the middle of the stage..

So no very closeup for that song. ):

I've the videos :) I think Yumi die-hard fans would want my videos badly.

Cus she always came over to my side for all the songs they sang~!

YAY MY BLOGGER IS LOVING ME ONCE AGAIN!
CAN POST PICS ALREADY :D :D

Hope nothing goes wrong anymore~

My bro bought it for me! Damn cute I swear! :)

He bought it @ HK Disneyland I think.
Thanks bro!

Today Mum's birthday!

Happy birthday mum! I love you!

Though I don't seem to show it. But you know I really, really do.

Don't doubt me, 'cus i'm your one & only daughter :D

If I don't love you, who else will!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! :)

May all your long wishes come true(hopeso)~

Stay young & pretty as always (??!) :D :D

Enjoy today cus there'll be no repeat of today ;)

K. Bye.

Eh. you forget me i still remember you ):

2009-07-07T03:48:00.000-07:00

Hahahaha. I thought I was the only one who can't upload pictures.

But I wasn't. There are quite a number of ppl who can't also.

And there's also many ppl who can. WHY LIKE THAT. o.o

So it's not my problem, should be blogger's @ fault?

Blogger~ please let me upload pictures la. T.T Lol.

I sounded so desperate. Whatever lah~~

Once I can upload pictures, I think my blog's going to lag.

'Cus I'm going to upload almost all the pics. Hahaha.

Wait. I reply tags first.

(Eileen)- Ya lor. So long never come my blog already. But at last, you came :D

Hmm, I've thought over it for quite some time... I don't think so I can. Many reasons~

(Cherrybeylla)- You're his fan too? K hi. :)

(xiaoyann)- WHAT~~~ you can? So good!

Done.

Yeap, chanced upon few sites related to *anti-fahrenheit*/hate fahrenheit groups.

(These points below are typed out myself, based on what I hear and what I see.)

Yeah. So typical ANTI-FRH fans would somehow agree to some/even all the points below.

- Those who support them/love them are blind.

- They don't have the talents at all.

- They can't sing at all, only lip-syncing most of the time.

- They're just a bunch of assholes.

- They only know how to copy others' stuff, esp Korean boy bands.

- They love to ''act'' a lot in front of camera/TV.

- Hope that they'll disband ASAP.

- They suck like shit, can't even sing OR dance. Not even either of them.

- They can't co-ordinate among one another, can't act, even if can, they over-react.

- They don't have the voice(which sucks like hell).

- The recording studio edited all the songs. (that's why their songs sound nice.)

- They should just disband, some of them are better off going solo.

- Why the hell do they even exist?

- Their educational levels are not even high & that's why they became superstars.

- They have totally spoiled the image of a Taiwanese boy band.

- They don't deserve to be one, or even being a member of one.

- Lip-sync, lip-sync AND LIP-SYNC. They can't sing, then forget it.

- No point lip-syncing. Maybe acting will be better huh?

- If you were to compare them & Korean boy bands, they are nowhere near Korean bands.

- They can't even sing Jap well, what's the Jap Singles out for?

- They don't even understand what they're singing about. & lip-sync once again.

- Their success so far is all b'cus of their four faces, and it's unfair for others.

- No talents then shut up. They shouldn't even survive in the entertainment industry.

- Unlike Korean boy bands who can sing & dance & act well, they're so far off from them.

- Sing? Until glasses break. Dance? Can dance until everywhere fractured. Act? Overacting.

- They only know how to 靠脸吃饭

Those are the most I can think of.

Some of my friends even said/agreed to some of those points too.

I've lots of things to say about each & every points I listed.

But. Sigh, forget it.

First of all, whatever I said, would they even bother to listen?

Would they ever think through what they're critizing FRH about?

Even if I said or repeating their good points, would they even care?

(Of course I would say their good points right, b'cus I'm their total fan.)

If that's what you think, then think again.

Come on lah. I'm not that childish K.

At the end of the day, they'll just reinforce some of the points above.

I also can list out the same number of points if I were a korean bands-anti.

But I'm not, what's the use of hating this band & that band?

It's just making those stars even more upset, making their life more miserable.

&of course, I want them to be happy,

happy that there're many ppl supporting them all the way.

And not be upset over all these comparisons. Zz.

Anti-FRH ppl, want to add anymore things on top?

Feel free to, but I won't give a damn. Haha.

Like how some anti ppl don't give a damn to non-anti.

Don't get it then forget it :D

Bye.

2009-07-06T04:53:00.001-07:00

aiya. shit blogger.

can't post pics of By2 & JJLIN~~

He went to Bugis also eh. To give BY2 a surprise HAHAA.

Next time when I use another com or laptop then post K.

Hahaha & I'm 1st row.

Cus I VIP! :P HAHAHA.

Don't be jealous~ Okayyyy. I talked to Miko(elder sis),

while on top. But typical chat lah.

She: (Signed finish mine) Xie xie.

Me: Oh. Yao jia you wo~ (Smilesss~)

She: Kept quiet . (Look at me)

Me: (Gave her ??? look.)

She: (smiles) Haha! Xie xie ni a! Wo hui de! xie xie o~

Me: bu ke qi, byebye! :D

That's all. It's stupid lah. The way she looked at me.
but okay... I like her more that's why I talk to her only.

Haha, I pian xin. No la, cus yumi(younger sis) was rushing~

Don't know why -.- so I decided.. ' ah just talk to miko lah. '

Hahaha~ i have 3 videos & 100plus pictures.

PS but I not VERY fan of them so yeap~ don't misunderstand.

Cus I was in 1st row mah, & they kept looking in my direction.

So why not take more pics right?! :)

Kk. That's all bye. :D

I realise that ahwenn is a fan of ya lun also! :D

Hahaha, cool eh?

2009-07-04T04:14:00.000-07:00

Everytime, everytime, everytime.

Everytime is always like that.

Aiya. I wanted to post some pics of someth cool.

But... I really don't know why blogger is not uploading pics.

Okay, next time then.

K.O3 Guo is nice, a show worth to watch.

But but but! I'm still stuck at like EP6.

Super slow lah.. Though I'm faster than yp. :D :D :D

She huh. Only EP5 already then lazy go watch~

HAHAHA :) I must watch finish faster than her.

Btw, for all Jiro fans~ (Like me?)

Okay lah, actually I'm not really his fan.

But in FRH, I love dongLUN.. So is counted right? :D

If you still don't know... He updated his blog!

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/gyapower (Just click on the link-.-)

Go visit eh? Actually if you're like his fan,

you should know that he updated his blog~ LOL.

There's one part, he advised ppl to stop camping outside his house.

He said, 因為我不喜歡我媽也會不知所措~

Hahaha. His mother also will feel weird. Imagine lah~

I'm experiencing a sense of unfairness.

(I know that sounds wrong, but. I don't care.)

Unfair... My family went The Valley!

Except for me. But I went The Peak with mum last year!

Boo to Dad & Bro :D

Hahaha, but seriously... Everyone is @ The Valley now.

EXCEPT ME. ZZZZZ. -_-

Next time must go already lah.

Mum said that The Valley is so much nicer than The Peak.

If it's like, The Peak is nicer than The Valley then maybe I won't care.

But it's not~ It's the other way round eh. ):

Whatever. Pray that they're going to take some nice pics.

I should go and explore the world more,

so can make them jealous. Blahblahblah.

I'm learning guitar in school~

I bet none of them knows how to play.

Haha, wait till I learnt already. Then you all know.

I love the way I put -- after every paragraph.

It's like to represent different topics of my post.

So the more -- there are, the more random my post is.

Put a . in the middle. -.-? Lol.

Is this like counted as one topic.

Okay, bye.

2009-07-03T07:56:00.000-07:00

I didn't know that a trip from Hougang - Clarke Quay - Sengkang...

Would take me just less than an hour. Imagine~

And I only spent approximately 8mins @ Clarke Quay.

Okay, first time there, as in really go & explore The Central.

Walkaround. & I didn't get lost. Hahaha.

Of course, I'm not a child anymore. :)

Recently fell in love with a guy from 2PM.

He's hot hot hot hot hot. But I don't know what's his name.

I don't really care. Cus though he's hot, but someone else is more hot to me.

Like Aaron. HAHA :D

Oh well. Hahaha.

Some bitch is calling herself bitch. Nice show to watch eh?

K, off to watch some show.

Bye~

2009-07-01T01:01:00.000-07:00

KIND CINDY SHALL REPLY TAGS NOW.

Tiff- Hi tiffany~

Crystal- No. Aaron is the hottest can~ Aiyah. To you kim bum is the hottest,

but to me, it's still Aaron no matter what. We're different you see. &don't keep saying who hotter

can? I also never compare. What's there to compare seriously? They both are so different. :)

Different in a good way la. Hahaha, AN ppl damn nice, won't kill you. But maybe will grill you. HAHAHA K lah. Just joking. LOL. My reply so long. Be honoured Kbye. :)

Yuli- Kk. Soon~

Felicia- Yah lor. Don't know who ah. Suddenly got someth on last min. Tsk!

Xiaoyann- Welcome. &WELCOME BACK :D Though it's a late one...

Felicia- Yeah miss you ): I know you miss me too. Hehe.

YAY DONE. LOL.

Not in a good mood, but not because of love or whatever.

It's mainly due to studies. Super stress.

Don't know why I feel so dumb everytime. (!)

It's like last time I always/most of the time,

was top 20 in the level and top 3 in class but now,

it's like i don't know... Just so far behind. Way too far.

I need discipline, but kind of reluctant to give up my freedom.

Reluctant. Ok I suppose that word means that I can but just that I don't want.

Is it too late to turn back now? B'cus now then I realised how impt studies are.

Seriously. Everyth else can wait, except studies.

Once it's over. It's really over. And I don't want to regret.

Just can't study, always say say say, but never do.

Typical cindy is like that.

Facebook, friendster, blogs, youtube,

fanclubs, idols, concerts, online games, playing, blogshopping,

handphone(as in messaging, chatting trivial stuff with friends), & even blogging...

They're all killing me. KILLING ME. Don't they?

And there's many more to list. But those listed are the main ones..

I am not blaming on them okay. It's my own fault anyw.

I made decisions to associate with them, so I am not blaming them.

In fact, am quite happy having all those kind of freedom...

Who asked me to be so naive in the first place. Ohwell.

I don't know what is becoming of me now, seriously don't know.

Lost all my directions in life. How cool is that?

I am just a piece of shit in your eyes. I'm sad, of course I am.

But does it make any difference to you?

I'm smiling or crying, do you even bother to care?

You said you wanted me to do well in future,

you said you wanted me to at least go into jc,

you said you wanted me to do really well in studies,

you said you wished that I can make you proud for having me as your daughter,

you said you wanted your children to be equally good in studies,

you said all those things to me, but now, you're asking me to just go poly,

and work after that.. Apparently, you've given up all your hope on me,

haven't you?

I'm sorry, I am not able to be like what you wanted me to be.

I wanted to, but you're not helping me too. I thought you would be persistent about it.

About helping me, in whatever ways, as long as I say it, you will help me with it.

Yes, I initially thought so. So wrong to believe you, but maybe it's also my fault?

I'm sorry.

Haha, you can just ignore the stuff above la.

Just random thoughts. LOL.

I guess I need to have a good talk with parents/brother.

Okay, I don't know~

Having serious mental disease in school.

(inside story/joke). :) HAHAHA.

PS been dozing off in class, during lessons.

One good way of wasting parents' $. HUH?

I can just go and die.

Bye.

2009-06-28T05:23:00.000-07:00

Hahahaha. Tmr's school. :D

I miss schoolmateys like so much. &tmr can see them already.

AND MY BROTHER IS IN SINGAPORE NOW :D

Ystd midnight @ Airport fetch him with my aunt.

Hahaha, aunt so damn cute lah. Fell asleep. :)

Then some funny things happened there, lol.

He bought me a pooh, super cute I swear.

Tmr night gna have dinner with relatives & bro.

& bro told me some things which I can't say them out here ):

Kk anyw... That's all I've got to say.

Cus i'm running out of time &i've to like finish the ppt slides.

Kwhateverbye.

*get the hint!! :D

2009-06-23T03:23:00.001-07:00

was watching zhong ji san guo and saw this.

this guy is spastic, isn't he! :D

*Click to enlarge

Kkbye~

2009-06-22T03:21:00.000-07:00

Have not been posting so...

Tada! :)

I'm not going to emo already for now~

Cus emo-ing is seriously bad.

I thought I would enjoy this June holidays,

but not really la. Cus many unhappy things happened.

Overall still okay okay lor~

Ohya, got one I-don't-know-who guy added me on FB.

I was like kept asking him who he is.

&he doesn't want to tell me? All the way till just now.

So he said he doesn't know me. Then I asked him,

you don't know me then add me for?

He said, I just want to be your friend. ( how -.- can he be.)

Then I asked him, oh then how you managed to find my fb?

He said, forget. How old are you? Where you come from?

Walau. SO AM I SUPPOSE TO ENTERTAIN HIM OR WHAT. -_-

Tsk~

Anyw~ Gna reply tags now. :D

(xiaoyann)- Haha, yeah see you soon~ :)

(zm)- Sure! Welcome.

(Mindy)-Okay! Welcome.

(xiaoyann)- No la. Hahaha, okay~

(Kristine)- Hi.

(Celeste)- Darl~ Welcome back to the webworld :D

2009-06-14T07:31:00.000-07:00

(to you)

Though deep down I know that the feelings aren't as strong anymore,

but I miss you. A lot.

Cus every time I think of you, I'll miss you all over again.

you weren't there when I needed you the most.

but it's okay. this happens ALL THE TIME.

I'm getting used to it.

2009-06-13T08:52:00.000-07:00

I was wondering..

If the meaning behind it was to give him another chance?

Is it really worth the life? But it sounds like it's worth it.

But I think have to see what's the product first.

Then can see.

LOL this above just for me to wonder about.

Yp ps the AN people cus everyone were so unfriendly to her.

Hahaha, or is she the one who's like shy to talk to the others?

I should've went with her, cus i like to talk to people. :D

Yah right.. -_-

So she bought 2 bottles of drinks for them. HAHAHA.

&SHE LEFT. Okay... That's funny of her.

But she had cell la, so can li jie. If not is totally wasted.

Shall reply tags. Unexpected people tagged. Yay! :)

(Kristine) Hi :D Okay thanks.

(FISHY:D) HAHAHA. I didn't force you to. But okay hiiiiiii!

(Crystal) Ya lor. Actually I free anytime, see when you all free lo. Here also the internet quite sucks. Oh well. K i will sms you. :D

(Claire) Hey Claire :)

2009-06-10T04:00:00.000-07:00

Omg, so damn pissed off with the internet connection here.

It's like.. So slow! Hahaha most of the time. ):

And I want to upload pics, but can't thanks to the slow speed.

It has been like 123123123 days since I last posted a pic.

Lol, but really my blog becomes damn boring now.. ):

My MSN is currently sick. Can't log in sometimes,

cause of the internet speed too.

Shitzxz, I hate the speed lah. It's like I must wait for so long then can load someth.

Zzz. But I'm gng to find upgrades. I want use wireless :D

Hahaha, that would be like so cool right?

ANYTIME & ANYWHERE. :)

& the speed is like confirm damn fast! HAHAHA.

Alright, I shall get it asap. :D :D :D

Ohya. My laptop got some problem. The keys are a bit mental.

Not all keys la, only like one?

But I still love my lappy a lot. :D

My blog's tagboard is like dying~

Last time have like more people tagging than now.

What happen to my other frequent taggers? ):

Nevermind :)

I need a retail therapy! Like reallllly.

Cus I've not been shopping for days! & I MISS SHOPPING.

It's like so fun right! Buy anyth you love.

Haha, I confirm go shopping when I'm back to singapore.

I'm going to miss a hell loads of fun there. ):

Like AN gathering/picnic, sighs. Life's so depressing for me!

Luckily I am able to make it for class gathering@ (Where??)

Lol, I forget already. Is it ECP/Pasir Ris Park?

Hehehe.

PS 136D more to see FRH.

Mixed feelings, cus.. A lot of reasons?

Hahah, but it's a happy thing of course. :D

Time, please fly will youuuuu~

People can't wait k. :D

Felt like buying a damn good cam to take clearer pics/vids of FRH..

HAHAHA. What brand uh, maybe sony?

Quite ex I think, but good can already.

So maybe sony, LOL. See my mood. :)

2009-06-08T09:29:00.000-07:00

I've to say, life still sucks.

Although I was disappointed by that, but still I won't be anymore.

B'cus I know that when I lose something, I'll gain something else.

&. Indeed I've gained something else.

Much more worth than that, I suppose? :)

But it's really a pity..

People change over time.

I personally feel that I'm one of those people.

Realised that I used to be so chi qing in the past,

in other words, I used to eat relationship last time, especially when I've a crush.

And now, though sometimes I'll think of my past crushes,

but I know that the feeling is no longer there.

When you're in love, you'll think of whatever possible ways,

to make it sound like you can't live without him.

But when the feeling doesn't exist anymore,

everything he does, to you, is nothing already.

Someone, whom you used to value so much in your heart,

became just like any of your other known friends, through time.

Time heals all wounds? When you're in love, you disagree.

But when it comes to a point when you aren't anymore,

you may somehow agree. Lol, or is it just me?

But it's how I really am.. Typical me.

Now I think I've become more idols-crazy, I guess. :)

HAHAHA, so is that good or bad?

I don't really want to go into crush-things already.

I'd rather be in love with idols, cuz even though I know the fact that I'll never get to be with him, but just merely to support him/them, seeing their smiles,

& the hard work that they put in for concerts or singing skills,

you'll feel that whatever you've done for him/them, it's all worth it.
That's how I think la. Your social circle will expand too,

when you meet with people who shares the same idols as you..

But, too crazy also not good lah. Like me HAHAHA. :D

Want chase idols, can chase until Taipei. -.-

Lol. But not for any idols I'll do that, exclusively for FRH only.

sometimes i'm thinking if i did the right thing.

cus i'm being mean to many people by doing that,

for the sake of myself. or rather, i'm being selfish.

but i know that if i hadn't done that, i wouldn't have been like now.

maybe that's the price you've to pay, if you really want something.

i wonder how they all did, but i guess ignorance is still bliss.

I pro lah. Can use laptop for 5hours & more.

This means that I've been staying in the room for like,

many many hours. Staring at my laptop watching frh videos.

Lol. Nothing better to do, actually wanted to do some hw,

but but but, it's so late already. I want to sleep.

Hmm. Maybe do 1st then sleep, aha. :D

2009-06-06T12:04:00.001-07:00

K I'm officially going into a depression state from now on till a very long time I think.

Unless there's a miracle, which is 99.9% unlikely.

Fuck life.

Tags replies;

Amira- Uh. Sorry sorry, will link you soon.

Claire- Oh yes, it's back, and thanks for the compliment?

Xiaoyann- Thanks uh. I've linked you up also. C'ya soon too~

Felicia- Dearie, I'm upset till don't know what state already.. FELICIA!!<3

Amanda- Hi amanda, k i've linked you up. C'ya soon too~

Tiffany- Hello too.

Tags replied.

(Fyi, i'm going to Tp for FRH world tour concerts. :D)

I miss AYYL until want to fly there see him. T.T

Sounds crazy enough? Special thanks to MR.YAN. :)

If they are putting in their very best to perform @ their last stop for fans,

why can't I do the same too?

I'm sure 'my very best' is not just staying in SG& pray for their safety& etc,

I believe there's more than just that.

Whatever can be done now, I'll do it. To my very best.

B'cus afterall, to me they're worth it. :)

I'm sure the memories of see-ing them LIVE there would be so different,

&that would be one of the most memorable events for me.

Pray that everyth goes well.

Not going to post unless necessary.

If you really want to know what happened,

can ask me personally thru MSN.

I'll tell you if I want to.

K.bye

2009-06-03T09:24:00.000-07:00

Hi, hello, just going to update on my recent activities& my thoughts/feelings.

Yepyeapyep.

Short updates on today first k.

Main thing for today is that I went out with my closest cousin!

We went for a shopping trip~ &Yeaps, I bought stuff k.

Like smiley hp strap(it's like damn nice?I swear!), bought some keychain also,

a shirt/tee/tanktop(idk what's that), &ice-cream!(Her treat!)

The rest I can't rmb already, apologies for that. I've a poor memory. :D

Hahaha, after that took cabcab to her house, slacked/ate dinner.

I realised that her father still can't get over it..

Me no exception, just that sometimes, I don't think there's a need to express it out..

Cus like that will just make things worse, won't it?

-END-

Talking about it, I miss my cousin. A lot a lot a lot.

His laughter, his cute smiles, his shy-ness, I miss him.

Maybe it's what called fate, or rather destiny..

I don't know, but I just know that he doesn't deserve all these.

Life's cruel, can't be any more true.

Unfair? Yes, life's so damn unfair.

Everyday/most of the days, fussy people like me,

kept complaining how unfair life can get..

Like why some people have the chance to hug Aaron.Y,

while me, can only wish, wish, wish and wish everyday..

But never once my wish is granted, &continue to complain.

I always see the negative side of things,

so I've never cherished the things I have infront of me..

Instead, all I did was to complain and show attitude.

I've such a stupid character, but I think that's what that made me so special.

Hahaha, so random. :D

Life can never be fair I guess. Different people have different character,

&if life is fair to one, another will think otherwise. So tell me,

when will life be fair? Besides, people think differently too..

So I should just shut my mouth up& be happy with what I have right?

I know la. I am greedy, very very greedy.

Maybe that's why I'm always unhappy. Lol. Does it like, rhyme? Okay..

But it's really true la, I really think so. No matter how much I go& reflect,

my character's just as stubborn, &will never change.

Hahaha, that's why I am, ME. Whatever~ I am damn lame.

I wonder why 2 people get together even when they can't really click.

Love? You think you understand what's love, but you should be old enough to know,

love is not as simple as it seems. I know I'm in no position to say anyth,

but it concerns me as well, so I have to do something.

If you two love each other, it doesn't always have to be a couple right?

Love is a way of sacrifice. What for, being together but in the end,

kept fighting/quarrelling over trivial matters?

When you both already know that it's just a matter of time.

Childish isn't it? Or am I the one being immature?

Sometimes, things are just like those kind ; One wrong step, that's it.

&yes, this happens. Not once, twice or thrice, but most of the time.

Have you spared a thought for ME, ME& ME? I am a human too.

I don't know la. Love matters, only the two people know.

You all know it best, I have no say in this.

I'm just saying these as from how I see things are.

Maybe I'm wrong/right, no one knows~

Screwedlife!

BUT i'm still loving life as it is,

cus i think life is wonderful isn't it? :D

Without life, don't even think of doing anyth.

It's life, that has given you chances to do the things you wanna do,

to love the people you wanna love, &many many more!

HAHAHA :D I've learnt how to cherish life more,

ever since that* happens.. I realised how fragile life is.

Maybe you'll only understand after you've went 'thru it.

That's how life works.

We learnt life lessons through the pain we went through.

If not, we'll never grow up. Growing up is a part of life.

So yeah, be happy when you're faced with obstacles,

only then you'll grow up, become more matured,

&hence, become stronger..

LOL I'm like so into life nowadays. But it's really my thoughts la.

Kk. Bye.

2009-06-02T01:33:00.001-07:00

To some you;

A true friend won't talk to me in that way.

Are you even trying to salvage the situation?

You don't sound willing to. Don't say it if you don't mean it at all.

You sounded like you wanted to threaten me to be your friend back.

It may seem that you're trying to get back our past friendship,

but i'm sorry to say, it's all over.

We're just 2 ppl that have crossed each other's paths,

&to me, it's a very small path in my life.

Don't think that you hold a very important place in my friendship list.

Besides, my life doesn't revolve arnd you.

I'm sure neither do yours. We can't click means we can't click.

What's the point of me trying to suit into your lifestyle to be friends with you?

I've taken a step back, but have you?

Don't always feel that everyone should give in to you,

you've to learn how to give in to others too.

Everyone has their own life to live. I'm sure you do have one too right?

I personally feel that I've not been a real friend to you.

I felt guilty to say that, but as you know, truth hurts the most right?

I tried to explain whats the problem with our friendship,

but never once you listened.

Neither do you try to change your attitude.

It's not that i'm asking you to completely change to suit my character,

but in friendship, giving in to each other is one of the most important aspects.

Perhaps you've never seen it,

but all along it's only me that has been giving in to you.

I don't wish to end this friendship, but you've to learn how to be a good friend,

only then others will do the same. This is just an advice.

Cus at the end of the day, you decide your own attitude towards your friends.

I can't help you in any way.

Yay, here is so damn fun.

The best thing of the best things is that,

I've my own car to sit in, whenever I go out. :D

Hahahha, no need take public transport,

kindof not used to it.

Nevermind la. Got car, high-class one somemore, who don't want.

Lol. I sound like I'm boasting about it. -.-

No i'm not. Just, being happy. That's all. :)

Kk bye.

2009-05-29T22:30:00.000-07:00

Seriously I'm feeling so fucked up right now.

Cus actually when FRH @ CSS, they got sang Mo Mo right.

THEY NEVER DUI ZUI OKAY. -.-

I saw the original LIVE video already.

They really NEVER DUI ZUI LAH.

It's just when Channel U played that part on TV,

it seems like they got dui zui, 'cus they cut some parts of the song.

Not FRH's fault right! The channel U did that for what.

Maybe not enough time or something. But the point is that,

FRH NEVER DUI ZUI WHEN THEY SANG MOMO.

&some people told me that they dui zui. Yayayaya, AS IF.

WTF.

Please, don't everytime judge a book by its cover,

just because they LOOKED LIKE THEY GOT DUI ZUI ON TV,

THAT DOESN'T MEAN THEY DID IT RIGHT.

Get your facts right first then talk. Mind your words K.

You all weren't even there on that day,

plus you all also never see an original video of them LIVE one right?

NEVER THEN DON'T ANYHOW SAY THEY DUI ZUI OR WHATEVER SHIT.

K, bye.

2009-05-27T07:45:00.000-07:00

Hello.

Lol, I know I've been MIA-ing for days/weeks.

But got reasons one k, I've MYE you know. Hahaha.

Now over already, that's why I'm like posting okay. :D

And now.. I've tons to type out, &lots to rant on.

I'll try to keep this post short, cus I also have other stuff to do. :)

Received my results in school few days back.

Same old common word, disappointed. (very)

Actually, what more can I say at this point of time?

I can only blame myself for every single lousy results I have.

Because it's my results.

Everytime I dread is receiving my results,

always ended up either crying or show people 'face' to see.

Enough. I had enough of my lousy results.

I can't seem to learn from my mistakes, I should just go& die.

Knock some sense into me people! ):

Many people are like damn happy with their class&level positions.

They seem to be oblivious to my feelings, damn.

I think when I go back, my dad will cut me up into pieces,

barbeque me for dinner or what. I don't know how to face him now.

): ): ): ): ):

I wish you all can understand how I'm feeling right now.

But maybe not.): cus you all have your good results to be happy about.

(I don't even know what I'm typing..)

Random..

Yes, it is a one-sided love as what you all have said,

but SO WHAT if it really is? There's nothing wrong with that.

You can't always expect love to be two-sided right? -.-

Be more realistic next time la.

Lol. Today's post a bit, wrong? D:

Random also, hahahha.

I'm not okay now, I think I've gone crazy or someth.

Too many setbacks for me, I suddenly don't know what to do.

Maybe will post a more proper post next time k. :D

&tmrw's your birthday.

Happy advanced birthday! To youyouyou. :D

Though I'm not sure if we're still friends or less than that,

but in my heart, you'll always be my xxx. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ^^

My heart melts.

2009-05-02T05:30:00.000-07:00

Yay. I got my 2nd frh pictorial book the other day.

So happy, yay yay yay. :D

I know it's damn late to get it by now,

but hahahaha, to me it's still quite early. :)

& it's cus I never yu gou also mah.

But I'm still freaking happy cus even though I didn't yu gou,

I still have the yu gou set. Yayyy-ness.

And its fucking cheap. (but don't say I'm rich.)

Lol.

Ohyay, I'm now an official 紫衣人! :D

But I haven't get my 紫衣 leh. So is it still counted? o.0

Fyi, I'm #AN0058~

Such a cool number, don't you think so?

& someone is bhb-ing about her cool number too.

Oh how cool is that. (-.-)

Lol, whatever/anything,.

Went to yp's house to study.

We studied alot you know~ studying about frh, to be more precise.

Hahaha, so lame. But it's sort of true. :)

Oh & we had lots of fun, studying.

As in really study this time. I studied science, chinese& maths.

I learnt a lot from her& she learns a lot from me.

I managed to solve 2 maths equations that she doesn't know how to.

But miracly, she has secured an A1 in maths,

while me, forever stuck at a B. ):

She said it's because she very smart, & I'm very dumb.

So i was like thinking, why I can solve her maths equations.

Miracles is it? o.o

MYE's still ongoing so I'll not be posting much.

Good luck to all (except some) for your MYE~

P.S Aaron Yan's my ultimate motivation for this MYE. :]

& it's true. So true. Everyone at home's been saying that to me.

So it must be true. Hahahaha.

More than tired.

2009-04-25T03:17:00.000-07:00

Life's so full of shits lately.

Year 2009 sucks quite badly.

Quite.

Everyth seems wrong, today, yesterday, last week..

Basically, recently.

Studies wise, I've been not doing well for tests& stuff.

Likewise in friendship, no one seems to understand anyth.

Maybe 'cus they judge a book by its cover, you know.

Many people do.

A real friend, a true friend, is there any?

Perhaps I'm asking too much in a friend.

Whatever it is, I hope things will be better, soon.

Nothing has been going the way I want them to go.

So much obstacles I've to overcome,

&there's many that's still waiting for me.

I thought I was strong enough not to give up,

to hold on there and peservere 'thru anyth, but no,

I'm not that kind of girl.

Is FLH going to disband next year after their contract ends?

Heard so much rumours about it.

Felt sad for them, hopefully rumours are forever rumours.

Yep. :)

I'll be supporting each and everyone in FLH till the end of time~

Okay.. Hahahaha.

Bye~

And stupid ass/rocker,

like how your name implies,

you're just some ass who doesn't have a life.

Please, go get some life and get the hell out of here.

I don't need you to add colours to my tagboard.

It's very colourful already, you can't see uh?

Consult a doctor please, incase you're gnna be blind soon or someth.

(see, people still so nice to give you this advice ah.)

Stop trying to get my attention by barking like some dog.

It doesn't help, and it won't as well, too bad for you I must say.

And seriously, I don't give any fucking damn about that, alright.

Get lost, don't ever come back.

'Cus I'm not looking forward to see you @ my blog.

Not at all. If you don't like me for some reasons,

all the more you shouldn't have come here, huh?

This shall be the first and last time,

I'm gng to waste my time entertaining dogs like you.

Bye.

Thanks Celeste laogong, amira for the tags anyw.

Much appreciated. Loveyous! :D

Feelings.

2009-04-21T04:19:00.000-07:00

<你不会懂得珍惜直到你失去>, 我终于懂了.

Somehow, I feel that people will only start to learn how to cherish someone,

only when he/she's not around. Yes, people like me maybe.

When things turned out at the least expected times,

I don't know how to react, neither do I know what to do.

Some things are inevitable..

But is it way too sudden?

Tell me. Is it? I was speechless, I stared into blank spaces.

Truth hurts, too badly in times like this.

He left me already. What should I do?

Now that I've lost someone whom I used to be close to.

He's gone. And he'll never come back anymore.

Never. Regrets? Yes, of course I have many regrets.

I regret that I didn't cherish the times I've had with him then,

I regret that I didn't treat him like how I should be,

I regret that I didn't interact much with him when I've the chance to,

I regret not cherishing the times I had with him in the past.

So many regrets. But why am I only regretting all these now?

Isn't it a little too late? What should I do..

Life would never be the same again.

Why must an innocent life gone just like that?

I don't understand why life has to work this way.

Really, really, really don't understand. Life is cruel, really cruel..

Called mum& dad, talked about it,

cried through the whole conversation.

But I never felt better since.

Through all these, I've learnt many things along the way.

Though it's something that no one wants it to happen,

but shouldn't we look at the positive side of things..

I don't know why I'm saying all these,

yet still being pessimistic about it.

I think cherishing loved ones is very very important,

cherish them, b'cus I'll never know when they're going to leave me..

And I don't want history to repeat itself,

I don't wish to have regrets when they're gone.

Perhaps that'll be the last thing I would ever want to have..

Too many things have happened recently..

Zhen de tai duo le..

Wo xu yao yi ge ren jing yi jing..

Wo hao xi wang ren sheng bu shi zhe yang..

Dan shi.. Dao zui hou, ren sheng zhi hui bian de yue lai yue fu zha,

bu shi ma? Bu guan ta gao su wo yao jian chi xia qu, yao jian qiang,

bu yao ku.. Ke shi.. Wo neng zuo dao ma?

Hao xiang ban bu dao... Yin wei shi qing dou lai de shi zai tai tu ran le..

Ru guo neng xiang ta suo shuo de na me jian dan,

na gai duo hao..

飞轮海

2009-04-19T05:33:00.000-07:00

飞轮海's < 留下来 > is the 1st in the top 20 chart list @ 933 radio station! :D

Yayyyyynessss, right! Yesyesyes, HAHAHA. So darn happy now.

So cool alright. Luv them lots, to the max larh. Really.

Not because of this luh, I all along have been loving them already lol. (-.-)

Ever since, xx xx xx lar. Teehee,

So cool! :D They rock man, more than anyth else (I guess)! :]

Kay, my main point has been stated in the first sentence of the post,

so yeah, nothing much to post already. Bye.

P.S

That's not the thing I'm happy/unhappy about. I'll state it when the time comes. :)

Aaronyan-love.

2009-04-17T04:26:00.000-07:00

Hello, hi.

I'm happy cause of someth. :D :D :D

I'll mention it when the time ripes, no worries. :)

Should be around.. This month/next month?

Haha, idk lah. :D

I'm unhappy cause of few things. D: D: D:

Keep this to myself? I think I'll do that.

(someth to do w title though. D:)

Waiting.

2009-04-14T04:21:00.000-07:00

Hi. Today's school like usual.

Nothing much happened recently, really.

Twintwin, am glad that you're okay already.

I know I very funny right. (you said that yourself..)

Lol. I super bhb one lor, that part also want to post. (-.-)

Who cares~ I like, I happy, can already. Yay. :)

I realised that I love singing these few days.

Lol. I even thought of going to study music course or someth after my Os.

I thinking too much already, but seriously.. I love singing.

Yue lai yue ai singing. :D

But, my pitching sucks. ):

Hehe. Lol, but I improve quite a lot already! Compared to maybe,

starting of the year? Hahaha. 'cus I every night while doing homework,

I kept practicing on my pitching. Almost everyday.

It may seem kind of, dumb/idiotic, but as long as I love it, it's perfectly fine to me.

Blah. I'm random. Super random.

Omg. I cried.. Lol, not really cried out loud,

but just that tears are on my eyes.

Never liu xia lai lar! (fortunately).

Hahaha. Lucky tears didn't fell on my cheeks,

if not ppl see I will only xia suay myself.

I told no one. I'm not going to anyway. )':

Now's not the right time. Not anytime soon.

Bye.

Was it all?

2009-04-12T05:45:00.000-07:00

I seriously miss 飞轮海's concert last year. ): ): ):

Uhuh. Miss it a lot. I want a repeaaaaat. D':

Lol. &I heard some private news about da dong and ya lun.

Don't ask me/x, if you know then you know:D, you don't then too bad(?) :D/D:

Hahaha. And before I forget,

I need to thank (you-know-who-you-are,) for (you-know-what-you-gave-me!)

Aww. So touched, I want cry already kay!?

Hahaha. Yesyes, someth to do with.. Fahrenheit& dong& lun. :D& :D& :D.

Tomorrow having maths common test.

Okay lah, I kinda like it, because.. It's good for everyone.

So at least, that makes me somehow, studied more than I usually did.

(you know how lazy I can get right?)

Lol lol lol. I'm wondering how badly/well I'll do for tomorrow..

Blah. Not gnna think too much again.

MYE's coming! YAYNESS! :D

Don't ask me why, you're gnna scream at me if I tell you the reasons.

Hahaha. Think in a positive wayyy luh! :D

Super happy that MYEEEEEE is coming. :]

But after MYE, June's coming! AWWNESS! D:

You know, that 4 days 3 nights that many dreaded.. (...)

I. Am. Worried. About. IT.

I'm afraid that I won't be able to hang on.. (Sighs)

I suppose many would be looking forward to June Hols lah.
I also lar, but not as much. Don't need ask why right..

)':

Rained today. Thoughted, pondered..

I didn't know and never expected all to turn out in this way.

What to do, life's unpredictable.

But don't you think it's kind of stupid, when you know,

things are going to be like that sooner/later,

yet you still went along with it. When you know you can made changes, you don't.

And at the end of the day, what's left behind for you,

are just regrets and disappointment.

Is it that I'm stupid or plain dumbness? Does that make any diff, uh?

I feel like giving up already. I don't know. I hate all these shit.

I think I've forgotten someth.

Happy belated Good Friday. :)

Ever since,

2009-04-09T04:29:00.000-07:00

Ya lun so shuai when he sings kay.

Hahaha. Lol, random piece of sentence.

But he is luh. VERY. :D

I love love love him. & da dong too!

Da dong is more to cool or someth..

Ya lun more to cute. Actually shuai also lah. Hehe.

So in love with them. Should I change my url to..

Something like.. inlovewith-dadongyalun.bs?

Super weird one, I know. 'cause I randomly mix their names.

Tempting. Hahaha,. Hmm..shall think about it.

Today had physics ct. Was quite difficult I think.

But I tried my best though.. Or didn't I?

Maybe not 100%, but at least got 70% I know I did.

Hahaha. So random. But really lor. :)

Blah. These few days, I've been sleeping during lessons.

Probably is due to my great lack of sleep, yesyes.

I am lacking of sleep! Seriously.

This is getting worse, by day. I need to plan out some study timetable.

But I'm so lazy, I don't even think I'll do what I say.

K luh, maybe will. A simple one. Cindy! Must buck up already!

(Lol.)

So many tests now and then. Almost killed me.

MYE is coming. Thinking of M.I.A-ing.. Oh well. Let's see.

Hahahha. Don't know what to blog about already,

I've been leading the same mundane lifestyle. (like I always do.)

Blahblahblah. I'm gnna watch clips, find pics, of Fahrenheit,

Aaron yan,& Jiro Wang now. Wait, actually not really 'going to' lah.

I'm already in the process of. Hahaha. Bye! :]

P.S; So happy that.. My father gave me a camcorder! :D :D :D :D :D

P.P.S; My mum gave me few hundreds for my b'day! :D :D :D :D :D

Lol, I can see myself as a materialistic girl in future.

But. I'm not really that materialistic actually lah..

Hahaha.

05.04.09. Best.

2009-04-05T05:51:00.000-07:00

OH-FIVE-OH-FOUR-OH-NINE IS ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥!

It's today! :D

(Happy Birthday, Cindy!) Hahaha, self-wishing-in-progress. (-.-)

Kay, today was fab. Really fab,.

Went out with dora, ciyue to Vivo. Fun! :D

Then went to hgm's cafe cartel to have our dinner w some others too.

The whole meal I was laughing all the way can!

Very very funny. &also lame of course.

But still, same word again, fun!

Thanks to those who've wished me happy b'day& presents, cards too;

In any forms, I do appreciate all. :)

Thanks a lot!

They're.. (not in alphabetical order)

Zhimin(5th), Eileen(3rd), Felicia.N(1st to wish me!), Felicia, Yenping(4th), Rowena, Dahlia, Manhui, Sweeny, Celeste, Huibing, Jojo, Kailee, Ciyue, Theresia, Irene, Clara, Jolene, Theresa.P, Terence, Amira, Hajar, Siew(2nd), Felissa, Silvia's friend(forgot name, Ralf/someth.), Crystal, Samuel, Mingwei, Robin, Nadirah, Teena, Linda, Kellen, Sheren, Jane, Genevieve, Jasmine, Stephen, Celestine.

P.S; First 5 ppl to wish me were bold-ed! :D

& most important of all,

My mum, dad& bro! &cousins/relatives.

(Confirm missed out some ppl's names already! ): couldn't rmb all..

&some names are missed out, on purpose(: so yeah..

Thanks to all! Love you all lots! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥)

I've got few presentssss, yay! Happyhappyhappyhappyhappy.

Not because of the presents, but the effort they've put in to buy/make/design them.

&I'm super touched by dora, ciyue& jolene's pressie. Cus it's damn special& nice!

PLUS* The FAHRENHEIT/ YAN YA LUN/ DA DONG's cards!! OMG!

Thanks a lot man!! L♥veeeeeeeeeess!

Yeah, that's all I guess.

OH-FIVE-OH-FOUR-OH-NINE = ♥

I wish I could have many many repeats of today.

It was the perfect birthday '09 I've been longing for.

Thanks all. L♥ves!

&xxx, thanks.

Expected you to forget, I know you wished me,

it's not because you rmb-ed it, but rather cus of someth else,

but still, I appreciated that a lot,.

&xx, you've forgotten it. Yes, you did.

I know in the next few hours to come,

you wouldn't wish me anymore. Expected this already,

what more can I say? But anyw, I won't forget yours..

Unknown feelings,

2009-04-02T04:02:00.001-07:00

Helloooooo! :D

Hehe. I know I've not been updating for idk days already lah.

I'm too lazy maybe. ;D

Feel like closing blog, probably because..

Err. I don't feel like blogging anym.

But still unsure yet luh. Some ppl doesn't want me to close it.

Like begging me. Tsk. Super lame. Hahaha.

Lol.

Last Sundayyyyyyyyyy!! :D 29.03.09

Fahrenheit @ IMM! :D :D :D :D :D
I was.. Really veryyyyyy hyper then! So high okay!(:

Went to queue with yenping& jasmine,

like reach there arnd 7AM?

I think it's considered late lol. At first, I wanted to take taxi w them,

and planning to reach them like say,

around 5AM? I even told them I willing to pay the taxi fare!

But.. They don't want. ): ): ): ): ): !

So ended up.. Seven am lor. ):

K lah, still quite front.. Actually not really.

Waited, did lots of stuff to entertain ourselves of course..

Made friends with 2 girls queue-ing in front of us.

They were seriously-very friendly! ;D

Didn't ask for their names, oops. Forgotten already. D:

But they were really sweet, chio& funny to be with!

Omgomg, why didn't I ask for their numbers/names! ):

But nevermind lah, if there's fate, we'll meet again(:

Then waited, waited. So in the end, they came.

But shortly after, it rained, heavily!

What a spoiler man. Tsk. Haha, everyone's still super high though!

Then Chen Yi Ru beatbox lor, as usual.

Then he said something like this la,

'Ya lun need his piano, Zun need his drums,

&Da Dong need his guitar to like display their talents.

But I just need to bring myself! Hahaha. '

So lame~ but then quite true ley, hahahahaha. :D

Ya lun damn damn cute& shuai, & Da dong so cool!

Blah. Then went up& shook their hands lor.

Whatever happened then, shan't typed it out..

But something happened when I went up la, omgomgomgomgomg.

Lol. :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I really hope that they'll come here again a.s.a.p for concert or anyth! ;D

Miss them now)': )':

Especially, AARON YAN& JIRO WANG!! D: D: D: D: D:

This feeling sucks man.. )';

What date is it today? Hahaha.

5th april coming soon~! This sunday uh uh uh uh uh!

Hahaha. My birthdayyyyyyyyyyy is coming, hurrrrraaaaayyyyy!! ^^

Still, I don't really feel exceptionally excited over it.

Don't know why also. Just got this weird feeling,

that this year's birthday wouldn't be so special anymore,

there wouldn't be any more surprises that I longed for,

there wouldn't be anyone who knows what I really wanted for b'day..

Maybe they don't really know me well now. ):

OR I'm thinking too much? Hope so. Uh. Okay. Whatever.

Hahaha. So random.

Kay am off to do someth now. Bye,

So close to having it.

2009-03-26T00:33:00.000-07:00

I don't know why I felt so wrong now.

Or maybe these few days.
I think I know, just that.. Don't feel like saying out.

We know too. 'cus we're feeling the same way.

So what even if I've told the whole world about it?

Nothing will change just b'cus of that.

Sigh. Cried so many times over it. &I know it's childish,

don't bother reminding me. (-.-)

But hey, of course you'l think it's childish,

but to me/us, it's not at all.

You might understand some day when you're going 'thru the same feeling.

I wonder why tears are even rolling down on my face.

If only I knew it earlier.

Things wouldn't be as bad as of now,

or rather should I say,

I wouldn't have felt so depressed?

Because if I've known it earlier,

everyth would not even be in this state.

I c u c i c. Feeling really damn i-c-u-i-c-u-ed up.

Btw, it's the f word if you still can't figure it out. -.-

OHYES, I'm fine. Very fine. Super fine.

( Yesyesyes.. Like as if! )

Pray that I won't get depression.

&that's why I miss you.

2009-03-22T05:57:00.000-07:00

Hello! ;D

Haha, march hols are going to be over like..

Damn soon. Eee, this feeling suckssss/:

Anyw, I've completed like maybe,

95 percent of my homework? Lol.

Outing with yp on Thurs..

It was fun, quite fun or maybe very fun.

Shan't elaborate on details, 'cause I'm very very lazy.

Lols, I'm ALWAYS lazy. Like since when I'm not?

Yeah, so no elaboration needed for this. :P

Ystd had cca. I actually forgotten to bring my belt.

No punishment for that, miracleeeee right?

I think I'm lucky or what, I don't know.

But I don't think I would be stupid enough to forget the next time.

Hahaha. Activity was okay I guess..

Nursing a little boring luh, but better than.. I-know-what-la.

Lol.. Sometimes I'm thinking if I should even be in com team.

I'm not even up to the standard can.. Sigh. Nevermind.

Today I've been studying..

Actually it's rushing homework, so I still called it studying.

Talking about studying, I personally think that,

I've been more hardworking ever since I'm a crazy fan of fahrenheit.

Really, I've realised this all these while.

Even my tuition teacher said so.

I'm quite surprised la, initially thought if they would be a distraction in my studies..

But maybe for now, not yet. Hopefully no luh. :D

Haha, I crapped so much about this.

I think I'm super lame-.-

Btw, I once thought that showbiz life would be lots of fun..

You know. Like getting lots of fans' attention, doing things you like,

and at the same time earn lots of money. Actually it's very fun.

But on second thought, I don't really think so..

Showbiz life may seem super interesting,

but I think it's not a life where I could find true happiness in.

Though I know can earn lots of money,

but one thing's for sure is that. Money can never buy happiness.

And I'm referring to long-term happiness.
Okay, super random. Was thinking of something..

Then suddenly typed out this part. I don't know why also o.o

Bye.

2009-03-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

Posting these pics 'cus twinny wants me to.

Her comp spoiled at that time, so she asked me to help her post piccys:D

Heh, chiobus all above lei! :D :D :D

Hahahaha, love them lots. Kay, now she can steal piccys le.

Lol, must thank meeeeeee okay(;

joking luh. K thats all. Bye. [:

Falling apart.

2009-03-18T03:44:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't been updating on a regular basis.

I shall post a longer-than-usual post for today then,

to make up for (some people) who kept asking me why I didn't update..

Haha, where should I start? :D

K la, basically PTM was really fineee. ;D

I know that's like weeks ago thing, but just to summarize it,

It. Was. Really. Fine.

&the talk was a lil boring I must say..

Went out with noob dearie on Monday.

We roamed 'thru ps, was quite fun actually.

Bought fei lun hai poker cards, so happpppppyy.

She was late, like always. Haha, I got used to it already.

Yeap, after that got to go around 4plus 5.

'cus she got piano. &I was supposed to have tuition,

but in the end postponed 'cause teacher was too tired.

Yeaaaah.

Today had st john. Activity's not bad not bad(:

Kinda cool la I must say. &first time did 2 cases in a day.

Learnt that we must wear gloves before anyth else.

Lol. &I found myself being very dumb today.

Partly because I didn't study first aid manual book,

&also, because I have either low IQ or EQ. (-.-)

In short, I never used my common sense la.

But whatever it is, it's past. If I could be granted one wish now,

I think i would wish that I could memorise everyth in the First-aid book.

Then maybe I could be somehow, be 'safe'.

You know you know. Lol, daydreaming-in-progress, apologies.

Hahaha. ;D but seriously, I would like to memorize the whole book,

if possible. Maybe it's possible, if...

If it's the only thing I'm learning at school.

So that I could dedicate all my time to memorize& understand every single thing inside.

For now and till I don't know when, it's impossible for me la.

Yayness! Shopping trip with Yp tmrwww.

The whole day I think. I'm looking forward to fun, fun& laughters-filled day.

My invented word, laughters-filled. Lol. [:

Shall blog again maybe few days later.

I shall end my longer-than-usual post with a sentence then :P

Fahrenheit rocks, esp jiro and aaron!!

So near, yet so far.

2009-03-12T00:11:00.000-07:00

Hello earthlings ;D

I know I've not been updating, probably 'cus I was too lazy,

or something else which I couldn't think of now. :D

Hehe.

Today's ptm. Ewww, I swear I hate ptm-s..
Never once I liked it before, so yeah.

Same goes for this time. It sucks, A LOT. /:

Lol, but I guess it wouldn't be long ;D so can't wait for it to end.

&oh! Tmrw's last day of school of Term 1. Hurrrrrray!

Can't wait for march hols, omg. It gnna rock, i have predicted. :D

Kay, short post for today.

Having not much mood to post. 'cus must have the mood then can post longer.

Hahaha, my da dao li ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

Bye earthlings! Loveee.

Indescribably, sad.

2009-03-05T03:48:00.000-08:00

Results are officially out. In fact, from just now.

I'm not at all happy about my results,

even though I managed to secure few A1s.

Yeaps, few. So what's there to be happy about, seriously?

Blah. I'm not gna rant anyth anymore.

I'm tired, and it won't change much of anyth anyw..

Mummy's super pissed off upon knowing my results.

&daddy's also super disappointed..

They made me feel so guilty.

I wish I could be more hardworking then,

&changed their frowns into smiles.

But I know at the end of the day, everyth will stay the same..

Though my results ain't that bad as they might seem,

but you know, I couldn't possibly repeat the same mistake twice.

And there I go, repeating the same mistake twice..

I'm so useless, couldn't seem to get it right just once.

Nothing much to say anymore.

Today's 05 March 2009,

in other words, it's exactly one month to my birthday.

Exactly one month. How time flies ;D

Shan't countdown yet, it's pretty earlyyy.

I shall count down to yp's birthday!

Hers like less than almost two weeks more y' know! (;

Am feelin' darn excited for her,

&I bet she can't wait for her b'day pressie from me.

Rofl.

Failure.

2009-03-02T02:31:00.000-08:00

To think I've the mood to post.

Yeaps, failure, as you can see from the title on top.

Failure, failure, failure.

I just realised that I'm such a successful failure.

I thought I've moved on with my 2nd phase of life.

Which is (like-the-obvious), secondary school life.

I guessed I'm wrong, 'cus I couldn't seem to adapt to my current life.

It might not seem that way to you,

probably 'cause I've managed to hid this feeling so well,

or because of other reasons,

but truth is that, I've not moved on.

I miss those times I've had with yp, feli, and the rest.

How great wouldn't it be if I could have many repeats of those times?

Maybe it's time for everyone to grow up,

to move on& get out of our innocent childhood..

I hate it when I have to move on from one phase of life to another.

It seriously sucks.

*Slaps

Back to reality, got back maths ct today.

My marks is obviously unsatisfactory..

I've lots of comments to say, but after thinking thrice,

I chose not to say any(:

Bye.

(today's post so random omg.)

Jiro& Aaron are love.

2009-03-01T04:43:00.000-08:00

Hey to you, or you, or you. :D

Hmm, I'm not in the best moods these days,

feeling whatever-ish.

I seriously don't have the slightest idea why..

Lots of questions have been popping out of nowhere,

&I couldn't seem to find their answers..

Tell me, what should I do best?

This can't work, that can't either..

So what can? Tell me, I'm dying to know.

I need a direction, really.

To lead me out of this dark, empty tunnel in my heart..

Sigh, I'v been sighing lately, just whats so wrong with me?

I don't know myslf too.. Wish that I knew.

Anwy, nothing much..

Just, random thoughts spilling out-in-progress.

Whatever-ing. Yet again. Lol.

Omg, why the stupid youtube still don't have my show's episode 3?

I'm like dying to watch it now. ;p

Patience is a virtue, (like realllllll).

But I shall wait, waiting sucks man. Damndamndamndamndamndamn it.

Ohyeah, this blogskin rocks right?

I super love the show aboveee, &if you still clueless about what it is,

just go and knock your head on the wall.

Lol, i sound so evil.

But just go watch it la, won't hurt right?

&I swear its a very nice show, though I've only watched first 2 eps.

Most probably, I'll stick to this blogskin, mainly 'cus of my love for the show.

Hahaha, what a lame reason that was.

Kay, i'm done with my post.

Chopchop, I'm off! ;D

2009-02-28T03:34:00.000-08:00

Sorry for not updating!

Lols, I'm quite lazy these days you know..

But I'm not today! ;D

Stjohn today. Wasn't like I had expected.

Yeah.. And today we had home nursing lecture!

It wasn't boring at all, &I learnt quite a lot of things.

Then some things happen luh, though not major,

but I felt bad.. Didn't expect it to be like this now,

is it my fault this time..? Actually things aren't that bad,

I just don't know why why why & why it's like that now!

So troubled, don't know who to talk to about it.. )':

Overall was okay. ;D

I've so much homework currently, &wondering if I could finish them.

My current aim is, to finish them by tonight.

Even if it means I have to sleep past midnight..

So that tomorrow would be able to wake up later,

& wouldn't be too stressed out by homework.

Hope that I could achieve my aim though. ;p

By the way, I didn't change my blogskin the other time.

Only today then change. Think some things cropped up at the blogskin thingy.

For now, I just wanna have a simple blogskin..

I wish life could be better,

& I also wish that friends around me would be more understanding.

So that I can find more friends to trust whom I can speak everything to.

Yenping will be my No.1 as of now. [:

I do wish fishy could be my No.2,

but I'm not sure for now 'cus she has been neglecting me, (for her studies-.-).

Sigh. ):

You know she gets 5th in the level last year, and whenever I wanna talk to her,

she'll say ' I busy now. Later talk to you :) ' or things similar to that..

(That was last year.)

Hope I could catch up with her as soon as possible,

&go her house to TALK to her. Lol, she huh..

fishyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, I want my old fishy back..

I seriously think that you've somehow changed now.

Prove me wrong, (will you?!)

Many thoughts on my mind, unsure of what step to take next.

That's basically how I'm feeling now/recently..

Goodnight peeopleeeeeee, (:

Why..

I couldn't believe such misunderstandings could happen.

Sometimes I thought we were close, sometimes not.

Tell me why, you made me feel this way.

&things aren't as bad as (you all) thought..

I didn't want our relationships to be this way,

I just wish (you all) will understand.

Because (you all) think that I changed,

that's why (you all) thought that it's my fault..

& I don't know why (you all) said those words, gave those expressions.

(you all) left me clueless. I don't know what to do now..

I wished that I could explain everything to them,

but I don't know where to start, for I don't even know what's wrong now.

(the 'you all's only referring to few people, not that many actually.)

2009-02-21T01:55:00.000-08:00

Heys.

I know it has been 123456789 days since I last updated.

Uh, sorry. 'cus I was quite busy& lazyyy.

But hey, I'm updating currently alright.. (:

Ystd went to Causeway to meet my da dong & my rainie yang with twin.

Damnit fun. 'Cause da dong smiled at me kays! ;D

Lol. It's like.. Once in a million years this kind of things will happen one okay.

So happy! Never been so happy before, the first celebrity to smile at me was him! ;D

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

Ytd was Crystal's b'day too. Happy birthday!

Hope all your wishes come true!

So yeah, went to meet twin at bus stop at 4pm.

& trained there. It was a long long journey, 'bout 1hr?

Yeap. And there was this guy which turned me off totally. He sucks, totally.

Twinny was merely listening to her songs without th earphone,

'cus she didn't bring, & this sucker guy, who sat infront of us,

blasted his freakn' song on his hp. Damn please. She also didn't blast for heaven's sake.

He must be mentally unstable, I conclude.

Enough of that sucker.

We reached, ate our dinner first.

Then waited for hours before they came out. Heard that they had some problem,

with their passports. Anyw, I saw da dong! Teehee ;P

And sad thing was, they only talked for 'bout 15 to 20 mins bfore signing stuff..

I love the dress rainie yang was wearing! Purple dress, really sweet.

I'll buy next time, if I happened to came across it! (;

Then went to find my cousins at PizzaHut.

She wanted us to sit down, treat us eat dinner(again),

but twinny was shy right? Hahaha. I drank my pretty cousin's drink.

Oops. Was too thirsty I guess..

Da dong's damn cute. Haha. Random.

I find him very matured suddenly. Maybe cus he looked matured yesterday.

Lol. He rocks man. :P

Kay, that's about the thinggy. (;

Hahaha, my Pretty Cousin lied to me! She called me ystd's evening,

said that wu zun was in spore on Thurs.

Obviously, I couldn't be that dumb to believe her. ^^

It went this way.

PC : Eh cindy, wu zun was in spore ystd you know?

ME : Really meh? Wah, don't bluff la you. Also never heard that he's coming.

PC : Wah don't believe?! We(she& her sis) saw him ytd at th airport.

ME : Oh really? Hahaha. Right, just as if lor. Why don't you tell me he come here for?

PC : Cus he was sick. So came here see doctor.

ME : What the. Stop bluffing la.
PC : Eh really ley, don't believe go read newspaper la.

ME: Haha, i dont need read newspaper also know you bluffing. Want bluff me not so easy la. (laughing)

PC : LOL. Okay la, you win. Later I also going there. Haha.

ME : Kay, call me when you'v reached, C'ya!

Then today.. It's my turn to bluff YP that wu zun came spore.

&I didn't know that she could be so .... to believe me. Lol, joking.

It went like this. (sms)

ME : omg wu zun in spore on thurs! I jus found out from my cousin..

YP : wad zun here for?

ME : Oh. Zun was here for treatment, cus he was diagnosed cancer.. I so sad now, wanna cry liao!

He so poor thing...

YP : Omg!!really?wad cancer?
ME : Erm.. Head cancer, eye cancer, nose cancer, hair cancer, mouth cancer, breast cancer, neck cancer,

hand cancer, stomach cancer, thigh cancer, ankle cancer, leg cancer.. And kidney failure. So its like whole

body cancer.. Damn sad now...

YP : Go die la u!u bluf me!i scared until lyk wad u no!)': )': lucky i nvr cry...

ME : Haha. Who ask you so stupid go believe this lie?? Still say ' if i believe you, i will hav my funeral tmr... '

LOL. ROFL.

Kinda fun sms-ing her. Really.

Yeap. That's about it. Goodbye!

Da dong smiled at me. (: (: (I'm not hao-lian ing kay, its true:D)

2009-02-14T03:35:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I felt this bad as of now.
Everyth just seems to be not where they're supposed to be.

First thing first.
Like the most recent one, the Maths common test.
In short, I did badly.
Even though the result isn't out yet, I knew that I did extremely badly for that.
Somehow. I wanted so much to blame,
blame that the school's switched off the electricity completely,
and made me feel so hot& sweaty, that I couldn't concentrate,
blame that I didn't try hard enough to manage my time on each questions,
blame that I was easily distracted by every little things that were happening at that time,
blame that I didn't study hard enough for the test,
blame that I have been playing too much days before the test,
blame that I have been saying 'Yes' to anyone who asked me out days before the test,
blame that I have not been practising my maths,
blame that there wasn't enough time for me to do the paper,
blame almost everything that was out to stop me from scoring well for that paper.

Yes, everything just went wrong on that day.
Or maybe, days before. I could sense that I'm not going to do well,
& yes, I'm right this time. I swear I did terribly.
But so what if I had put all the blame on others or myself?
Could it ever change the result on that common test paper?
I knew it, I would fail that paper.
Though I don't know how I've done for that paper,
I'm very sure this time,
this time, it's not going to put on a smile on my face,
& disappointment to some people who were 'worried' that I might do well for this paper.
Maybe they're happy smiling away now,
'cus I'm sure that I'm going to fail this maths common test!
Go on, smile all you want. (I know if you were faking it or not.)

And what's best is, this time's percentage is much higher than,
all the small maths test which I've done quite well for.
Sigh. What more could I do, except to sigh& cry?
Yes, I cried. Just by thinking about it,
can just make me cry, terribly. I had expected it..
You may think, ' This is just a common test, it's not even mid-year examination. '
Or, ' Just do well for the next tests to recover the marks. '
But no.. This isn't just a common test.
This determines a lot of things& thus will affect my overall maths results.
To me, every test means everyth to me. I treat every test of equal importance,
be it small quiz, or even end-of-year maths examination.
Same goes for other subjects. It's streaming year, what's not important you tell me.

I'm feeling darn terrible now..
Nothing I could do to change anyth. What's over is over.
Maybe I just couldn't accept the truth,
I need time to think. What I can do so as not to repeat this hilarious mistake.
It's hilarious. Why? 'cus who would be so dumb to let this chance slipped away?
Thanks friends for comforting in school on Friday,
though it really did not help in any way, but still, thanks.
Be it genuine comfort or fake ones,
I still appreciate a lot. Thanks, once again.

Next thing is about current things.
Some friends have been occasionally asking me out,
one after another, either for a study meetup, or others.
It's not that I don't want to, or making up excuses not to go with you.
It's not. But do you know how important is streaming to me?
I doubt you know, 'cus you always think that I'm just faking everyth to you.
Or using that as an excuse not to go out with you all..
No, it's not. It's the truth, seriously.
Even study meetups, I couldn't make it.
Either because I've got tuitions(really have tuitions.), or I've no money.
It's real reasons, not excuses or anyth close to that.
& I think I study better alone, that in groups or pairs.
Because if I study in groups/pairs, I'll end up chatting away,
or playing a fool instead of doing what I should be doing.

Trust me. It has happened for quite a number of times..
And I do hope that you all will understand when I reject certain outings~
I promise you all that when streaming is over,
which means during end of year holidays,
I'll make up for any outing that I've rejected.
At least, if I have done badly for my streaming,
I wouldn't be putting the blame on the various outings I've been going for.
& that those outings took up my studying time or so on..
Yeah, I'll feel bad if I ever did that.
It's like trying to push the blame on others, I kinda don't like it.

&I'm not bias towards any of my friends by the way.
I know this sounds random, but I felt that some may think so,
that's why I'm saying I'm not bias..

I have been feeling lots of stress these days.
Moreover, I'm chosen for FAC..
This means that I'll be going for extra trainings,
and all that. I seriously don't have the slightest idea,
on how to manage my time.
& I've got to remember lots of things concerning CPR,
and foot drills procedures..
And I've to endure a lot of things, like punishments, & so on.

Adding on to that pressure, I've got a lot to catch up in terms of academic.
How am I going to do that, when there's so much things to do?
I know now, i'm all alone facing all these obstacles in my school life..
All alone. I have to be strong, to be determined about my goals,
be firm in everyth I do, choices I made, &etc.
I have yet to learn how to handle life stress, peer pressure, &etc.
I have no more time for playing & fooling around,(i think they mean th same thing.-.-).
Things are always easier said than done for me.
So much things I've said, but if I did none of the above,
then there's no point saying so much.

Stress, stress, stress, pressure, pressure, pressure,
please go away..

I've not much mood to continue though.
I'm still quite upset over maths & some other matters though.
Don't have to cheer me up if you really don't mean it,
it's okay. (if you even care to.)
Hahaha. I'm so (bhb?). Anyway, that's all for now.
Bye.

2009-02-11T02:45:00.000-08:00

Hello hey hey.

I'm posting these piccys not b'cus I'm showing off th album or whatsoever.

It's b'cus my dearest pp wanna see it. ;D

So must thank me gazillions kay, hahaha.

To pp ;

Good luck for your test tmrw love!

Must at least get B3& above!

Lol, <33333333s!

YOU ROCK(I mean, like real?)! :P

Lol. Yeah. Not much things to talk 'bout,

I guess that's all. C'ya!

2009-02-09T02:34:00.000-08:00

OH, this I've got comment. I love th lightsticks!

Hahaha. No comment. Lol.

I MISS FAHRENHEIT CONCERT BADLY!/:

Hello, to all. :]

I know I've not been updating.

So yeap. I'm back to blogging. After a few days.

& with a few pics okay. ;D

Lol, and anyway I think this post's gna be long since I've not been updating.

Where did I stop the last time?

I seem to be having STM.

Anw, I shall start from last friday then. ;D

Last Friday we have to present our powerpoint slides to the Shenyang ppl.

It was seriously pretty boring..

Yeah. Then when I was at int, crystal called & told me smth.

Makes me so down. Freakn down.

But anw, I'm fine now. B'cus I know that,

if we're fated to meet, we will meet.

If we aren't, we will never be.

Night time went Dora's house stayover.

'Cus I'm helping her to do the food thing for welcome party.

Saturday had St Johns WELCOME PARTY!

I love party, party, parties, lol.

Woke up really early, for th sake of cooking th fooooood.

So y'all better thank us okay!

Hahaha. Just joking.

The welcome party was TERRIBLY FUN.

Yeap. TERRIBLY. Lol. Some would probably know why.

But it was quite fun la, except for some parts.

After that have 6B& 6D combined reunion.

Only 10 people turned up, sadly.

Lol, then water fight here & there. & kinda lazy to post piccys so next time.

Or maybe won't. ;D

Sunday, rushed my homework like some crazy people.

So I didn't manage to finish all my homework.
But I did most of them, so I felt quite satisfied.

At least I did try my best to complete. Lol. (;

& I'm sick, kindof. Coughing, and lil flu. /:

Lol, but I will get well soon. 'Cus.. Of some reasons.

If you think hard enough, maybe you will know.

I miss Fahrenheit concert badly.

But I heard that they'r coming here soon!

So somehow, my mood's up a lil.

YAYNESS!!!!!! YAY!! :D

(Lol. Sorry for th zi-high.) :P

Are things really that complicated,

or is it just me? Sigh. I don't know,

& don't really wish to know either..

We're nothing more than friends now,

maybe less but deep down I know that's the most we can be.

But I'm still glad that we can still be friends,

at least.

Thanks for all the memories you've given me in the past.

To some(one).

Don't ask me why, but from that day onwards,

you've kinda touched my heart with that small act of yours.

It's you, who've made me change the way I look at you now..

I miss you love. I really really do.. )':

Hai. I'm sick of trying, trying to forget you.

I'll just let time fades everyth away, for I know it will.

2009-02-03T02:30:00.000-08:00

Hello! ;D
This may be quite a long post.. So yeahhyeah, if you wanna read, read.
If not, just treat it as if I had never posted this post before..
Hahaha.

Random thoughts;

Today, I found myself emotionally down..
Maybe it's b'cus of the 'stress' I'm facing lately..
Due to school work, homework that I couldn't seem to understand how to do,
so on and forth.
I'm not sad, or feeling blue over anything, so stop saying I emo here& there.
Just that, some thoughts of mine. Thoughts~
Lol.

I'm not in any mood to scream or whatever you call it.
Perhaps I'm too tired? Yep, I'm quite tired already..
There's just too much things for me to do,
&all seems to be never-ending, always.

Yes. I would say it's true when they said;
' When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. '
I have to admit that something though.
I'm not a 'tough' person to start with..
When the going gets tougher& tougher,
at the end of the day, I would give up.
And because of this, I found myself to be a total failure in many many things..

Like during the chinese test today,
I realised that many words that I came across in the paper to be unfamiliar to me.
Deep down, I know I haven't been revising the way I should be...
& I've always been thinking..

Why I can't seem to cope with the stress that I'm facing?
Why I can't, and my brother could.
Whenever I'm stuck at a particular thing/question,
I would think, why he could make it all the way to such a good,
secondary school, junior college, &even university like now..
And I can't.. No, not can't. I mean, and I seem to be facing so much difficulties,
in my work, even though my school isn't one of the top schools..
That's like even worse, compared to him, I'm nothing.
Seriously nothing.

I was thinking to myself..
If even this kind of study stress I can't handle it well,
how am I going to cope with the bigger stress in future..
I really want to go to a good jc.. At least, I won't disappoint my parents,
everyone who has high expectations of me, most importantly,
I won't disappoint myself.
And that I won't be nothing if ever I was compared to my brother..
I want to be that second star shining in my parents' eyes,
but it's just so difficult..
But with my attitude towards studies, I'm starting to doubt myself..
Yes, I want to go to a good jc. But what's the point of saying so much,
when I'm not even making the effort to study even harder?

If he could, there's no more reason why I couldn't..
Yet, I still feel so helpless in terms of academic.
The best thing of all is that, I've got no one to guide me along,
help me in all these.. Some are just talking& talking,
telling me this & that, but they'r just saying it..
It's always easy to say things, but when it comes to really helping me,
they would be nowhere to be found.
It's always that way. This time, I'm facing all these setbacks alone..
Not even the closest person to me is there,
what more can I expect?
I'm feeling so lousy now..

Kay, enough of my thoughts..
Haha. Today school was quite okay.
I want p.e, but there wasn't any.
Damnit.. But just now, in the toilet was freakn' funny!
Rofl. :D

I'm so angryyy now, I can't transfer some of my top fav. songs into my hp!
And I don't know why..
Sighsigh,. Looks like I just have to listen them through a cd player..
Bye.

2009-02-02T01:40:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I'm wondering if there's really a need,
to confess your feelings to that special someone..
Because if ever you did, you would just end up thinking about it,
and feeling even worse than before.
'Cause deep down, you know he'll never say the same thing back to you,
or will he ever talk to you anymore, look at you even as friends..

Feeling so indescribable.

Hello heyhey. I know I haven't been replying tags yet have been blogging.
Call me lazy, b'cus I'm one! There's quite a number of tags,
&I'm so lazy to reply all.
But I think I'll only reply few recent ones?
Sorry sorry, but if you do tag often,
your tag(s) will be under those 'few recent ones' though..
Lol. I'll see when I'm really free,
(AND NOT LAZY!) then I'll reply some recent tags.

Damn homework, be it tuition homework or school homework.
But sometimes I do love doing them, when I'm really into studying mode..
Not for now of course.

With love& love and LOVE, I'm gna say 'that's all for today.'
Yes. That's all for today! 'Cus I'm really not having the mood to continue..

2009-01-31T03:50:00.000-08:00

Hello&. Hi!

Today've been a long day for me..
As of routine on every Saturdays(except for some Sat's),
there will be St John.
Today ain't of any exception.
So, today wasn't any welcome party as I've thought it would be.
Hahaha, changed to next Saturday which is kinda cool,
probably because I find it cool. Yeah.

Today went like this for the activity;
Parade. Foot drills. First Aid. Case study. Interactions. Parade.
Somewhat went that way.
Wasn't really boring though.
Interactions time has always been one of my favourite part of every activity.
If you were to ask me why, well.. It's really fun.

Teehee, me, Dora, Shawn& Qun Jia were chosen to do the case study.
I've realised how much I suck at first aid, be it theory or practical,
after I went 'thru that quite-short case study.
I don't seem to remember anything just now.
Or maybe it's 'cus I was nervous. No, but I wasn't really nervous.
Lol, I can only blame it on myself for not revising my stuff.

Kay, foot drills being a killer today. Maybe not for the first one hour.
It was fun& I was quite happily banging here& there,
during the first hour. After I heard that it's gna be extended for,
around another hour, my mood's totally went down.
Still, we've endured 'thru! Haha. Isn't that good?

I've been in a shopping mode ever since I-don't-know-when.
Been shopping around& buying stuff which I like these days.
Like just now, I bought Fahrenheit's newest album, a keychain, & a watch.
I love that watch of mine very much. 'Cus it looks simple yet classy.
Okay, it's not really 'classy' but it's very unique.. Cost 10 bucks only.
It's so worth it, for a watch that I really really love.
Even if it's 20 bucks, it'll still be worth it. Price doesn't really matter here.
Lol.

Been having lots of homework lately. And many are uncompleted.
Oh well. And the best thing is, I've got so many tests coming up!
Let me see..
Next Tuesday- Higher Chinese test.
Next next week- Literature & Geography tests.
For the Science test, I'm not really sure if it's on the next next week,
or the week after that. But still it's in the month of February.
I think I've done pretty badly for the most recent Maths test,
'cus I've lost some marks for the first page.
It was so careless of me.. But it's not worth crying over spilt milk,
so I wouldn't be harping so much on it.
I'll just work even harder for the next test.

I'm quite happy about the result of my Maths test on,
Scales& Maps and Direct Proportion.
Quite happy.. Not very happy, because I know that,
pride comes before fall. So I shan't elaborate on that anymore.

That's all for now.
I didn't know I have the potential to post a long post.
Hahaha. That's a random sentence. Bye.

2009-01-30T03:42:00.000-08:00

Haha, i forget to rotate this pic,

tilt you head to see chiobu-s okay! ;D

'Cute couple' ;D hahaha, i'm just joking. :D

Crystal like wanna kill me like that.

SCARY):

First time see jiayi so willing to take piccy sial. Hahah, Joanne! (:

Who's this super noob guy?

Hi Shi Yah! Hello Shi Yah! You're so cute here..

Guess whose super unglam butts there?

Santhosh is VERY CUTE right? Right...

Picture perfect. Not. Oh, hi Zhimin!

twinny too in love with the stapler..

thinking how to confess to the stapler...

She's giving 'No-looking-at-MY-stapler-it's-mine' look :P

She just stead with her stapler, see how happy she was?

Kay, that's SOME of the pictures I took during CNY performance in school.

I mean, before the performance.

While we were doing the so-called,

spring cleaning. Hahaha.

I'm too lazy to post all the pictures la,
so that's all I've uploaded & posted for todayyy.

It's considered good already okay,

I seldom post pictures one ley, so trouble-some.

Yet I'm so nice today to do a trouble-some thing,

for the sake of some people who want to grab th pictures,

seeeeeee! I'm so nice, right! ;D (this sentence only meant for some people.!)

Lol, the bunch of cute classmates I have there ;P

& I'm cuter than CUTER THAN CUTEY!

I'm bhb-ing, so random! Lol.

Kay, off I go to eat dinner.

Bye all!

2009-01-26T21:57:00.000-08:00

Dear dearest diary,

The feelings that I'm currently having are feelings that can't be described in words.
Really. I've got so much things to ponder, so much things to settle,
&of course,many others as well..
I'd really wished that people around me,
be it friends, or families, are able to understand me better.
But sadly, you can't always get what you wanted.

Suddenly felt so hopeless, useless, &everything else that I could think of.
Life sucks, it sucks so much for me.
No one will know why, 'cus no one ever tries to understand me.
But it's alright I guess?
If life's meant to be that way,
then I've just got to accept life as it is.

When it comes to school work, again I suck at them.
I can't seem to understand many subjects in school,
&besides,it's not that I have never tried to ask.
I did ask, but the answers I've got in the end,
still couldn't really clear my doubts.
I wanted to ask friends, but seriously,
there've been no friends,that could really enlighten me.
They have so much to study themselves,would they ever be so kind
&spare some of their time for me?
I guess not, 'cause everyone's like so busy with their own stuff..
Sigh..
And I can't disappoint myself,
parents, friends, relatives, teachers,
basically everyone who has pinched high hopes on me.

Diary, will you ever teach me how to not be sad/emotional anymore?

&love-wise,

I don't have much to say about this.
What I've got to say, I've said them all.
Because it's just a waste of time saying things of no meaning.
Time, time &time. They're all I ever need, for now.

Diarrrrrrrry, I really hope you know how freakn' sad I'm now.
I've been such an unfilial daughter, &'un-great' friend to some people.
I thought this life would be so beautiful,
but unfortunately, it isn't so great after all..
Maybe it really depends on how you see life as,
and I can say now,I'm not being very optimistic towards life.
Pessimistic, that's the word.

Like, thinking how much I suck at many things,
being a failure in basically anything I could ever think of right now.

So diary, felt a lil' better after letting out some of my thoughts.
Let's hope there's such thing as a better tomorrow.

That's all. Goodbye dearest diary.
With love,
Cindy

2009-01-26T07:40:00.000-08:00

I'm havin' the sudden urge to blog,
so here's one.

Lol, freakn' happy today?
Wait, maybe not so.
Lol, mixed feelings I guess.
Hahaha, but today was a hectic, fun& 'happening' day for me.
Good? Of course. I seldom have that kind of days.

So let's talk about today first.
In the morning went to grandpa's house to bai nian,
but sadly, he didn't give me any red packet.
Grandma also didn't give kay, but it's alright.
Maybe they treat me as a young adult,
&think that I'm matured already so never give.
(haha, like real luh. xD)

Afternoon went to cousins' houses.
Yesyes! I have lots of cousins' 'cus my mum's side,
has lots of siblings, &they have lots of children,
so I ended up havin' lots of cousins.
And it's yayness?
Oh, & today I'd received many many red packets.
Really a lot luh, seriously.
Counting the number of red packets,
should be around 15 to 20 I think?
& that's not all kay, I haven't get from some aunties yet..

Night time went for a sumptious meal,
with family& friends' family.
Lol, sounds like a lot of people,
but actually only 8 people went including me.
Hahha.

P.S ; Thanks for all who tagged, will reply tags next time.
P.P.S ; Pictures will be up asap.

2009-01-25T07:30:00.000-08:00

Went out to Forever 21 with mummy just now.
Bought 3 toppps& 2necklaces.
Altogether, they cost around 60 dollars?
&of course, mummy paid for all.
Wait, no, it was daddy actually,
so thank you daddy! Me love you very much.
'Cus it's you who paid them. Lol, xD.
It's not that expensive after all.

After that, I went to rebond my hair.
'Cus mummy asked me to, &my hair's like 'curl-ing' up already..
& it's not really rebond actually, maybe you can call it,
soft bond or something?
That cost mummy (guess how much. ;D)
It's only like, 5 dollars? And it's really really straight!
Hahaha, don't be jealous too fast..
Lol.

That's all for today.
I've got many pictures to upload but currently they-are-not-yet-in-lappy.
So maybe by next post, most probably kay?
Don't be disheartened though. Lol lol lol.

I've found out something during sec 2 camp,
which isn't very pleasant for me..
& I've found out another thing during cny celebration day in school,
which isn't very pleasant for me, as well.
And now, I'm kinda confused, there've been so many things,
that have been bothering me lately.
Sigh, what should I do? & sadly, I couldn't tell anyone about it..
It's not really couldn't.. But rather, I'm thinking if I should.

Anyway, that paragraph above is just an extra one,
really. It's just some thoughts of mine, you know you know.
Okay, that's about it then.
Goodnight/morning/afternoon/evening, earthlings/people/readers!
(That shall depends on when you're reading my post. Lol.)

2009-01-22T03:07:00.000-08:00

Kayyy, I shall briefly type out what happened on second& third days of camp.
Second day;
Morning PT quite boringgg.
Had to do canteen duty for the breakfast.
So yeah, went to do our duty,
&so, we didn't get a chance to practice our mass dance!
What a wasteeeee.

After that, it was time for station games.
Quite fun, except for that freakn' caterpillar game.
To me, it sucked like much.

Night time.
CAMPFIRE! My long-awaited CAMPFIRE!
We're like the last class to perform.
Lol. &I'm super& very zi high during that time.
Ya, now my voice changed already,
hope will be normal again soon. ;D

Last day;
Nothing much.
Did morning PT& flag raising.
Eat. Food was 'very the nice' to me, don't know why.
Then cheered around, area cleaning, & that's all?
Lol. So we didn't win the best class, best camper, best psl..
But it's okay, it's alright, 2hum 2hum fight, fight, fight! ;D
2 hummies still the best class deep down in my heart! Lol. (:

&you can choose to ignore this part.
I don't know why I'm thinking of you,
when I'm not supposed to.
Why do life have to work in this way?
Who knows how hurt I was when I've realised that,
things aren't as simple as I'd thought?
Fact is, no one. But so what if they had knew it?
They still can't really cheer me up totally.
'Cus it takes time.. I once wanted to cry out loud,
but even if I've shed tears for you,
will it ever change how things are?
No, nothing will change. I'll just feel worse than before.
If we can't talk like good friends, might as well be total strangers..
'Cus rather than see-ing myself gettin' distracted so easily,
it's better not knowing you at all.
Though I'm saying it in a very very very very very reluctant way,
but wouldn't things be better off that way?
I don't know, but I think so.
Sometimes I did think to myself,
was it a right decision to tell you how I really feel?
Yes, some told me that it was just a one-sided love.
They may be right, &there's nothing wrong with that!
You can't always expect love to be two-sided, you know.
You'd never tried to understand how I really feel.
So do you have the slightest idea how terrible I once felt?
Never in your life right. Besides, there's no reason why you have to.
I don't want to go 'thru this any longer.
I'd enough of it.. Yes, like as if I could just forget& run away from it,
as& when I wish to. Like I could..
I've got nothing left to say. What more could be done& said?
And anyone, just anyone, if you can enlighten me, that would be best.

2009-01-21T03:11:00.000-08:00

I'M BACK FROM SEC 2 CAMP!
Lol.

Okay, I shall briefly say what were the things that happened there,
so on& forth, kaykay.
First day, some classes which also includes my class,
did high elements. At first, I was like hoping,
pleaseplease, don't high elements today, can change to tomorrow or smth.
But in the end, no, I changed my mind.
I prefer it to be on the first day, which it was.
Lol, yayness!

I love high elements the most, out of everything elseee.
Seriously. 'Cus the stations there were quite challenging?
Though weren't as scary as I thought they would be.
But still, my heart will still beat freakn' fast when it's my turn..
So yeah, I love high elements!
I did 4 stations, which are considered quite many already.
'Cus some people don't even get the chance to try one.
Count me luckyyy? Maybe..

My first station is the walking on the log thingy.
I'd forgotten the station's name, lol.
&I was like the first out of the whole batch to walk on that scary log.
Yeah, 'cus my grp went to that station first on the first day?
Lols, it wasn't as scary as the one I did during my pri 5 camp.
So.. Managed to walked finished the log.

Second station is called vertical pole, is it?
I'm not too sure luh. I did that station with twinny.
That station is like so difficult to climb up one.
But the main objective is to, help each other to get up the thing.
Super tiring& requires lots, lots& lots of self motivation(lol?),
& communication between each other..
In the end, we made it 'thru! Somehow, have this satisfactory feeling. ;D

Third station was challenge pole.
This one.. I did it.
I mean I touched the thing on top while jumping down!(:
Was like, so happy, jumping here& there.
Lol!

Fourth& last high elements station was,
the rock climbing thing, I climbed then stuck somewhere near the top.
I couldn't reach the top 'cus my muscles were like,
very& super painful okay.
Couldn't take it. So give up..
Then something happened there,
won't type it out here.

&the food was okay. Except for at times,
the servings they gave are so little.
But the food there can be considered as quite delicious already.
It's camp, what more do you expect?

I'm kinda lazy to talk about second day& today's.
Maybe talk about it in the next post.
So in summary, the camp was FUN.
& I MEAN, F-U-N. FUN. (:
Congrats to those who won,
best female& male campers, best psl, & best class.

& I don't mind many repeats of the camp! ;D

Kay, that's all. (:

2009-01-17T04:29:00.000-08:00

Today was a helllllllllllll tiring day!
Tsk, I've been so busy all day long.
When will I ever have a break? Sigh,

Yeah, st john-ed today.
Think 12 sec 1s joined us, only.
Besides that, today also had a test.
I say it was pretty easyyy! Seriously, (:
I did attempt all the questions ley,
of course for the exception of one, which I kinda not sure about.
Hahaha. Lol, I'd lots& lots of confidence for this test.
Maybe 'cus I've studied for it? (though it was a last-minute thing.)

Then we all cleaned the st john's room.
It was reallllllly dusty, but after we had cleaned it,
the room must be very clean now.. (:
Lol. &then I think it was dismissal time or somethinggg.

Oh& we'd this so-called 'bondage time' with the newcomers.
Yeah. Let's see how many sec 1 names I remembered so far...
Yi Fang, Ruo Yu(I think?), Hui Wen(I think?), Wan Ying, Patricia,
Cheryl.. Oh damnit, I think that's all I remembered.
Okay, maybe my memory ain't that good after all ;D
But I'll try to remember all by maybe after the welcome party? (:

After we're released, went to eat Pasta Mania with,
Huibing:D , Kailee:D, Dora:D, &Claire:D.
We sort of teased Claire about we-know-who,
&it was quite funny, I mean looking at her expression& all.
Teehee :P
Lol. The Pasta Mania's food tastes bad.
I mean, mine? Yeah, at first it tasted quite okay,
but when I was about to finish them all,
suddenly the spaghetti tastes yucky.
Or maybe it's 'cause of the cream..

Then we went to CP.
We are (Dora, Claire,&of course me.).
They're kind souls that accompanied me just now.
To shop for some stuff that I lacked for camppp.
Thanks a million, billion, trillion, you two!
Then after that, we went our separate ways.
&I walked home alone.
I think I realised something while walking just now..
Sigh. I'm thinking too much, again.

&that's all for today's news.
Thank you & have a nice day. (:

When you come to realise that there's actually something that lasts forever,
will you cherish it?

2009-01-16T03:20:00.000-08:00

I'm kinda not fine emotionally today.
Or rather, should I say ever since I used my lappy just now?
Lol. School's been okay for today.
Someone*(you know who you are?) spoiled my mood,
like totally.

There were only few lessons for today.
Shan't say anything about those then.
'Cause seriously nothing much to say about them.
There was a Maths test just now?
&, I think I'd done quite fine?
The sad thing is that,
I guess, I've accidentally let 4 marks slipped away.
I think so. &I'm pretty sure about that. /:
Couldn' stop thinking about it.

I think the one& only current thing that is able to excite me is,
Sec 2 camp @ Jalan Bahtera Adventure Camp.
Yeah, seriously. 'Cus I think that's gna be the (last time?),
I could see I-know-who& you-may-know-who.
Last time, I think. But in anyway,
I'm quite looking forward to the 3days 2 nights camp.
&esp, CAMPFIRE. ;D
&&, our class's performance.
Hopefully it's going to put a smile on everyone's face. (:
Can't waaaaaaaaaaaait! Egg-cited! You know why, :D

Lol, that's about it.

'Cus wherever you are, I'm still missing you.
When I'm not supposed to.

2009-01-13T02:41:00.000-08:00

Hi LOVE.

I'm blogging today. Surprise? Lol.

Anyway, anyone knows what's LOL stands for?

It stands for...

Laugh Out Loud!(LOL) Freakn cool right?

Oh well. I sort of just realised it today.

(Despite me saying it for 123456789 times before.)

I'm always slower than the rest,

so if you'd known it already, WHO CARES. ;D

If you only realised it after I've told you,

then.. That's your problem. :D

Sch's seem short today.

Lol, yay? Not so/:

Though it was like short, but I kinda didn't enjoy it at all.

Sigh, tell me why anyone? 'Cus I don't know.

Maybe 'cus you feel like a billion miles away?

P.E was seemingly short today, TOO.

Not 'cus I super enjoyed the lesson today,

'cus we don't have time to do anything elseee.

Blame it on the taking of height& weight thingyyy.

But still wasn't that bad actually. [:

Overall everything is okay, OKAY,

so that's my main point of saying soo much kay.

LOL. Yay, now I know how to use LOL already.

L. O. L. ;D

Bfore-I-forget part.

For some people who (ARE) very important in my life,

you'll definitely pull through this alright?

You'll be okay, don't worry.

I'm tellin' you : Everything's alright. &the next time I'm gna see you,

you've got to be smiling PROMISE ME k? (:

I'll do almost anything for you to see you smile.

It hurts to see you frown/cry..

O levels ain't the end of world or whatsoever, really!

You've got to.. Stay positive& optimistic.

'Cus I'm thinking of you again..

Tell me why, why it's so hard to forget you.

2009-01-12T03:57:00.000-08:00

Shall be typing a short post for today.
'Cus I'm kinda rushing for that pile of HOMEWORK stucked in my bag.
Damnit. Screw HOMEWORK.
Then again, I do think HOMEWORK is cool. [:
(this is how random I can get. Lol for me?)

Maybe I shall dedicate this post for the tags-replying or smth?
Yes, I think I should. Waaaaaay too many tags unreplied already.
(Though I'm not too sure if they'll read back what they'd tagged& read my reply to them.)
But in anywaaay, I'm gnna reply now.

CLAIRE. Hey there! Yeah. I will cheer up in no time. Thanks for your concern anyw. ;D
FELICIA. Hai. You can't really help it.. So I've no choice. Lol, I cried. Anw, you don't cry too...
FELICIA. Hello my dearie! Yes, must meet up soon. Don't be too sad about it. LOVEYOU! (:
FELICIA. Hey dearie too. Loves& takecare. Cheer up.
WALDINA. Lol. I'm not a crybaby okay? Haha. I can't help it..
CELESTE. Hmm. You talking to me or? Anyway, I love you laogong!
BENJAMIN. Hi, hm yeah. Quite sick. Lol. So qiao ar? But I'm considered okay now. LOL.
SURYANI. Thanks friend. Sure. Thanks for the kind concern! :D
FELICIA. It's seriously okay. Cheer up cheer up. Love you too! <3333333s
SHEARIN. Hello LOVE. ;D
IRENE. Yeah. So qiao right? That's weird. &I don't know why. Haha. It's cool yep. xD
CLAIRE. Hey bestie. Hopefully will cheer up soon. In no time kay? Don't worry. Loves.
WALDINA. Thanks, same here.
YP. Thanks for tagging BFF. Takecare& meetup SOON. &I MEAN S.O.O.N. LOVES!
JACQUELINE. HELLO there jacq!(: haha,
FELICIA. Yeah. Seen you just now. If you need a listening ear/ a shoulder to cry on, I'M HERE.
MINDY. Thanks a lot. Yep, will cheer up hopefully very soon. Yep, I know that too, (:
HWEETING. Ya, shocked that you tagged me! Anwy,MEETUP SOON. Loves,
CLAIRE. Hello bestie. Thanks, I'll stay as cheerful as possible. Thanks. ;D
LRM. Heyyyyo Crystal. Yep, I won't tell anyone about that. You shouldn' too huh. Thanks.
CLARA. Oh really?! Omgosh. Maybe that's why... But anyway, I can still view it in the end! YAYNESS KAY. Lol.? :D

Tags are replied now.
Search for your tags okay?
Well, that's up to you.
Anyway, thanks for tagging. Love you all loads! ;D.

BYE.

'Cus it's just impossible. /:

2009-01-11T03:29:00.000-08:00

Hey there people.

Been pretty hectic these few days.
& homework is like piling up.
& many things have happened lately.
(which I won't really say them out.)
Gosh. I'm really stress now.

My muscles are aching, badly.
Credits to yesterday? Sigh. Hope they'll be okay as soon as possible.
'Cus the sec 2 camp days are nearing!
Damnit. I kinda not lookin' forward to this camp.
'Cause... Of many reasons. Which I don't really feel like stating them down.

So today went out with twinny& kerlyn to airport.
Don't feel like elaborating though.

I'm still emotional quite down.
Too many things have been happening to me lately.
& they'd caused my to be down, down& down.
I really wish I could be strong enough..

Maybe it's really time for me to move on.
Everytime I said it's time to forget you/move on,
I ended up not keeping the promise I made to myself.
I don't know why, really.
Maybe I'm lost, not knowing what I'm suppose to do.
Cus it had been all too sudden for me.
Too sudden I must say. But I know,
everything is going to be like that, sooner or later.
Then again, why must I feel this way at this point of time?
I shouldn't be like this..
Is this called fate or destiny?

Love is always unconditional.
Love is selfless giving& expecting no return.
Love requires great courage.
Love is never ending.

Maybe it's life.
If things were bound to happen someday,
they will happen.

&anyway, I'm fine.
So don't ask me anything about you-know-what.
Lol. I'm off to do homework.

Best of luck to all sec4s'08 for tmr!

From the moment I saw you, deep inside my heart I knew...

2009-01-09T04:02:00.000-08:00

HEYYY THERE! ;D
Lol. I'm so tired& a lil worn out today.
Know why? I'm sick.
But am better now anyway.
Though it hasn't really healed like, COMPLETELY.
Kay, *skip.

Sigh.
If you'd known what I really wanted,
then maybe you will think twice.
Okay, I don't even know what on earth I'm talking now.
Seeeeee. It's 'cus I'm too troubled/stressed out/clueless on what's ahead of me now.

&this time I can guarantee that I'm not thinking too much into things.
Though many times, I thought I do.
But this time, my mind's telling me that I'm really troubled, so on& forth.
Basically, I'm havin' stress. Of lots of things..
Been thinking a lot these days too.

Anywaaay, I really hope everything's alright.
'Cus whenever I think everything's alright,
it's sometimes not at all..
It's contradicting, of course. But it's the fact.
As from what I've realised.
Can anyone kindly guide me along please?

The feelin' of havin' no one to share your trouble with,
is equals to HELL.
You know... How much it hurts having to keep all you troubles,
problems/everything to yourself.
Sighs, maybe you will only know it when you're going 'thru it.

So if you don't know, then it's understand-able.
Whenever I said it's time to forget you/it's time to let go,
I'd never meant it.
'Cause at the end of the day,
I still found myself thinking of you, you &YOU.
See how much I suck at keeping the promise I made to myslf?

Lol. I seem to be posting emo, Emo, &EMO posts lately.
I don't know why either.
You know there are ups& downs in life. &you can't avoid either of them.

School's been so-so.
Anyway,
GOOD LUCK TO ALL SEC 4s'08 RECEIVING THEIR RESULTS ON MONDAY!!
If you had done your best, whatever results you gna get, are totally what you deserved.
There's nothing to be nervous/sad/scared of, just smile! ;D
Best of luck peopleeeee! :D

Kay, that's it.
Toodles, noodles, doodles.
Wow, they rhyme..

2009-01-07T02:46:00.002-08:00

Hey there.
Today felt kinda emotional.
So I suppose this post's gnna be emotional too.
Don't read if you don't want/feel to.

Something's weighing on my mind nowadays.
Or maybe it has been all along ever since last year onwards.
I don't know how long I've been thinking about it.
&what's worse? I don't have the slightest idea on who to turn to.
It's not only that by the way.
You should know what I meant by that.
It's something else too. Sigh, I really don't know what to do..

Am I regretting it now? Regret that _________ all along.
I've been so childish thinking that ________ . But in the end,
who's the one who'll end up crying? Isn't it myslf?
By th way again, it's not that I'm talking about right now.
So don't make wild guesses.

Sometimes I really wished there's gna be someone arnd me,
whom I can share my troubles with..

But whenever I scrolled down my contact list,
everyone whom I'd thought I'm close to,
actually not. I mean, in reality, they aren't that close to me after all.

At the end of the day, I just have to keep every single thing to myslf,
&thinking.. What should I do next?
If only my brother was here,
then I think I'll tell him my current trouble.
'Cus he knows how I think& so on,
&perhaps, he can give me some directions in life.
I believed he'd once gone 'thru what I'm going 'thru right now.
(Though I'm not very close to him...)

Yes, at times, I really want to tell my BFFs about it.
'Cus they are the ones who can truly understand me.

&are able to give me the advices I need to overcome everything.
And I mean it. But now,
I'm not that sure if I can tell them about my current trouble,
that's like all along been in my mind...
'Cus firstly, they have their own stuff to do.
&they don't know what's really happening arnd me.

So, after thinking twice, I don't think I'll tell them..
It's not that I don't trust th 2 of them by th way. ;D

I teared ytd's night, and ytd's ytd's night.
I know it's childish to cry. But if you'd really known what's my trouble,
maybe you'll understand why I cried.

I miss you love.

2009-01-05T02:24:00.000-08:00

First of all. Hi people.
Lol, so this is sort of my 2nd post of the year.
Hurray! Claps! ;D
Okay, crap.

Let me do some updates on th recent days.
Last friday was th start of school.
Was pretty okay I must say.
'Cus I saw someone,
which I kind of couldn't believe that I'll see that person on th first day.
Really, freakn' shocked out of my wits..
And..
There CCA Orientation prep after school.
No comment. ;D

Let's move on.. Saturday.
It's the CCA Orientation people!
So as usual, Join St John Family all these.
Was feelin' quite uncomfortable wearing th uniform for hours.
Sigh. Have to get used to it sooner or later anywaaay...
Hopefully th sec 1s will join st john yeah.
'Cus as the saying goes..
The more the merrier!! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
Lol, yeah. Lookin' forward to see-ing lots of sec 1s.
& I saw someone again. YAY ;D
Made my day so much brighter. Lol.

Kay, today was fun too!
'Cus someone made my day again!
Oh man. I love going school nowadays.
I won't skip a single school day I swear I swear!
Maybe till a point when I won't get to see someone again?
Even if I'm not feelin' well. I'll still go to school.
Sigh. But still, I have to go to school. I have to.
Nono, it's I want to. ;D
Call me a crazygirl then. 'Cus I sound really like one ;P

Today sec 1 camp! And something happen this mornin'!
Only Crystal, Amira, &some others who know what it was I think.
Omgosh. I want to be a sec 1 for 3days. Just for th camp.
Really.. I want. Just for this camp. Lol, I. Am. Crazy.
Wa, I'm like back to my old self.
Seeeeeeee. You can say it's the power of love or whatever you call it.
'Cause I'm not sure of it anywaaay.

Went home with Claire after visiting Kailee& Huibing at their respective stations.
Yay, fun chatting with them. ;D though it was a pretty short chat..
Oh we came across this bus driver.
He's a freakn' ass I must qiang diao. He's such a noob,
worse than a noob I think!
Shan't really say what he did 'cus kinda lazy to elaborate.
Just now I rlly felt like going right in front of his face,
and just ask him go& die. or xxxx off. Oops. Okay, I didn' type out anything uh.. :P
I think he should be sacked by th manager.
Can't waaait for th day he's gna be fired or smth. (:

Oh&before I forget/thanks to Crystal's reminder-.-,
she told me something this mornin'.
Since she sounded like she wanted so much for me to post about it,
I shall type it out now.
She used another number to msg me&
told me that she's someone.
Then th noob me really believed it.
Yeah, so she used that number to sort of msg me about sooo many things.
Which at that time I took all for real.

So I'd actually believed every word she said,
using th 'temporary number'.
&I really thought ...
Was quite shocked also.
Luckily, she told me today that it was her,
who has been playing arnd w me all along.
I was like. Totally shocked. Was super angry,
I really took all th msgs for real.
Really! So angry with her now. Actually I know luh,
someone wouldn't be so....anyway.
Sigh. I really want to get rid of all my childish thinking.
I went to save all th msgs into my saved msgs you know.
Sigh. Sigh. Guess I'll be deleting those msgs from th 'temp number' soon..

Alright. That's about it people.
Sorry for taking gazillion days to update.
Oh well, it's not really that long anyway.
Yeah. I was lazy only.

Have you ever found someone who can make your heart skipped many many beats?